After 3 week I'm back.

Woot... kinda had some work on hand , this is my free time now, kinda working on Uncle Tan office stuff , solve all the design that he ask now it's my time to refine all the design and stuff, was requested to do some layout for the website for him that pass my 3 weeks on those projects. kinda still in progress so it's will be kinda slow now due to my final project is on.

I went to check out my result that day ... guess what ... 2A2B kinda surprise me that i get that. did not really know how but i try, for the last 4 month before i leave my X group i had a dream , it show that if i keep up with them i will just spout out , lucky i follow what i dream it's kinda hard at the 1st , but it end up kinda fun too.Sometimes i'm just over react that something gonna happen so i keep do what i can that why i get what i want now. 

Actually i don't care how people said about me anymore good or bad . I seriously don't care anymore since I've the problem that i should have solve it early but i keep drag and drag.... what the use when you drag a things ... no use at all , soon or later it's just happen like that . so i don't care anymore .

Someone gave me up , i walk my way searching for the correct answer . Rumors said this and that spread it around  lots of problem generate it out , i just don't know why you dare to tell people how bad is but you don't dare to said it when it's in front. 

Well i had a major down fall after Uncle pass away at hospital just like that...6 month back , it happen a lots of things in my life , was kinda lost and i don't know where to go ... but i still remember what you said "Hold me now don't cry, don't say a word  just hold me now and I will know, Dream and don't be afraid the dream's not real close your eyes, and pretend." seriously it from the stupid song that i listen before.. but when a person about to go everything what he said already go into my mind.Since i'm like your god child but it seem like i did not done well enough that time... there is a sem which everyone is not happy in the group and end up problem came out .. was very worry about it that time, but i dream of something else , it's just like a sign to tell me leave the group they don't need me anymore , that's what i did and all the things just happen like a dream . the major down fall i really learn a lot , things that i don't want i will just cut it off and forget about it.

No one understand my feeling , so i've just keep to myself and i think it's about time to give it all up now stop wasting time on things that can't came back or recovery. all i want is get what i want do what i should do.for the pass week i've doing something planning very cool , i plan all my stuff again ... i plan how to sleep what to eat... and what to do ... cycling always .. to keep me fat in fit shape .  

I was not very happy for the last few weeks ago , a lot of shit happen and i don't know how to control , Mic said that i have change , he said i was a very good leader last time but not now.he said , and he also told me that he'll still respect me and be my shadow , from that point i've decided to let go my ego and sit down to listen things i should now.

There was a day i went to a pub and sit alone there , and i was drinking alone and look everything happen in the pub why people were so happy when they are in here, i just don't get it.well a lots of flash back just like those movie ... like it's the 1st time i had my beer in the pub.I sit there and think again and again ... i notice it's time.Things that i went through happy sad things happen ......i went home and drink continue i count can by can only i realize that  i hate beer , but i love it now. i just don't know why i like it so much it's like totally different now.I also learn that things that i like now maybe later i will hate it. 

Don't make conclusion 1st do a try first because your theory might be wrong. 

I just love writing so much it's like my little diary of everything , Uncle told me Sam If one day you read back your own blog , you will know you changes a lots and you are growing up very fast, for the last 3 week i started to read from the 1st page till present days . I actually see the changing of me so seriously ... there are a lots of tear in here and joyful memories.

I actually made myself a visual board to keep me back in track , it really work , most of the things in my visual board before 25, i'm like getting few things i already had.. it's just like a dream come true believe it or not this work for real, i tell myself i want that i want that , don't ask yourself how to get it , all you need is you got to believe that you already have , it's works perfectly ...!!! i had my watch , puppies ,my 1st design payout. all just happen in this few month and it's amazing ....

There will be no picture for this post.

all i want to said is SAMSON YOU ARE NOW OFFICIALLY 90 KG and you promises that you must have beautiful chest in next 2 month  that why i promises myself in my visual board.

Some stupid joke that i had today when i'm watching IRON MAN 2 in cinema , we went to watch movie at Tropicana mall and the fun parts is , there was an uncle sit beside Sum and his phone ring few time already ... the 3rd time he ring sum told that uncle that his phone ringing and the uncle reply it's music ...can't you imagine that it's music !! 3 time already ... hahaha then Sum told that uncle to switch the phone to silent ...

that the best joke of my day today.

And somehow people don't really know how to enjoy a movie , IRON MAN 2 is cold joke movie and i found out that people read the subtitle more then your listen that why they said it's bored and not nice.I personal think that it's kinda cool and great about it no comment.