I just don't know who am i around you anymore.

well well it's my birthday i get something new on my right hand X D
a limited Green collection watch from G-shock , thanks anyway i know it's a heavy gift .
few friends that call me up and give me a wish early .

a lot of things happen , i did not really celebrate it actually feel that there is nothing much feeling empty in life already . since uncle pass away seem like not much people know it's my birthday..
firstly i'm not surprise about it because truly friendship really do care about this small things in life thanks to those who send me msg and was surprise that they know it's my birthday.

For those few people that celebrate with me thanks a lot i don't have any big party recently and cny also so sorry for that , have to control my financial already have small business to start .

busy with business planing and searching for location so many things to do , mengz is not free to talk about the things recently so have to do it myself 1st , do planning and stuff 1st Andy also quite buzy so we separate the work already.

Things i might get a bit sad that is my pet brother din even wish me on my birthday i though i was someone caring from his side , maybe i just wrong . am i? haiz last year i was upset actually and had a argument with him , we silent for few month . As i still remember  he said about friendship that really make me made at that time , he said until so important but he forget about people birthday and stuff , maybe i can't make him remember what he should , i should ask myself what am i , in his positions maybe just something else. I just think too much , mengz said sometimes you threat people like what they should but you don't get what you should have , so never threat people what you think they should , he told me.  i still 50 /50 agree on his statement sometimes but sometimes i'm 100% agree with him. Me and mengz we might have argument in between but lately we understand and we give steps .

sometime i ask should i threat people what i think?I just don't know maybe i follow my heart .
i've seem people betray me a along my life , things that i expect it's expected. 
i just don't know what should i do sometimes.

for my feeling , if a normal friend forget about something of me , i think it pretty normal . for a best friends forget something of me , i think it's a joke i will not happen. if a closed friends like your blood brother , they forget something of me i think i'm totally upset.

I remember the things you said , do you remember what i said?
I respect you so do i get my respect?
I am who to beside you?a friend?a best friend? blood brothers?actually nothing?