Monday, April 28, 2008

i never thought of a friends power before

i never thought i have sure friendship, in the real reason of my thinking i was wrong in my pass life i thought people around just want some benifits for you as i know that is what i think, but i change it into the other ways it's seem what goes around do come around , how is you is how is your friends is now i believe that is true for this i normally i don't agree with it due to i have some small experience about that.. but until i know them ... wao it's just somethings change , i found that internet friends are better then what i have now @@ maybe age diffrents, i do like to have older friends due to they won't simply plot things into conversation and they might a problem to share and slove ... ermm i wounder why i become like that .. it's good to change you know samson.. the bibble change you and the wish that you wish at those temple is granted wao ... it's a miricals Owwhh , it's a long road i been too . i need to thank to that ... but i have no reason whos that ...yet i'm still woundering ... sometimes people may though i'm writing a love letter to somebody else , how would you judge that ? beacause missing youd loving you were reffer to our love once? don't you have a friends in real? have you got 1 or maybe you just would like to have your love once and hope that you can hold on forever?
wao i been soo long experience that ... i ask i ask i ask why whould people just reffer to our love once, how about your friends? you just too blind to see or you just want to spend more time on your love once? it might be wrong here yet i'm wrting down here .

last time that i said i'm not that dirrectly do i?
yes i do said that ... but i found out that is a stupid way to do it ,i might said it stupid at the moment and i would change it for a reason.

Hello, are still awake?
no i guess i still looking for the road,
then why don't you sit down and think?
that is good for my thinking...but
But what you idios? have you get serious about it?
ermm yes i tryed get serious about it.
Fark it are you still talking the samethings you use to do ?
i guess that a minmum about it but i try.
Ya you try? then what you said before was just RUBBISH don't you realize?
why did the rubbish came in?i just don't understand why would you give me that words.
TRYING WAS A NOT A CONFIDENT, WHAT FOR TRYING IF YOU ALREADY SET AN ANSWER.
i have no words .......( lost in here at the moment)

Those days my pain are getting serious and serious, somethings i would hope
i never let people around me notice me , as i believe why do good peopl goes early
in the life, as what i can see is getting too happy was a days that you never found it,i was bad last time , i never thinks of this yet till someone some days i change,
pain are geting to me why it's happend?Do it means i have done enought good things in life yet i need to make a move 1st?as i too sacastic?Or maybe i'm over thinking ?
the answer is just around the conner.

My hard was clamed , my legs has no more feeling
my brain doens't run fast , my concertration getiing weak....
does't this means an end? do i need tell everythings until i'm end?
or i just keep everythings no one know . there is the only road that i choose and
that the things i never choose in live i hope for somethings sudelly, friends of mine are correct what the meaning if you are rich and you trying to buy friends instead of using your eye and see.

(i sudelly cry)
i found out that i'm a weired person, why do i write do here
maybe i'm holding it too long i dowant't to care anymore,
who's care about this as i notice people just pass by and hope for picture to see
to see what i'm now i'm very happy but ... JUST BUT nothings else there.

as from saturday i went to melacca with one of my internet friends at first ,i been knowing him 2 years or maybe longer , he has hearing problem but i found out that when a hearing problem people are still surving for live why do i let it go so easy,
i do have a better things then him , ask your self why would like to slack down and doens't do anything at the moment, i never drop tear of writing a blog here but when i see what people are doing in my eyes now are more the friendship.yes back to topic
i went with him, edmondson at first i was thinking he is a weird person but since i know him so long i found out actuly he's trying to protect he himself, i'm sorry that sometime i over talked you just beacause i doens't realize that you are protectiong your self, as my thinking i though it was ok, but not everyone could handdle that or maybe accept that. yet we are brothers now as i doens't think it before i don't know it's a good things or bad things , but i know it if anythings or everthings me or him doesn't hurt each other i guess it's ok the somethings.. but if there is somethings hiding for it i guess this GOD brothers realasionshio doens't has a meaning, if you read about here i wrote it todays , it might be happening somedays just that it depance you saw it or not. Treating me eating at melacca i'm very happy, i love to get treating from people but it's was like i'm just too over to stick gold dust? oh shit sorry i don't that ok i wrote this down incase future somethings happend. Todays was a true about me but future it's what you think i'm if you reffer here i guess no point i telling lie and keep it for so long. Eds i do love this brother things but if in future i do use you or you use me i think we'll just end it here. I don't keep forever here beacause i doens't believe into it. people get bored someday it depance how do see things.do you believe that i droping tears for this bloging stuff.. i never thought of that ...sometimes is hard to talk to you but nevermind i learn to tolerate it beacause i don't tolerate last time that why i keep doing mistake ... For the reason why i want to wrote so long beacause people get bored reading about it if you notice this page i guess you know what's im thinking now . but i doens't hope you saw this at this few moment just beacause if you saw it was like i'm a talker else what?

i only confest it here but if you doens't get it sorry
it might be a missunderstood here ...

you said that i'm overthinking ,
well yes i'm ... sometime i realize that i always make mistake in the way of not thinking that make my stinks...


Eds
you are somethings,
i never thinks of friendships like this,
you make me feel strong as an example,
i'm very lucky that i doens't ignore you,
i'm glad that you found your love once at the momeny
i'm very happy for that melacca trips,
as you ask me before can we be friends forever,
i only can tell you what i want to said in here i said already,
everytime you ask i'll just escape it beacause i don't want talk about it,
i lost forever in my mind beacause things around me doens't stand forever,
today we might be GOD brothers but future how would you think about this,
i guess if you see this please don't let me know,
beacause it's no meaning asking me about this,
todays what i wrote is what i'm now ,
if once days you found that i'm have some intentions to get somethings from you
please please please visit here i guess for future or now i just dowant people
missunderstood...i already lost one ,
now i get one do you think i still appreciate,
i do think you are a good icon to me beacause i never found somebody like you
treating people as your close one... you are a good adjuster, i will not forget
beacause this friendship it's what i realize what's a friendship,for me normally i
just thought friendship was a things that we can used each other but i found out
at this moment i'm badly wrong.

I DOENS'T LIKE TO TALK FACE TO FACE FOR THIS PROBLEM
beacause i found out it's very fake when you listen it ...
writing it down is better then telling it.i also hope what you see
in your eyes are what you want ... as sometime you ask me those questiion
i don't know how to reply you because i found it very fake.

promiss me if you see this don't ask me
if you ask it's become fake when fake become
that is a missunderstood, maybe you doens't get what i mean here
never mind there is alot of time.

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