Uncle tan CL birthday.

it was like 1x+ year I were celebrating with uncle tan birthday, every year i will be there , and he's my father friend.No idea just go this is the 1st time i list down of him because of what he said. sometimes things are funny around , even do he's rich , he still is a kind people as far as i can see , he start his footsteps same as my father , and my father choose not to be so rich he said. it's like open " and close " what just happen? ya i have no idea don't ask X D,i can't change people mind but i can change people thinking.

well well we went to SENRI restaurant i think , whole Panmart were there, we reach there around 8 , and my dad ask me to come back on 6 , sad things happen... was asked my mum to fetch me at the afternoon about 3 i told her to confirm i have to call her, but in fact 3 in the afternoon no one pick up ... and damn i know she's out with auntie shella Y.Y i haven sleep for about 26 hours was doing the 3D modeling ... keep doing until 3 something i stop and i could not go home to sleep , was plan to go home at 3 and had a fast sleep about 3 to 4 hours ... end up ..
my mum called me at almost 5 oc... i'm serious angry and tired, angry has no longer apply after she fetch me , i went home take a bath and went out for an hour, then came home ... chating uploading watch movie until 7 something dad just finish then only went to Uncle tan birthday.

Senri restaurant i think the food is kinda good , the environment is nice too,something inspire me about their interior all about water driping around , but the choice of the preparation is kinda bad , imagine a buffer that only have 5 tempayaki stick for each time , and 10 Japanese rolls at a time , it's just a scam .. i was thinking how would they serve people like this , there are like 50+ guest there , i was thinking is the restaurant 1st time organize a buffer or they din really care what people would said.
all i can said is what we paid is not what we want to get,even do the tempura prawn was like 10 pieces at a time ... for almost an hours the food serving is kinda like slow and people were walking around ... and for me , i was like food food Y.Y where are the food ? there is no food i want food !!! so sad went to the desert conner you think what they serve us? ice cream this and that lots more? ya your imagination were can think more then they prepare...well they give 6 box of ice cream with half of the box is eaten before prepare...this is hard to accept and there is a ABC conner which is only have 10 kinds of mixture well this can be accept.

I think Uncle Tan would not mind about this, because he seem to have fun, maybe uncle peter told me that some people would make the worst things to be the better things in life, so i think Uncle Tan has just apply to it, and for the birthday song singing i feel kinda cold and sad about it i wanted to sing louder to make environment feel joy but sadly i don't want to be a rose in the glass , i don't meant to show off that i respect him , well in fact how much you give is how much you get , the bigger claps you give the louder claps you receive i do believe that i give almost everyone a louder claps.

i saw fake face neh never mind they are always around us , as life goes bare with it or you can't stand it then just act with it .

but i found something cute haha her daughter , she plan his father a cup cake present from Sydney to Malaysia cool... kinda nice about the cupcake .. but but the worst part about the CAKE !! ya even do i don't like eating cake but simple things that the restaurant did not do WHERE ARE THE PLATES , KNIFE?WOW shocking....the don't bother to ask also .... good service and people paid to notice that , i thought Japanese have the best respect to people but for what i see it's all about money only.

All i can said happy 55th birthday Uncle Tan X D.
best wish for you.
July 22 = X
I've just know that date after 1X+ years of celebration with him hahaha
i have a good sleep after more then 30 hours....
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Don't promise me ever

Please don't promises me forever
i want us to love each other one day at a time....
...and string all those days together like the precious things they are..
...instead of trying too hard and promising too much.

Please don't expect me
to always be good and kind and loving.
There are times when i will be cold
and thoughtless
and hard to understand.

But it will only be because of the weather
or the flu
or one of my moods...
...not because i love you less.
Please remember that.

Please don't think about all the things
that could happen to us.
don't think about other people
coming between us.
Don't think about outgrowing
each other or growing out of love.

Please do think about all the good things
that could happen to us.
Think of growing closer to each other,
finding new reasons for being together...

...and think of loving .
i will, too.
I'm right now.

Please don't get mad at me
if i forget your birthday
or some special day we share...

And please remember
that there is an "everydayness"
about what we have that is beyond birthdays
and anniversaries.

That's why, sometimes,
I may not rememeber one special day...
because all our days are special to me.

Please don't ever sign a letter "as ever"
Please don't be too easy on me ...
or expect me to be too easy on you.

Both of us have room to grow,
and both of us have to grow
if we want to hold each other's love.

Please don't ever give me
too much of yourself
or take too much of me .
In our togrtherness
we still need our private places.

Please listen to me
when i'm talking to you...
and please
don't every think about someone else
when I KISS YOU.

Please don't start an argument
or make me look foolis
in front of other people...

..but when we're alone
don't feel like you're walking on eggs.
Go ahead and say what you think.
If o need telling off.
tell me off.

Then we can have our fight
and make up
and love again
just us.

Please remember
to call me sometimes
for no reason
except that you feel me thinking
about you,
needing your voice.

Please don't ever lose that laught of yours
it's such a real laugh

And never change the way
you brush my hair back from my eyes
and smile or pull my ear
when i'm trying to be very serious...
or the little odd ways you have
of saying things that make you "you".
one of a kind
the one i love.

Please
let's not use politeness
and busyness and silence
to avoid our provlems
and they places where we hurt.
If something is wrong
let's go after it and make it right.

It's a good feeling
to thinking of growing older with you,
but , please,
let's not ever grow old.

I want us to always hang on to the newness
that we have right now/
And let's never be ashamed
of our innocence,
of the child within us.
let's never give up our dreams.

Please don't try to keep it from me
when you're feeling down.
I'll never be able to share your joy\
if you try to protect me
from your sadness.

Please
Don't ever say never...
and please don't promise me forever.
all i ask is that you love me
now.

And please know
that i love you more
today
than i ever have before.
I can't promise you forever,
but i can promise you today
with the hope and belief
that there is a beautiful tomorrow
in store for us.



Via:rotatingcorpse

Aren't they asking for sorry?

People dripping tear when come to relationship , why because most of us scare of losing it . that is simple , some people plan a relationship a head , might find dirty way to approach the one they love, when time come it all dependence of time.There are some people that don't cry so easy before getting together and yet after a relationship is on things started to goes wrong,when is relationship is on we are blind even do many things we did not notice such as love once start to change their attitude like , when 1st met they would said no for every things, but when times comes they will just said i want a thing, and things started to change here but most of the people did not notice because some people thinking that is getting close , well in fact somebody were just thinking that it's something stupid or maybe a jealousy ,wipe it and save it.there are people always written and have crying called such as they feel something sad about a game or maybe a joke ... and they will tell the love one they cry for a night for that , i have saw something that is kinda stupid and funny if you really really want to know what all about relationship why not spy on a day you might found a lots of things you would not know about, if that relationship is a planner.relationship is build trust , and get to know each other more and more, some people would go for a boring week, repeatedly and they still feel happy , don't you think every week doing the same things are bored ? oh well in fact life is just like that... that is normal if we keep repeat why we do.
it's bored , don't tell me that the world Stupid here because people may just fall a sleep when come to relationship. how good is good how well is well ? i just can't stand people that love to write sad note on a note pad , phone msg or a blog , and it written said that " you don't know how i feel and i hope you don't see this I'm trying to trow away the note" geesh you found it .what the meaning of this ? i had no idea are you trying to ask for sorry?


It's all about sorry...
sorry when time come i hurt anyone of my friends , i might be too late to said sorry but at least you feel something here , sorry that i treat people so cold , sorry that i being a person that straight forward , sorry all the things i might not to said but i did , sorry i build hope but i did not appreciate , if you had a time droping by here i'm glad you are someone that i really need to said a sorry for you . I wanted to go ahead but i have something blocking people might said it was just a fake reason , else i'm not asking people to believe what i had , i know it's just too late to said sorry and yet all i can do is just jog down here.I'm just to said sorry for the people i chase for , friends that i screw up , things i had promises , sorry if i can't really do it , i will still going for what i'm doing but you might feel me cold, sorry is what i want to said i hope you my reader who saw this , i'm just happy if you just read it . sorry.I'm appreciate every moment i had. thank you.

i did not give up , i just don't know how to approach ....

How to understand Samcrictim language

How to understand Samcrictim language
there is few easy words like
BiBo BiBo = it means yes , report in ,accept, sender
BoBi BiBo = it means no , report out , not acceptable , reciever
dido dido = it means Oh yeah , feel like sleeping , use to express sleeping but can't.
dodi dodi = it means oh no , feel like not sleeping , use to express that you are going .

what the different with Bibo Bibo with dido dido?
the different is one is to express and one is to communicate , Bibo Bibo is use to communicate , and dido dido is to express.

examples:
Bibo Bibo - bibo bibo i get the message.
bobi bobi - bobi bobi he's not here !!!
dido dido - damn I'm dido dido now ....damn tired.
dodi dodi - well in fact I've just go to dodi dodi at my room now ...

to whom that feel this.

When people walk away , maybe something is happening infacts there is something that we should not ask , else we can only walk forward and leave people behind put ourself into places and not looking back for memories, so just don't give concern to people that stop, they may slow you down.

so please don't slow down for a person that don't want to help itself we have to walk away and be curel to them because the more you care the more they made mistake, they can catch up with us if they really want.

so sorry i beign so selfish and curel you have to make yourself clear and understand it.


We hunt for food because we are hungry , we do so much and hard work just to push to limits , we work so hard it's just because of money yet not dream , it's all about life till the end we were people that sleeping inside the coffin, where does we really go?We had just no idea where we go, it's so stupid.we just lost!!!!

things that i don't know how to said.....

sometimes i don't know how to said maybe i have to use to it ...
have to learn to walk at this time , i'm free to go i'll never going to look back , all i have is just forget it , you have thought me much thanks alots .
what a news you have, at least you go will the happy way,moment that i play joke with you , talk to you , what you said what you thought ... it just end it here,what else i can ask for , the love you gave me is more then a real father can give maybe,you left with a smile , things that you said in the room that day was my last to see you forwardly how could this happend ? i can start to learn stay alone , maybe i remember i cry on the time when i have a selection you hug me and tell me sometimes things will regret after you choose ,so what are you doing now or later don't worry and don't regret and work it hard , i work very hard i also did what i can sorry you can't see what i'm having now , but i'm not sure can i really stay alone i have no idea, you guide me thought the way this few years althought i did not really know you quite long maybe 4 years is a good realationship,i've remember that time i cry you hug at me it's so warm, i remember i remember i remember .
you said glad that i'm here with you that day , why don't you just tell me that you are not felling weird or what ? maybe i can predict it or what ... a sudden leaving i can't accept it . althought i'm smiling but people do not know my feeling . it's so cold now , tear are droping , things went so wrong . i should have told you more things or maybe i should tell you more jokes that day , i 'm leaving you a empty msg and it's just a few hours chat... i hope i stay longer so i can tell you more things but i can't make it sorry i'm sorry , i thought you want to rest but you were thinking something else , I SHOULD not leave so early i should stay , i should !your giving are more then i can imagine,sorry i'm very sorry i can't change things here but i felt so bad you know.You threat me so well as a son but i can't mange to hold you till the end ,It's not faith , it's my mistake it always my mistake ... there is no one else then here.i can't things now , i'm breaking down... you said "sam move on you did well , proplem that you have is not the problem , that problem you can slove easy". after reciving something after his incident i know what happend and why he lefted something for me and it's something that i've slove the problem , you not even my father but why would you do that , i have no idea , sorry crying at now are pointsless ,the relationship of us is not about that , is the meaning and the facts that we share it's a joyful share , why just why .... sorry i work very hard for what you said and i do and do , i'll never leave you a empty answer for that.things that you gave i don't know how to give back or return , thanks you for all of this years and words. You are a person of the picture gone with ....what you told me that day on the room i'll do i will .

it's worth to read when it's real

finals for 3D modeling the lighting is kinda bad and the texture is kinda week X D no comment get a B+ for the subject X D ..... everythings goes fine .




kah heng 21st birthday X D.

Picture i edited with wallpaper X D

Look at zikang @@ no comment weh ....

Model shooting X D

If You Can..

If you can start the day without caffeine;
If you can get going without pep pills;
If you can always be cheerful, ignoring aches and pains;
If you can resist complaining and boring people with your troubles;
If you can eat the same food every day and be grateful for it;
If you can understand when your loved ones are too busy to give you any time;
If you can forgive a friend's lack of consideration;
If you can overlook it when those you love take it out on you when,
  through no fault of your own, something goes wrong;
If you can take criticism and blame without resentment;
If you can ignore a friend's limited education and never correct him;
If you can resist treating a rich friend better than a poor friend;
If you can face the world without lies and deceit;
If you can conquer tension without medical help;
If you can relax without liquor;
If you can sleep without the aid of drugs;
If you can honestly say that deep in your heart you have no prejudice
  against creed or color, religion or politics; then, my friend, you are

  almost as good as your dog.

www.jimgeary.com/faves/IFYOUCAN.HTM

People in the picture "No more"
Have you every saw a picture with tears?
Gone it's all gone , just one night everything gone ....
who's knows about the feeling? who?
No one else does , who cares about it ?
it's just gone ... people in the picture just gone.
things won't go back , and time won't change 
making a anti clock vise clock did not change anything .
it's just change the thinking of human , we are still cheating ourself
just one night it's gone left with the picture .
YOU MAY REST IN PEACE.

People around me the think what they do they din make up thier mind and reply with heart , as given the door is open but the invites stop there , when the door close the invites wanted to go in and want to said something. I could not understand why and what happend , you msg me at the time i reply and just make things invisible? well i'm on my own i guess , if you think that is fun or else ... that could let it be , what are you thinking and what are you doing is a matter of facts ... The door will not always open and the door may close very long for certain reason. i'm middle of busy of something that people would think that i would know something or maybe people will qoutes something on thier private message there and i would know what's going on... well i can tell you one things if what you think is true , i can't change the fact it's already a point of view of yours. what matter now?it's has a funny attitude , no reason to know why because the answer is pop up since early.

There was a situation like this a person who don't know what is correct and what is wrong , he/she is asking for answer by the side of thier own , proudly the answer will have more advantage to the asking side , it's what is answer made of? asking people around and yet people said yes you are correct and he is wrong , you no need worry what he/she said? is this what usally answer the asking side? more or less people would support you just because they don't you to get mad and always go with the same answer that what you having ,no matter how wrong you are they still price you , support you . is this what you want? well lots of people can do that ... avoiding argument but this only kills did not helps , you can think of thousand of reason to make a right person wrong , you also can made of millions of wrong to the person is right. it's all depance on what you see or we can said our heart.

When things started , most of the things are beautiful , people can forget about all of the things, sleeping dreaming each other , when things go abit long and long things started to change 
it's start with simple , and it's getting complicated , why so , let's said  a couple did not have any argument before or maybe talk louder to each other , when things is out of limited one of then can't stand it or maybe it's hold in the heart too long things like this may blow out some situation, when this kinda of situation had it people who's angry will start to blame the weather , family all sort of things . but this only the starting , it's has the 1st time it's will happend then 2nd time but when till the day that he/she can't take it anymore yet things blow out again just like that. That means it's has certain reason to hold the breath so long just to explode one in a wild. make it this way people may though i'm into something , but what sort of things do i get into? trouble? it's that what i want ? or is that what you want? Don't ask for the reason , think carefuly is that really what happend?I'm not god also not an angle what i wrote and what i see is the fact of future use some of my friends believe it what i said and what i read , some said rubbish what sort of rubbish is writing here? i can't even understand, you know why would you said that ? before reading this you heart is already anti about it , so going and going you are just reading my bull shit, yet you think it's a rubbish . matter or facts does it has same situation that you having now or maybe it already happend ?

Thanks you for reading this ,well if you want to send me a message that doens't reply well you already got me , you love your prank right you share to somebody else, so it's fun , it's happy to you do you feel you are the winner ? oh gosh you are just a GOD. You are smart to know things like this but you never know a person feeling , you just worry about pride , right and wrong.

People do judge people at first sign , after a small argument then following days will be more and more diffrent , can prosit to stranger level ... like i don't know you . so this is what people thinking and doing . Life of choice , winner takes all you know why? winner just take all, all of his/her answer, that made them a winner. So are you a winner now? 

it may harm for the strong words , but why people will said that , it's too free nothing to do come to critic and flame? if that a fact then make it your answer , you are always a winner.

Pass week ....

Section with David X D


OurModel X D

see uncle  doing what behind there cross hand wor hahaha X D

chasing cars i'm in the car downhill with them .....

UFO!!!! sport car interio nice ? X D

Top hill of the gasoline and lookout point ....

Our big brother ... Tv8 Hair stylist for I want to become a model  X D he's well known on magazine ...MR. JARRYL EE



i'm on my holidays for a few weeks... it seem nothing happend X D...
but moment between the holidays it happend alots of things,good and bad , sad and happy ... lots of lots of thing just happend.

2weeks ago Uncle admited to hospital , was so worry about it the moment i get the phone called, my hand was shacking i've no idea ... what just happend , Uncle fainted on the ground at 2 at the morning , he woke up for some drinks and fainted few steps after reaching the ground floor, lucky there nothing happend to him .So worry @@ i get the phone called by Uncle chew at lunch time , looking for Uncle for lunch he asked me few days ago ,end up i went to hospital and had lunch with him there,the day before the incident my dad went to some dealer to get the fruits , he bought big orange , mango , apple,grape , so many box !!! until the chiller can't slot anymore , dad was planed to bring up to penang to gave ivan mun and father also sister, but it's too much !!! i ate almost few days fruits breakfast lunch and dinner, i bring some to Uncle , he seem to be happy at the bed , had some chat with him , he asked sam do i over work or do i always works too stress? i was trying to avoid that question... i know the answer but i'm not amature to answer that question yet , because i also over works sometimes but to me stress is like totally nothing , i can't feel it but some how i can see how people act when they are stress , So i answer him Uncle actually nowadays the weather is quite hot it's not how you work ,last time you also work like this now also the same what change you?weather?Uncle smile on me and said i've think proply i serious work too hard , i need to rest , you no need to take me for a garden walk. @@ ok well he knows something.talk and talk till i quite late friend of mine called me up ,asked me for food season so i said ok, then we meet up at my house , they bring me to subway 1st then went to A&W for deserts .... wow what a days....

for the few days and stright for food season i'm scare .... well we do explore alot but money costing also quite alot @@, we been to thaipan for red bean soup , bubble tea at sunway , went up to gasonline moutaint , look out point , subway , wendys , almost all @@ then also went to kl for beef noodle middle of the night , then went to pudu for poridge also the jelly fish,Taman sea big frieds , PJ 9 frieds banana , ice cream section ,kfc ,mcdonlads sundae.. more more, Tenji at Mont Kiara wao until i fat now hahaha ...

lots of friends was asking me where did i have so much money to eat X D.. after going pray season with mengz we both get a lucky lottery that win us money more , good things is after i get the 1st stricked i get anoter lucky 1st price @@ wow ...
not bad weh this comming holidays got extra pocket money ... wanted to get a new phone but not at the moment la . everythings get smoothly after the praying section , before i was trying to go to praying season i hear what uncle said , he said , said jor must do , do jor must understand.After listen to that i quckly called to mengz and ask him rather he want to go for praying anot lucky the buzy asshole is free else there is no pocketmoney X D.

after upgraded my pc few fans i'm quite happy with the temp it's quite low and nice,
There is one hell week , 10 pc to fix and format @@ killing man ... sumore dennis called up he also join the fun ... ask me to format his pc and check any problem too bad his ram is dead , so have to wait spare parts.It's a busy week @@ i tried to rush all pc in 3days because there is a beach party , before i go i have to format all then only i can have fun trip.

@@ beach party , there have 2 groups of people asked me @@ but lucky one of the group did not called at the last minute thanks god, so i went for a day trip at PD we had an afternoon BBQ party there ... some of the guys they quite smart and infomative @@ how on earth they get fresh and nice fish and seafood @@ ... no idea weh just suprize .... we went back at 7 oc tired and happy everyone went back to pj and had a beer season , then all went home early about 12 we all said bye bye good good this kinds of events and organize guys are quite nice and relaxing , actually i'm the youngest there , all also macam uncle liow geh ... siong chey ... haha i know them by uncle actually , uncle told me that he's out off the range and could not catch up anymore on that , i believe that so he just intro to me and ask me if i have change bring some picture back , well picture i did not bring any back Y.Y sadly,but i did told him after he get out from hospital.

Old man was too happy and i've a mission that is take care and chill down Uncle , try let him relax and don't him stress out , well some stupid old joke would helps , laughting will helps too.... X D

By the way i've been running with Uncle at TTDI for like weeks , he can run everydays i can't do that at the 1st day @@ not even 5 km, but the secound day getting better because my leg is in pain so when i can't stop if i stop the pain will get more because the muscle is tired ... reach the 3rd day my leg totally can't run but can walk , i did not go on the 3rd day after the 5th days i follow again well i can feel the power of joging, well finish 5km for 1 round . then the next week uncle bring me to kelana jaya park there for running he asked me 10 round lets us set 10 round for this week total it up it like 70 for a week ... so i promissed him and he said bring me to food season but without sugar , a week a head is my body check time , actually i quite scare about the report 1 you know .. but uncle forced me to run just because he know somethings that i don't know ...until the days my repots is out then i know what the reason of running ... the pain of my legs is still there but i'm trying hard to building up strengh back , ahead events i can play futsal again but not the old ways , batminton should be ok not a problem at the moment , but still i need to follow up with the doc at bukit rimau there @@ dad took me there for needling and massage for the nee cap and the nerves .... well he said i can run now do more sports will heal faster, i've told him the pain i had he said no worry you do sit down execircs 1st then only go for running, haha ok ok i done that and now i can run but not over running it still hurts he said when you facing pain after stoping by , then i have to stop else it's a big problem .

there goes my holidays .....

PC upgraded with 2 fan

sisqo incomplete

Whoo
Ooh
Oh yeah yeah
Listen

Bright lights
Fancy restaurants
Everything in this world
that a man could want
Got a bank account
bigger than the law
should allow
Still I'm lonely now

Pretty faces from the
covers of the magazines
From their covers to my
covers wanna lay with me
Fame and fortune still can't find
Just a grown man runnin out of time

Even though it seems I
have everything
I don't wanna be a lonely fool
All of the women
All the expensive cars
All of the money don't amount to you
I can make believe I have everything
But I can't pretend that I don't see
That without you girl my
life is incomplete

Said without you girl ahh
Listen

Your perfume
Your sexy lingerie
Girl I remember it just like
it was on yesterday
A Thursday you told me you
had fallen in love
I wasn't sure that I was

It's been a year
Winter summer spring and fall
But bein without you
just ain't livin ain't
nothing at all
If I could travel back in time
I'd relive the days you were mine

Oh yeah that without you girl ahh

I just can't help lovin you
But I loved you much too late
I'd give anything
And everything
To hear you say
That you'll stay

Without ya girl
Wiuthout ya girl my life
Without you girl
My life my life is incomplete
Without you girl
My life is incomplete
Oh yeah
My life is incomplete
Oh yeah yeah
Whoo

something i found it somewhere when i'm doing my assignment.
i been busy about my work this pass week till now still busy,today went out with binwei , kokliang and geekeong ... he came back from taiwan last saturday @@ , his grandma admid to hospital ...at the same day he arrival we went to gerenal hospital there wait till 2 something and then went to A&W had some picture of beer hahaha... around 3 something we went home and sleep then next morning we heading to pc fair, i've plan to get some high rpm fan X D , ya i did ,and i did again.. bought 2 high rpm fans which is 12 cm and 8cm fan , before install to the computer , my GFX temp were 58par% after install it , it drop till 46 at start then slowly went up to 49 i still testing on it i hope it maintance at 49par% at the hiest point X D .... and everythings are working fine now...well time to rush my work again slacked for a day X D

Dinner at uptown ... called up uncle ben and told him i bought fans ... get screw !!! hahaha , he said you buy fan again !!! are you crazy . i told him that my old 12cm fan are not so good at pumping the hot air our so i go for upgrade X D.
then binwei they all also said i'm so crazy about the air flow of my cpu , dude you guys have air-con on you should know it's diffrent from me, i seldom on the air-con ,
but now normal running speed i still stricked the lower par% in the gang hahaha....
2 12cm fan out and 1 12cm fan suck in come with at 8cm fan .feeling going for the liquid thingy... but when i read most of forums they said high maintance .... so i would just plan a head for that , if i really need (actually that is extra, i still prefer fan X D.

i'll be soon here X D
.... better start my stuff now.

If you followed you should know what's ON

i suddenly feel dissy and lost forcus i've no idea what's wrong ,i'm tired but
i'm kinda hard to rest for it , seriously i've no idea what's wrong ,my body
are getting weaker , i started to see blur things and i keep close my eye , feel like
vomiting but it's doens't work, just feel not well ...

maybe i'm just tired , never hard this feeling before , body are so low in power
even typing also slow i've no idea what's wrong.Even my finger are cramped now ... i have no idea what had just happend

maybe it's my time to get a good long rest for it , i've lots things in hand
there are way more enought time to do just slacking is more then do, what's the point
tired and i'm feeling sleeping.

there might be one of the ten but i'm just one of the half now,people has no idea what am i talking maybe...someday people will understand, someday...

A can of beer that makes me dissy , and i'm totally loaded with it.maybe it's time to change the habbits about it.

Poan last night really sorry seriously can't send you to hospital,i've no idea what's going on last night with you but dude please take care about yourself , i feel bad that i did not send you to hospital, i have works to do serious that is no joke i thought you wanted to go to clinic around our house area but instade of that you said maybe going to hospital , for this i can't make it sorry really sorry.
I've msg mengz but his msn were off @@ and i kinda scare to disturb him due to most of the time i called him up he were bz so i did not called.
Until 8 something mengz called me @@ so early dude i was like no sleep at all ...
the feeling is kinda hard to tell but at least it's not april fools , poan serious went to hospital that mid night.

Pern must be wondering why would i ask her to msg me at 11.50 pern now let me tell you,if you read the following post you should know what i'm talking. X D
after all that is a fact. things are just changing.

Well i'm saving cash for final year kinda ,headache now a sum of amount still need to cover it.Save save save .... BREAD BREAD < sad case weh.

I'm getting back my food timetabble , full loaded with food nowadays the effect is just to gain back what i've lost pass month.maybe beign fatter are more cute haha
X D , as what i said was a joke just want to rebuild my timetabble and balance back everything now.

The reason....

yesterday i recieve a msg that's from estrealla , she msg me and said her father just pass away ... feel sorry for her lost.And kinda shocked ... people can just easy go away like that..
qoutes of the day "we should appreciate everyone and stop building enemys."

Fish cried at the tank and water said i know how you feel , fish said i'm in the water you can't see my tears ,water said i can't see your tear but i can feel your tear droping because it's you are inside me.

james thanks for things that you told me , i'm kinda of missing direction X D. but
don't worry i've do what i can just thanks for everything.

To my pet brother.

Hi there if you still visit here my blog,
sad to see you offline for my guess you must be blocked me or deleted me on you list , but i did not block anyone that day , i'm on a rush as i told you before, plese do understand ,i'm not small gas ,things that what i said that day were something i just want to tell you about the feeling how i feel sudelly . but yet i'm on a rush it's not a lie , or maybe you think it is a yes well ok then i'm wrong at the moment, well if you want to end a friendship like that i'm ok with everything please do remember what you read last time in my blog there is a post of blog that i menction before ,may09 2008 you should have read it before... i did not modify it's maybe it's there you din read or notice hope you will have a little reading on that.the other day i'm quite sad it's because you said something about the BROTHER things which i sudenly feel something ,that day was my birthday and i though my pet brother will remember my birthday , just sad about that and that day you sudelly trigge my mind about it with the words brother.I still remember your birthday is on april 1 serious if you have notice last year i send you a sharp msg on 12oc.

I'm not begging for anything to turn back,
if want things end let's end it in the right way
don't stucked in the middle of self emosion and react,
middle has too many missunderstood.

At least i know what's going on .... i have no idea what's going on.

A Quick leaving make everythings missunderstood.

wooo photshoop X D

huh how do you do this @@

omg where is my hand X D

jackie saw hot chix there

weeks ago happend a missunderstood converstation.

Yeap... i hate them , they always postphone stuff.. why can't you guys tell me early... i've just create a missunderstood , now i know maybe it's a faith.. that days uncle ben were at my door and i quickly end the msn thingys. when things in situation like that it create a problem inbetween, althought i thinks following uncle ben were fun buy end up they postphone... Uncle ben face were change totally haha ... then he bring me to uncle teoh there slightly tea time. Uncle teoh damn sui keep said shoot what la .. no need ga la ... this and that uncle ben keep his mouth shut and keep drinking till a phone called then uncle ben said send me to college ,need to do 3D and 2D...

Stupid james..., i went to his house to fix his slave and then you know what i found .... smart ass 
you pull out the jump cable then how would your hdd run ...JAMES ANSWER ME WITH A VERY COOL ANSWER "Eh sam i tog got power cable hdd can run and detect" yoh i don't know want to laught or want to said  just half empty and half full situation. ok den just plug in his cable and everythings work fine @@ now i know why he said no need rush ...that slave pc is use to download... so lame weh now all follow what i do Y.Y copywright leh, all my 2 old pc were change to slave to download stuff and my main pc is for my work assignment.That day james suddenly have an idea he said does the person  blocked you he can see your msg anot?i was like the person can't see because it did not longer update the user , james keep conviece me that i'm wrong then i do a small example for him to see , it's actually yes the user block you or you block the user basically people can't really see what you updated msg/tittle , you only see the last tittle he /she put. then here goes again haha james food food you owe me.... so coincidence his father were back ... ( i tell you somethings JAMES your father, can talk the whole night 1 ... salute !!!) uncle talks alot and bring us to dinner , auntie were on holidays so 3 banana went to hilton to ate @@ uncle why everytime also hilton haha .( then i notice something UNCLE SAID hei SAM THANKS FOR HELPING JAMES REPAIR HIS PC) james face were like "OH O" JAMES!!!!!!! YOU BARSTARD !!! IT's not coincidence you called up your father early !!!) ok , i'll remember you , thanks you for the meal james and thanks to your father haha. wei next time don't drop msg at blog please ,call me since i just gave you my number(Please don't pass my number to your father if he ask you said you contact me from internet !!!else not kill you)...James father is quite nice to talk with actually but not everyday hahanow  i know why james.(feel sad about you haha>in fact i glad to feel happy to you haha)

Yen seng email me , he is going to his auntie house there for working and also follow up his father stuff , i guess it's a long lost friends again... no worries he will still send me emails. at least better then nothing.

saturday night binwei they called up and i went out with them , we sit 2 car binwei driving and me , chuan and kok liang were inside both car X D . 1st we went to nasi lemak there for dinner i actuly ate so i did not really called food to eat , then later on ... all are so desprade about ice-cream then went to one utama mcdonalds there and have ice cream only desserts not more then that , before we went to MCD we went back ss3 to pump petrol then here goes the crazy parts.. binwei car has been chase by a wira then i'm behind him saw his car pull me far far away...  then i chase up .... binwei is playing with a wira and a myvi ... i were chasing up .. but can see .hopefully eveythings is quite save , binwei salute your car X D mine want to get near also abit hard. haha

See see here X D

1st

1.This is your back of your laptop all you need is a screwdriver then screw out the bottom left from picture , the hdd should be located at there so IF YOU UNDER WARRANTY DON'T DO THIS BECAUSE IT'S VOID WARRANTY.

2.after screw out the screw you should see your hdd inside mine is abit small but your should be bigger i guess.(open the cover)

3. Mine has a metal thingys blocked and also remove it.

4. This your hdd , becaful ..(picture above)

5.Slowly remove it out, DON'T PULL TO DIRECTION UP , you should pull to the left from picture above .

6.Tada you got your HDD from your laptop . ( picture above)

                                                                                      OR

7.This is an encloser , it's 2'5 inc for laptop saize HDD, take your hdd slot into the encloser then(most of the people called the external HDD CASE but there are 2 type this things , one type of encloser come all in one that means cannot open up 1 so that 1 can't be slot in your HDD if you or your friends has a encloser that can open it up that should be not a problem.( picture show above)

8.weee run with a usb ... that should be not a problem to take back your data..you can use it running with your 2'5 encloser/external hdd case , but careful external case has a bad things that is you can't drop , it also depance your luck once you drop you might lost data or total lost so becaful when you using a external HDD case.

New toy haha X D thanks you !!!

Qoutes that i found from stumble 

i have another one which i found it nice> 

it's kinda hard to explain to average person 
why we will breaking all our bones but you know what 
that's what makes our sportt so bad ass 
i don't think there is such a things as too far 
it's just the boundries just keep getting pushed 
further and further. 

Travis pastrans

what's friends means actuly? 
i have no idea with the friends is? 
just to chilling or really matter talk about facts? 
are we means to said anythings? 

i have a frinds called mengz , i knew him from poan and shintau ... from what i see is sometime is good to know him , but when come to time , he's always failed ... He help me alots this few month .Thanks alots my friends.

Things are going to change : 
sorry to people that think that i'm wrong 
wrong that i admit  
admit things that is come to conclutions 
conclutions came with a stop. 

This present you a apology gift , the reason is not what people think it just things that you can't convience inbetween,soonfatt msg were right "inbetween of trust there is a lie between in it". 
i did not make a blog to be a corward , i just don't want to tell people about it , just things you never know what's going on, that has no meaning sometimes .Does sharing is caring? well for me at the moment is yes because i think it might works on best buddies , for other fact i don't think it works ....  

uncle ben msg me last few days he said "the world is round , that why we have the night and days around us.apon of what you see might giving you a bitter well that is matter fact of life." 

just so want to tell him that i'm just half empty and half full situation.but too bad he doens't know i have a blog here X D all he know is my daily blog, with is all my chatbox are in one but diffrent places, people might think that is a blog but nope. if a friends is worth to know why not find it out X D you may found some answer inbetween.

 

A box of new motherboard I7 motherbord !!!

It's worth?

Half full Half empty?

I been asking this question for month ago uncle ben ask me this question during a weekend , i was chilling with him then he ask me this question and i said it's same , but that time i'm not sure about my answer , then till i found the answer then now i know what is this means, he's trying to tell me something now i have no idea what's that , he said something funny " the world is round , that why we can have night and day." no idea what is that means just keep in mind.

This is a game that has no facts of skill means that everytime you play you need diffrent answer X D i've finish it many times just feel this games is quite nice.

Pern conversation

This is what pern converstaion is.
Pern is my classmate , she a half thai half chinese i guess.Those 2 aren't just notice what's going on now , just now i've recieve a msg from pern said about something suprize and scarry, i've no idea what's going on but pern you should chill , it's doens't worth to let a person to made you like this way you should not fell sad about this kind of people yet it's a just a feeling of it, just no idea you made yourself sad just because that it's really worth, since he's so bad why still feel regret letting go? maybe i don't know anything about it or maybe i'm cold blood.

Don't scare me off, she almost shocked me ... but when i ask estrella about it she told me something then i just do my work. X D 

Yeah 21yo liow

It's been a long way and time i've never update due to personal reason .I hardly sense to move on to the next level , between it has something happend to finiacial problem seem ok but not, how i wish i can just tell somebody, but it's no meaning about it , i aint looking for help but i'm looking for answer. Brother said comming but nope it's not , i hope things are fine here and there just like the old days , that day i been ask myself why did i went to study for? do i really want it or what , i've the answer years ago but when i saw the pain of it ,i've break down and slow down ,i tog that was a fine amount for him but not , i've no idea how many sweat he drop just to give me a happy enjoying life and i'm not saving it just ask for more. things might change a little bit here , there goes for nothing and something now i'm middle of the sea and looking for island . Friends of mine just told me let it be how far you go it's not a fact anymore , it's how much you know.I feel the pain of it deeply , i've said i'll save more for it, i'll do more things and that but all i know is i'm just telling lies to myself, for so far what i've really done is i make a strong selection that has pain within ... just thinking it's really matter me now.

I don't care how people see me now maybe i'm just a talker , might be somebody of wannabe i just don't care about it , all i know the fact is i need to keep to myself just to know what is correct and whats wrong and what do i really need to understand and not so.I'm not good at all but at least i'm something that still contain some values in it.

march 7 it's my birthday
there are many people said that sam i'ma your best friends you know , well make it as a fact 1st ,when come to greetings they are not even a frineds of it , i did not put a notice on the web and other place all i've done is remove the real day. A fine guess for the 1st greeting  was a internet friends not so close but at least send me a msg wish. i'm suprize about that yet happy , not just anythings it's a joy of recieve it , and next was DT send me a msn msg , was really happy because he sure remember my birthdays "evendo my classmate know me 1 year ago also know my birthday, that day march 6 i was keeping my mouth shut and did not menction anything about it some of them give me a suprize wish when i reach class it's kinda happy".i'm just happy on the day but what's make me said is there are a person said that "sam i know you well" he did not wish me at all i hope that is what i heard wrong at 1st place... last year i've set into friendster and some of the website , so they know... and people said things won't change much , it's just additional somethings. for the reason i don't want to argue is i waited the correct date and blog it out and look whos your best friends now?and they do dare to said so loud about it. i just tired listening to those shit that is i live longer i know better stuff, it's piece of shit ... your story doens't contain anymore values to me because it's a lie on it.

night time actuly i did not really celebrate dad and mum said want to have a dinner and i've told them nevermind i have plans later, time pass reaching 10 binwei msg me said want to go out for tea anot so i just said ok and go out with jarryl ,kokleong,chuan and binwei , we went to mcdonalds and have some chat was very happy. After 12 chuan said sam happy birthday to me but it's over 12 de , nevermind it still a wish . just happy that day ... then went home ... uncle ben called up bring me out ... ok ok told them i'll leave soon because i'm not in the mood because of somethings happend this few month and very bad things happend to me , it's personal just don't want to menction. sat down and talk till morning , just fine sometime i don't wish to share those things because it's no meaning in it.

A funny things about here 
that day somebody ask me sam why you blog ?are you try to show something to other people?
i answer most of the people i mention of things happend most of them they don't know what's going on so means that it's just a place to let myself to tell myself what is going on by year comes .I blog because of future refrence , i show is to know what i have that time , i scare that one day i'm nothings but still i have a small little datebase of my story for my ownself to read .
recenlly i accidently went to a blog that is a couple blog i think they invite wrong email , i found out that is no meaning about it ,
they just writing a diary of words and said the writer feel about his/her love one and it's so funy at something , she said "lucky i did not want to eat so you can save up some money for future"
god i'm thinking do you really can save much with a con of ice cream? does it means everybody has 1 dollar in hand and planed how to use in future? and the male reply as "you are my loveonce and great one who know how to help me save money for future." ok no comment onto this, there are something i not use to see in the blog , picture ..... and lucky  i did not take any of it. 
after being a victim of wrong email to enter people blog i've change my mind blog are really not for secret one wrong press you had some wrong move into it.I just found out that blog has no meaning about it , it was like something happend and add on words and she wrote like things are so touching and yet matter of facts i've no idea what's the real reason, maybe he want the male things that she is great to him and him is great to her .... sort of things like that i've just no idea what is that , just so no meaning .....


all being this long year i've pass my birthdays quietly ... i did not really plan to have a party or what .. i just plan to see something that is what people said friends are use to be, from now on i don't believe that things like i know you well, because they doesn't know .After this they might said i'm busy about something and other reason ... no need tell me no need to explaint because you did not own me anythings. i'm ok with it just i found out what friends really means now.

i told uncle ben before if you failed to remember people birthday don't ever said you know he/she well because it may cause something in future... he told last few days ago yes you are correct i do agree with that , uncle ben was in sick this few week i've no idea what just happend he looks tired and not very happy maybe business had some problem, i'm ok with that , as i told myself it's no meaning to share something that people can't help , yet the answer is yourself .I do care about my friends , and i make sure they do treat me like a friends also.