Things i want to said .

1.Sometimes you spend time walking around , end of the days you notice you been walking a big circle.you have spend time on it , wasted your enegry walking around tired and start to give up when you saw there's a faster way, when ever you feel like giving up , look at the roads that you are walking , you may saw something that you did not expect it to happen . Every road you choose has an answer . It's just the way how you want to look at it.

2.No one want to take part of it because its not a big thing . Everyone want to take part of it after there are certain value has build on it , even the silent once start to blend in.

3.Where ever you go for a challenge it's not about winning , winning is just a bonus ,that you have walk a long way to the ending point. It only matter how far you have walk.

4.There are people has a pair of good legs , they never want to walk , i have a pair of injury legs by the time i plan to walk i'll never stop ,once i stop the pain will strike up to my brain and tell me to stop.i never make that happen because i have choose to walk until i can't make it anymore, so i would not regret losing anything.

5.I don't care what people said about me ? When there are so many mouths are talking bad about it . You just want to find out the answer to find someone like you. You don't need bad conversation topic to start your day.


At least it's in full .

I've gona update this !!

Ya it's been long i haven been update , but no worry , i'll be updating it now .
As you know my Hydroponic  is working well , most of my friends know what's going on . Some of the plants is growing up seriously fast .There are some random peeps ask me about my water system , and the way they ask is was like they wanted to grow pot , i did not update them much because it's best i keep them to myself . I've read the pot article year ago , and i'm kinda know what's going on and the temperature for it . Not good if i simply tell people about this shit ! it's not a good thing to know .  Well i'll not grow pots but mushroom seem awesome , i kinda lazy to make the oxygen box for the spore to grow . LOL it's just me lazy maybe abit longer .... maybe i don't feel like having mushroom later.

Working life
Awesome .. i start to learn new stuff and hopefully everything should be ok at this moment . Love what i'm doing now . There are some bully in the way but as long i don't get them so close i think i will not hook up with them , those joke that they make is much more insulting and bunch of them though it was funny .and somehow i'm ok with how you do your work ,but don't spread the whole gang and tell them "END OF THE DAY THEY SURE NEED TO APPROVE , CAN SIMPLY DO ONE" ,Awh guess i know why you were so fast now .Well maybe i just too sensitive , somehow ya i am  X D. well talking about them is kinda waste of time , they should know what they should do and said in their life , it's their projection .I AIN'T GONA AFFECTED hahahahahaha *evil !!

Something Fishy Happen 
Well my dog Spinny pass away few days ago , she die on September 9 .R.I.P spinny .
PamPam's butterfly hatched out and flew away ..... So nice she record it down and show us .
alot of fish die recently i have no idea what went wrong ... hope i can figure out what's going on .

Let's get into......
I went to my Pet brother house to celebrate his son 1 month anniversary , normal update and stuff ...
well i don't usually share something like this ,

She said she need a break ,
i said it's your choice .
She said i've change .
i said thanks for telling me , it's good or bad?
She said Good and bad .
i said  What's about it
She said you make me hate and love you at the same time  , you were like pulling string and release at the same time.
I said it's that anything you want to tell me?
She said i need a break , maybe we should split up .
I said if that's what you want , i can't stop you .I'm on your side no matter what you said and choose.
She said are you sure ?
I said  no i feel so unsure
She said why ....
I said  sorry i can't tell you how i feel now, maybe you are correct we should split up .I would not mind if you have some one out there , at least i know what went wrong .....
She said no i still love you much just that i don't know why ..
I said maybe we are just bored in life.Something has change , we have our own time now .
She said yes , it's good that you know
I said i've know this since i was working .
she said why don't you tell me .
I said because i don't know how to tell you , and you gave me things that i never feel before .
She said It's not your fault ,we both have problem .
I said I really don't know what should i said and tell you ..... can i ... just for the last time ?
............

Somehow i don't know what to tell you i have a heart for you and i think maintain it is kinda hard for me i hope i know how to try , i really don't know how to find the answer now , i would not tell you i love you all the time ,but i would show you how i did it , i don't talk much when we are together i know , i actually know those problem , but we were happy for quiet sometime . What had stooping us ? Maybe we both have seen something new or interested in life. If you are looking for better men i will be understanding , if one day we are back together i won't be surprise  , the sparks that we had made i can hardly forget . Maybe you will i've told you that i will not take things for full granted .You may know why . I hope what you choose is good for you . I know maybe you will come over here and read some stuff here or maybe not .The problem we been stack on too long at least you can see it now , i would not want to stop this relationship i have my own reason , somehow you gave me a feeling of caring .

I'm in silent at the moment if you feel like calling me please do call , i will totally pick up .And i don't know what am i writing now !!

It been months i did not update.

Hmmm ..... working life ... like that lo...
Hei guys i'm back on track , as most of you know i'm working now , happy and not really happy .Well sometime i would not said it , i kinda hate myself now , am i getting to the real thing that i want ? Does my future outline really comes that smoothly ? Awhhh i have no idea man , maybe i think too much about it . so much to share but so limited time to show .Well if you ask me where i'm working i can tell you that it's kinda far from my house , about 30km travel every day per trip , but luckily i no need to drive there's a bus called DTS , it's a private bus to my work place , early morning 6 50 i need to wake up and prepare myself to the station about 7 30 i will leave house and my mum will send me there daily . the bus most of the time come on 7.40 but now the management was pretty screw up so they promised us that August will be a better service they giving. So i just wait till August , can't blame them also they are trying to improve also ... must be understand. Hope everythings will be fine also ....

About my Dog ...
Sad case it's getting worst ... it just got blind few months ago . it's time to let it rest , he's has been with the family so many years , actually someone actually suggest us to put him to sleep ... but we din really did that , that's so cruel even do i know it's suffering  , i rather see him suffer abit is better than he's long gone ... he no longer bark anymore , sometimes he lose his control and start to shit everywhere and he look so scare , i would not blame him because when i see him , i feel the pain of getting old . it's just a process .... Well somehow he's still walking up and down and sleep all the time that's what he can do now ....

Oh ya pass few week i been doing on research  on how to do gardening ... it was awesome that i found something on the web and i actually modify abit .... so now it's more awesome check out the video

I no longer know what's going on anymore.

It's been so long out there , i been missing i apply to enter to a film company everything were so new and you just don't know what is what and when do you need to apply it all you know is just try your best to do what you know .

Recently i been so lonely, i have no friends around when i need them and i hardly go to approach people nowadays all i know , i've change good or bad only god knows about it .

Somehow few friends of mine don't really understand about my time frame and work loads, it's not what you think when you are positive 100% new into it and you are trying to figuring out how to improve it with your own skills .

There's aways something there but you just can't really see it by your own naked eyes ...People grow olds and die , people come and goes that's fine . But people don't seem to understand about you when you are in deep shit situations all they tell you was why can't you do this why can't you ....I'm avoiding those question because i don't want to argue anymore , it seem i don't need one of you guys to really understand what's going on with my life , i stuck at a cross roads and you all were pushing me forward which i don't know what i should do , until i just give a guess but it's too late to turn back , everything has happen you can't just tell people to forgive what you had done , they just won't , i need time to show just give me little bit more time .

I'm seriously tired already , i just don't think so much .please do switch places with me and think of my situation , somehow it's not just your imagination of thinking , it's more or less understanding.

Friends don't really called me out anymore , because i'm  busy doing my works .i have no longer time to connect back with them , and they have hard time contacting me , i feel bad .. i can't attend wedding , i can't do shit .....
it's just like you know someone die at your hometown but you just can't get back to pay for the last respect.It's a situation like that.

Life happen to fast i have too many thing happen by my side all you can said to me when you seem me is why do i look so tired . That's the reason behind it .

The training were awesome , but the time frame were too long... i wanted to join film industry so happen it happen i must grab my chances to appreciate what i have been fighting for.

I don't ask for anythings , i'll be back with you guys later, i just need to focus on what's i'm doing now ... meanwhile hopefully everything will be fine !