nothing happend

mostly just go to college and came back ....
rushing all my finals assignment.
found a cool song introduct from mengz


Lyrics by Jasmine Rodgers
Music by bôa

And you don't seem to understand
A shame you seemed an honest man
And all the fears you hold so dear
Will turn to whisper in your ear
And you know what they say might hurt you
And you know that it means so much
And you don't even feel a thing

I am falling, I am fading,
I have lost it all

And you don't seem the lying kind
A shame that I can read your mind
And all the things that I read there
Candle-lit smile that we both share
And you know I don't mean to hurt you
But you know that it means so much
And you don't even feel a thing

I am falling, I am fading, I am drowning,
Help me to breathe
I am hurting, I have lost it all
I am losing
Help me to breathe

wooo

Guess what bad things happend....a small crash with dad... make the whole night cold.Rush assignment @@ sad la ... do wrong de
Today woo guess what i saw my cousin X D mei mei hahaha asked her to return me the book X D...wah song leh figure class today @@ i get abit by abit X D pro soon ...
i Guess i'm going to rush my assignment soon X D

i have a strange feeling

I don't know why my emostion is so down sudelly ...
did i forget somethings or am i too boring...?
my feeling it was like the ocean and land just in between that
what's wrong? maybe it's not wrong at all i migh be middle of that.
i still don't get it i spend the whole day joy and i still found it
sad, what's going on i hope it won't bring to the next day.

yeah maybe i'm rolling the dice and hope the rules change but, in that case
things won't just happend so eazy.

i just want a place of silent and i hope that things doens't bug me around
, i feel that everythings people around me doing things but i doens't accept
or maybe they are too irritation for me.
i still can't get then answer, why doesn't every times fly aways and came back with
diffrent things, i just donn't get it my bro went off to uk and it came anoter guy to my house i need peace it's that a problem with that?

sometimes i wondering am i too ego or i'm just get stress on mind?
most of the things they do i feel bored , they make me feel funny and fake,
is that my problem? just can't get it and figure it....
today i woke up late around 2 oc afternoon 3oc went to see CS wong for the
report den went to kai lun house ... i enjoyed for the hole day at his house
din do a single assignment. aiks...

went back home i saw my pc destop blanked and i called HIM and ask
did you touch my pc he said no. but if not him who else will do it,
ok maybe this kind of situation is a bit confuse, just can't hold it
why.. why .. i just exploted . what wrong with me, my inside me keep
tell me do my work , don't sit down and woundering, but i did not do that
it's so not me. I hope there is place that i can tell what is all about
mengz was right , when you at college time family sure get some small problem
such as don't go home do assignment all kind ... it will change alots of things in
life family sudelly feel that things will not go so eazy on you, i just don't know why... since mengz told me before i din think about it but now yeah problem do came out i hope to have a place of mine and i don't wish to shift out.

would that be a problem? would that become more problem? would you think what you thinking are correct ? I TOLD MENGZ at that time and now i feel it why that situation is soo confuse... it just what i mention it OCEAN AND LAND just between it
the sellection that i can't get an answer for my self.

sorry what i told last time my friends you all were right things do change,
evendo you think it won't but it still happend, i get back what i said
i might give too powerful opt for people, but when it came to me i just become People
i told people and now i use to be the people to think of.

MAY BE I'M JUST TOOO EMOOO OR EGO erm which
or i change for some reason?
did i?

thrustday it's deepavali ....

tuesday morning went to college till 6oc den reach home aound 7 ... then
sleep on the sofa till 9 or 10 oc then wake up @@ eat dinner,
damn bored weh around 11+ i msg mengz den @@ he told me he at syed ... then faster take a bath and went there to have a drink .... chat until 2 somethings haha
happy sudelly. went to bed ...@@

morning wake up and do some assignment till 12 oc then slack abit untill 3+ bath den go to zeng kai house to do finish up the research folder need to pass up on monday
, reach his house around 4oc ba
then we do until 9 oc haha so long weh @@.went home get my dinner, after dinner
went out with sintao,poan, and weiliang (who's the driver !!!) me lo haha X D
drink until 1 oc .... then came back slack.... haha

The Stoped post and REALIVE X D

less start from the 3rd day of college X D , i know manny friends lo .. haha lunch time we went to sing k X D at red box ....at the first 2 week were boring at first
then after that i get my first assignment X D that is design one... follow up is drawing > workshop > history of art >figure drawing> then things goes crazy .....
everydays also need pass up assignment liow @@ so syok weh ....coming to the 4th week
we got 1 presentation, one of my memeber doens't want to do the presentation...on the last day of the night he send me 1 edited speach by him, before that we aredy doing stuff on plan then he sudelly said want to change at the last min, ON msn chat he send me that speach i shoot him on the spot...HE told me that PROFFESIONAL DO THINGS AT THE LAST MIN..Then the secound day of presentation day ... guess what he almost screw up, but lucky other member can cover it .but when the presentation over i told him , please don't just give me stuff at the last min , i'm sure fark you like no tomorrow.

The 5th week
Guess what gosh things get bad and bad after that presatation, my com screw up due to i went shoping and din pulg out the phone wire, then my printer adapter got striked also ... so tulan la....the 5th week is the most screw up week i ever had
i screw up my drawing and figure...damn no mood weh..

The 6th week
things are going abit ok ... still the same assignment every week X D
starting to enjoy assignment, i notice this week i save the most money of all of the weeks, most of the time my lunch were mcdonald's X D it's so cool weh haha almost 1 year facing mcdonald's @@ i guess i'm in danger haha,most of the time i drink diet coke my friends ask me why haha i told them do you notice that if you drink coke and eat the food at mcdonald's you get trusty fast X D, they said yes why arr haha
then i told them do you know why i always drink coke light? cause it won't make you trusty.. at first they all tog i'm bullshiting X D then they try haha guess what they said wow i can refil 2 to 3 time also won't be trusty X D see the effect is there, i notice it when i was in early january 2006 that time most of the time i just started to eating mcdonald's foods RECENLY haha.

Back to college life
haha continue the week .. everythings started to be better and better, before that i go find of my friends he told me when a person got bad , it will be good after that ,he told me that since you know you are in bad luck then just make things are in bad luck ... such as you know things like shoes will goin to spoil , pc , printer etc just be happy when it's spoil X D I DID IT haha and then things really work out..
don't know why i sudelly feel so happy all my bad things i just put a side i din't take it serious , things DO REALLY GO WELL haha.i had a dream on mind that i is
that day i was in a dream the drean were like everythings i said before ...and things doens't seem rite.. that is i call one uncle father he is the hotel and restraunt CEO , he seem sad and i ask for "dad can i go to england" he just said yes"
so suprize he just let me go @@ before that in the dream this uncle as my father he doesn't accept anythings until that day that he is so down. i ask him at his hotel there then i send him back to his work place and found grandma "SHIT" things are no rite i just don't see my REAL family in there @@ what happend , then THAT grand man told me that MY dad were down, due to some reason.My dad told me that evendo he's is rich but he never had a happy moment before...then i went to hug him "DAMN THINGS GOES like automatic" he cry and told me that son i never feel that happy, until to day you hug me, "FARK WHAT DID I DO???" then he told me if i your REAL FATHER....
"FARK HOW COULD THIS HAPPEND!!!!!" then i woked up. the whole day i only things of this i go ask my friends again do you believe that Dreams come true? He told me if
you had a dream before that is most of the time is correct and things come true then maybe it's a fact.Then i was shocked by that.... "i'm @@, what if it's true , why i call that uncle FATHER?, woundering @@? " i never had this kinds of dream before...

Today sunday weh
my brother from Uk msn me and tell me alot of stuff X D happy to hear that , he told me that he work in a restraunt as a chef , then he told me about the future plan that i mention before X D things just come so well ... it just like flash back @@
...all i need is to wait for 2 years to wait him come back and let's see dream come truth and X D "I only want certain things to become TRUE". DO figure drawing X D
so prety done maybe in good mood X D as i told my self i just can't depends on my moods, X D yeah that true... damn true X D ...