things that i don't know how to said.....

sometimes i don't know how to said maybe i have to use to it ...
have to learn to walk at this time , i'm free to go i'll never going to look back , all i have is just forget it , you have thought me much thanks alots .
what a news you have, at least you go will the happy way,moment that i play joke with you , talk to you , what you said what you thought ... it just end it here,what else i can ask for , the love you gave me is more then a real father can give maybe,you left with a smile , things that you said in the room that day was my last to see you forwardly how could this happend ? i can start to learn stay alone , maybe i remember i cry on the time when i have a selection you hug me and tell me sometimes things will regret after you choose ,so what are you doing now or later don't worry and don't regret and work it hard , i work very hard i also did what i can sorry you can't see what i'm having now , but i'm not sure can i really stay alone i have no idea, you guide me thought the way this few years althought i did not really know you quite long maybe 4 years is a good realationship,i've remember that time i cry you hug at me it's so warm, i remember i remember i remember .
you said glad that i'm here with you that day , why don't you just tell me that you are not felling weird or what ? maybe i can predict it or what ... a sudden leaving i can't accept it . althought i'm smiling but people do not know my feeling . it's so cold now , tear are droping , things went so wrong . i should have told you more things or maybe i should tell you more jokes that day , i 'm leaving you a empty msg and it's just a few hours chat... i hope i stay longer so i can tell you more things but i can't make it sorry i'm sorry , i thought you want to rest but you were thinking something else , I SHOULD not leave so early i should stay , i should !your giving are more then i can imagine,sorry i'm very sorry i can't change things here but i felt so bad you know.You threat me so well as a son but i can't mange to hold you till the end ,It's not faith , it's my mistake it always my mistake ... there is no one else then here.i can't things now , i'm breaking down... you said "sam move on you did well , proplem that you have is not the problem , that problem you can slove easy". after reciving something after his incident i know what happend and why he lefted something for me and it's something that i've slove the problem , you not even my father but why would you do that , i have no idea , sorry crying at now are pointsless ,the relationship of us is not about that , is the meaning and the facts that we share it's a joyful share , why just why .... sorry i work very hard for what you said and i do and do , i'll never leave you a empty answer for that.things that you gave i don't know how to give back or return , thanks you for all of this years and words. You are a person of the picture gone with ....what you told me that day on the room i'll do i will .

it's worth to read when it's real

finals for 3D modeling the lighting is kinda bad and the texture is kinda week X D no comment get a B+ for the subject X D ..... everythings goes fine .




kah heng 21st birthday X D.

Picture i edited with wallpaper X D

Look at zikang @@ no comment weh ....

Model shooting X D

If You Can..

If you can start the day without caffeine;
If you can get going without pep pills;
If you can always be cheerful, ignoring aches and pains;
If you can resist complaining and boring people with your troubles;
If you can eat the same food every day and be grateful for it;
If you can understand when your loved ones are too busy to give you any time;
If you can forgive a friend's lack of consideration;
If you can overlook it when those you love take it out on you when,
  through no fault of your own, something goes wrong;
If you can take criticism and blame without resentment;
If you can ignore a friend's limited education and never correct him;
If you can resist treating a rich friend better than a poor friend;
If you can face the world without lies and deceit;
If you can conquer tension without medical help;
If you can relax without liquor;
If you can sleep without the aid of drugs;
If you can honestly say that deep in your heart you have no prejudice
  against creed or color, religion or politics; then, my friend, you are

  almost as good as your dog.

www.jimgeary.com/faves/IFYOUCAN.HTM

People in the picture "No more"
Have you every saw a picture with tears?
Gone it's all gone , just one night everything gone ....
who's knows about the feeling? who?
No one else does , who cares about it ?
it's just gone ... people in the picture just gone.
things won't go back , and time won't change 
making a anti clock vise clock did not change anything .
it's just change the thinking of human , we are still cheating ourself
just one night it's gone left with the picture .
YOU MAY REST IN PEACE.

People around me the think what they do they din make up thier mind and reply with heart , as given the door is open but the invites stop there , when the door close the invites wanted to go in and want to said something. I could not understand why and what happend , you msg me at the time i reply and just make things invisible? well i'm on my own i guess , if you think that is fun or else ... that could let it be , what are you thinking and what are you doing is a matter of facts ... The door will not always open and the door may close very long for certain reason. i'm middle of busy of something that people would think that i would know something or maybe people will qoutes something on thier private message there and i would know what's going on... well i can tell you one things if what you think is true , i can't change the fact it's already a point of view of yours. what matter now?it's has a funny attitude , no reason to know why because the answer is pop up since early.

There was a situation like this a person who don't know what is correct and what is wrong , he/she is asking for answer by the side of thier own , proudly the answer will have more advantage to the asking side , it's what is answer made of? asking people around and yet people said yes you are correct and he is wrong , you no need worry what he/she said? is this what usally answer the asking side? more or less people would support you just because they don't you to get mad and always go with the same answer that what you having ,no matter how wrong you are they still price you , support you . is this what you want? well lots of people can do that ... avoiding argument but this only kills did not helps , you can think of thousand of reason to make a right person wrong , you also can made of millions of wrong to the person is right. it's all depance on what you see or we can said our heart.

When things started , most of the things are beautiful , people can forget about all of the things, sleeping dreaming each other , when things go abit long and long things started to change 
it's start with simple , and it's getting complicated , why so , let's said  a couple did not have any argument before or maybe talk louder to each other , when things is out of limited one of then can't stand it or maybe it's hold in the heart too long things like this may blow out some situation, when this kinda of situation had it people who's angry will start to blame the weather , family all sort of things . but this only the starting , it's has the 1st time it's will happend then 2nd time but when till the day that he/she can't take it anymore yet things blow out again just like that. That means it's has certain reason to hold the breath so long just to explode one in a wild. make it this way people may though i'm into something , but what sort of things do i get into? trouble? it's that what i want ? or is that what you want? Don't ask for the reason , think carefuly is that really what happend?I'm not god also not an angle what i wrote and what i see is the fact of future use some of my friends believe it what i said and what i read , some said rubbish what sort of rubbish is writing here? i can't even understand, you know why would you said that ? before reading this you heart is already anti about it , so going and going you are just reading my bull shit, yet you think it's a rubbish . matter or facts does it has same situation that you having now or maybe it already happend ?

Thanks you for reading this ,well if you want to send me a message that doens't reply well you already got me , you love your prank right you share to somebody else, so it's fun , it's happy to you do you feel you are the winner ? oh gosh you are just a GOD. You are smart to know things like this but you never know a person feeling , you just worry about pride , right and wrong.

People do judge people at first sign , after a small argument then following days will be more and more diffrent , can prosit to stranger level ... like i don't know you . so this is what people thinking and doing . Life of choice , winner takes all you know why? winner just take all, all of his/her answer, that made them a winner. So are you a winner now? 

it may harm for the strong words , but why people will said that , it's too free nothing to do come to critic and flame? if that a fact then make it your answer , you are always a winner.

Pass week ....

Section with David X D


OurModel X D

see uncle  doing what behind there cross hand wor hahaha X D

chasing cars i'm in the car downhill with them .....

UFO!!!! sport car interio nice ? X D

Top hill of the gasoline and lookout point ....

Our big brother ... Tv8 Hair stylist for I want to become a model  X D he's well known on magazine ...MR. JARRYL EE



i'm on my holidays for a few weeks... it seem nothing happend X D...
but moment between the holidays it happend alots of things,good and bad , sad and happy ... lots of lots of thing just happend.

2weeks ago Uncle admited to hospital , was so worry about it the moment i get the phone called, my hand was shacking i've no idea ... what just happend , Uncle fainted on the ground at 2 at the morning , he woke up for some drinks and fainted few steps after reaching the ground floor, lucky there nothing happend to him .So worry @@ i get the phone called by Uncle chew at lunch time , looking for Uncle for lunch he asked me few days ago ,end up i went to hospital and had lunch with him there,the day before the incident my dad went to some dealer to get the fruits , he bought big orange , mango , apple,grape , so many box !!! until the chiller can't slot anymore , dad was planed to bring up to penang to gave ivan mun and father also sister, but it's too much !!! i ate almost few days fruits breakfast lunch and dinner, i bring some to Uncle , he seem to be happy at the bed , had some chat with him , he asked sam do i over work or do i always works too stress? i was trying to avoid that question... i know the answer but i'm not amature to answer that question yet , because i also over works sometimes but to me stress is like totally nothing , i can't feel it but some how i can see how people act when they are stress , So i answer him Uncle actually nowadays the weather is quite hot it's not how you work ,last time you also work like this now also the same what change you?weather?Uncle smile on me and said i've think proply i serious work too hard , i need to rest , you no need to take me for a garden walk. @@ ok well he knows something.talk and talk till i quite late friend of mine called me up ,asked me for food season so i said ok, then we meet up at my house , they bring me to subway 1st then went to A&W for deserts .... wow what a days....

for the few days and stright for food season i'm scare .... well we do explore alot but money costing also quite alot @@, we been to thaipan for red bean soup , bubble tea at sunway , went up to gasonline moutaint , look out point , subway , wendys , almost all @@ then also went to kl for beef noodle middle of the night , then went to pudu for poridge also the jelly fish,Taman sea big frieds , PJ 9 frieds banana , ice cream section ,kfc ,mcdonlads sundae.. more more, Tenji at Mont Kiara wao until i fat now hahaha ...

lots of friends was asking me where did i have so much money to eat X D.. after going pray season with mengz we both get a lucky lottery that win us money more , good things is after i get the 1st stricked i get anoter lucky 1st price @@ wow ...
not bad weh this comming holidays got extra pocket money ... wanted to get a new phone but not at the moment la . everythings get smoothly after the praying section , before i was trying to go to praying season i hear what uncle said , he said , said jor must do , do jor must understand.After listen to that i quckly called to mengz and ask him rather he want to go for praying anot lucky the buzy asshole is free else there is no pocketmoney X D.

after upgraded my pc few fans i'm quite happy with the temp it's quite low and nice,
There is one hell week , 10 pc to fix and format @@ killing man ... sumore dennis called up he also join the fun ... ask me to format his pc and check any problem too bad his ram is dead , so have to wait spare parts.It's a busy week @@ i tried to rush all pc in 3days because there is a beach party , before i go i have to format all then only i can have fun trip.

@@ beach party , there have 2 groups of people asked me @@ but lucky one of the group did not called at the last minute thanks god, so i went for a day trip at PD we had an afternoon BBQ party there ... some of the guys they quite smart and infomative @@ how on earth they get fresh and nice fish and seafood @@ ... no idea weh just suprize .... we went back at 7 oc tired and happy everyone went back to pj and had a beer season , then all went home early about 12 we all said bye bye good good this kinds of events and organize guys are quite nice and relaxing , actually i'm the youngest there , all also macam uncle liow geh ... siong chey ... haha i know them by uncle actually , uncle told me that he's out off the range and could not catch up anymore on that , i believe that so he just intro to me and ask me if i have change bring some picture back , well picture i did not bring any back Y.Y sadly,but i did told him after he get out from hospital.

Old man was too happy and i've a mission that is take care and chill down Uncle , try let him relax and don't him stress out , well some stupid old joke would helps , laughting will helps too.... X D

By the way i've been running with Uncle at TTDI for like weeks , he can run everydays i can't do that at the 1st day @@ not even 5 km, but the secound day getting better because my leg is in pain so when i can't stop if i stop the pain will get more because the muscle is tired ... reach the 3rd day my leg totally can't run but can walk , i did not go on the 3rd day after the 5th days i follow again well i can feel the power of joging, well finish 5km for 1 round . then the next week uncle bring me to kelana jaya park there for running he asked me 10 round lets us set 10 round for this week total it up it like 70 for a week ... so i promissed him and he said bring me to food season but without sugar , a week a head is my body check time , actually i quite scare about the report 1 you know .. but uncle forced me to run just because he know somethings that i don't know ...until the days my repots is out then i know what the reason of running ... the pain of my legs is still there but i'm trying hard to building up strengh back , ahead events i can play futsal again but not the old ways , batminton should be ok not a problem at the moment , but still i need to follow up with the doc at bukit rimau there @@ dad took me there for needling and massage for the nee cap and the nerves .... well he said i can run now do more sports will heal faster, i've told him the pain i had he said no worry you do sit down execircs 1st then only go for running, haha ok ok i done that and now i can run but not over running it still hurts he said when you facing pain after stoping by , then i have to stop else it's a big problem .

there goes my holidays .....