i'm not the best but at least i'm not that bad....

Why people take it so serious when it's a joke? I really have no idea why , the last time you know me were years ago ... you said you know me well ? or maybe that is just a pulling relationship?i'm starting to understand  , and i'm just feel that my helps to everyone are fair , i been helping around so much people yet friends.I'm not trying to be somebody, what makes you thinks that is what you wish to be, yet don't apply it on me i'm not.Things just happend like that ... the few days ago i went out and think again and again... what's made life?life means? i'm so bored yet there are no one to accompany me , i wish somebody could talk to me whole day long but , it's not posible to happen...


I'M NOT THAT BEST BUT AT LEAST I"M NOT THAT BAD
Yes , i wrote down this statement  last few weeks ago , many people ask me about it and some said  that i'm worst then bad. so how far can this sentance go?

DT conversations
aiks sam i'm worst then bad...I'm so unprofessional ...
 huh what happend?
today i  take a half day leave, for interview other party time works project.
 Oo then what makes you said that?
i'm so stupid , i push the interview aways.
 OO huh then why you take leaves?
my mistake i should not push that interview.... aiks.....
 wao how you push?
i went into the room and i tell them i  got few more project on hand.
 ha then ? actuly what's the point? interview?
i should not said that , i should see the project 1st then only push it always they tog i'm a freelancer , but i'm not i'm a worker .
 then ?
i should look at the project 1st if  a bit wasted of time i guess i can let it go.
 Oo why don't you  have that sence  at that moment?
ahlah don't want to said la sad liow.
 haha bro you know what everyone made mistake...
yup, but i scare this affect my future line...
 ermm that i can't help haha.
DT msg me about this.and also share some infomation with me . he give me some advice about study and tell me do well in the school time and make great works to show your future boss impress them with your skill and much more .thanks alot dude .

Still are people strugging about my tittle.. 
well somehow i'm still confuse to tell people about this but nevermind, this will give me an answer when time comes, i do believe sometimes we know our self good , but when we compare with other this tittle were always useful.

last week went out with wei chern and wing wah, went out for movie , 1st day we went to watch Wall E and the next night we watch Death Race  nice movie haha .. and chilling night you know what that wei chern so cheap weh .. drive so fast go home , he did not wait us ... aiks 2 cars going to oneu. wing wah and i went to play that game haha we reach stage 4 then kong ... aiks sad can't finish that game weh.. so fun it's all about teamworks.

MAYBE IT'S TIME TO FORGET ABOUT DRIVING
i figuring driving nowadays were so expensive... not feeling to drive a car nowadays kinda wasted money , aiks dad this few weeks come back late i guess he's rushing on someone project. but it seem i'm so stupid ... i should work for money should not work for item... but it's hard for uncle ben to do that , because i'm working for few weeks only , so have to accept the fact....

MY PHONE WERE DEAD!!!
guess what my phone kong ... it dies Y.Y have no phone to use ..figuring to get a new phone but i'm still saving money for it so i guess i find a old model 2nd hand phone to use 1st... i'm thinking getting a w960i or htc diamond... price range  3 more month for w960i  and for htc need another few weeks to get that . X D

It's not i call you all failure , you make your self look like a failure.

wao... i got an aeroplane phone calleds from someone close , all i have to said is FUCK !!! It's not i want to said that you are a time manage failure , and you promiss me come on la , it not the matter of friends of what shit , if it's a friends you can treat them like that , you think you can treat you customer diffrent? it's just another bullship..

It happend like this before morning ...
sam weh want go jogging anot , 
 erm ok what time?
arrr morning lo i would be very early ...
 arr wei wei wei what time eh?
i call you la 
 ok wei call till i wake up !!! ok !!
ok la ok la ....

Morning .... 7oc was awake see phone no called then sleep again
i tog 8oc so i keep on sleep untill 12 oc i wake up ...
wah lau .... no msg no called ... wah seh ...TULAN !!!
already know kena FFK la sien jor la .. the trust between you and me was drop like water....
then went to bath and ate my lunch called up poan ...i want to go to digital mall and get my stuff back ... i phone him and ask him it's a free time going out a trip with me? he said yaya free faster come ... another FUCKER !!!! i waited outside 15 min leh you called me came came ... then no said sorry also like i wrong ... ok i keep quite ... you all said you all will not treat customer like your friends .. so friends can be delay can ffk or maybe too close no need said sorry? sorry also keep back arr? come on bro ... that is why i said people failed ...you guys just give me more failed into my mind for you guys... 1st time like this is still acceptable 2nd time 3rd time it's not funny anymore ... and it look stupid ok.

To digital mall .... 
before i went there steven called , sam wanna game?
 eh can wait me arr?
why?
 i need go digital mall get my modem weh 
eeeeee me at digital mall ...
 OO weh i come over fetch you la you wait me there ok?
erm ok ok what time you here?
 soon la after i bath i come over stright la.
Ok ok i heading to mcd for lunch.

I went to get my warranty modem ... aiks another one i give them full set they give me modem back i have no words ... they said this and that ... i think you lost the box eh?just tell me stright no need turn and wasted my time 30 min at the counter ... then find a replacment adapter and tell me can work one trust me , is not i don't trust you it's the matter or law or quality ... wah lau sien la i don't want to argue la just take the modem and ciao la ... that why i always said digital mall always had bad service and they always use dirty trick ...

those dirty trick that they use ...
my warranty was on april , you know today i only get the modem ...
i went there about 4 times ... between those month ... they get the modem but my expire date was on august...  they keep until today only give me and tell me just came finish warranty back ...BULL SHIT before that i went there without my waranty bill you guys told me you got few modem was in the desk and ask me to bring my warranty paper to check itzzit mine ... from that day i know my modem was claim back but they did not notice me ... wait till warranty dead only give .... those service i can totally give you a F. SALE MAN ALSO LIKE THAT SUMORE THE SERVICE CENTER THAT GUYS ALSO LIKE THAT... AREN'T THOSE ARE FAILURE WORKS?NO COMMENT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

afternoon  5oc
pasar malam tea with poan waiting mr.FFK come ... after digital mall mr.FFK called me .. 
Eh want tea mo ?
 Oh?
where you ? i just called poan he said he free.
 Really arr he at my car leh !! 
Oh where you guys ?
 aiyee go jalan la...
aiya go jalan no call ...
 ha where dare call you wor later FFK me how eh...
!$%*(@$)_!*(#&$&!#_serious where you guys?
 comming back la
so on or what ?
 ON what time you comming ?
i fetch my sister go see doc then come over la.
 how long ohh?
ermm 15 min like that la...
 OH listen 1st arr....
HA ... ok la ok la later meet
 

Me and poan 4 30  reach syed .... MR.FFK came at 5 oc !!! 
then talk talk ... until almost 6 all sit my car go back my house planning to walk pasar malam .
walk buy stuff eat this and that lo , poan going home , he need to fetch his sister  so bye bye. after buying some foods went to padang there ... i use to work out there ate all the stuff then ... talk starting with idea story and planning ... ok fine if you are serious i would think about it if you just talk to entertain sorry bro i only can entertain you talk i'm not wasting my brain power to think ... my white hair is growing like F1.... around 7 went back home

nap sekajap !!!!
RING RING RING .... BERNARD called !!! 
eh samson tonight on mo?
 wassup?
celebrate Jenhuang real birthday ...
 ermm ok what time ?
around 8 30 la , malaysian time 
 so means come late ga ?
i'll be there 8 30 8 45 la 
 yee ok ok .... C U THERE

haha i 9oc only reach there ... 
all reach there wah lau i late leh haha nvm nvm haha sorry sorry my bad haha , i went to toilet haha .. Xcues la ok la ok la my bad la .... tea tea go go where where? esso there around there got mamak we tea there la consider recelebrate with jen huang la oh okie okie ....tea talk tea talk till 11 something then go back on they way back ....

RING RING RIN !!!!
oie pet pet kat mana?
 oie gu gu apa mau?
oie i mau gay sama you eh! mana lu?
 woi wa kat luma sini la ... lu mau gi mana?
eh la i mau cari lu cakap cakap....
 wah seh apa angin tiup you pangil say...
aiyeee wa punya kawan semua tidur , so cari awak .
 Oh ini macam arr, wa sudah broke ...
arla jom uncle belanjar beer lai...
 sure bo?wa ta mau pandu weh...
ok la you mest teman me minum arr...
 ok la sampai marbuk ka?
arlo macam itu la... ok la i sekarang pergi luma awak 
 Oh okie i park kereta dulu....

10min later ....
pon pon !!! wah seh pukul apa eh uncle ... i tau you pandu kereta mewah la jangan la pon pon ... he laught sumore....kena jar.... went to sunway pub ... beer all the way 3 jars macam i pandai minum .... wah seh i drink drink non stop ... uncle you not good la , you happy happy called 3 jars i cannot masuk dalam lucky not me drink all ...talk talk talk .... i tired liow leh actuly ...
before that i want to nap that time get disturb .. aiks ... then sumore talk till 1 something ... pengsan lo ....only send me go home ...lucky not marbuk !!! haha i drink around 5 to 6 cups others uncle sapu !!!!

then go home sleep .... sweetdream..... This post was actuly saved at 2something last night haha .... 

My last week and it's my expose

The night life when i was in penang

This is taken when i was in penang

This is what i drink in the morning


it's not what you think

 
Random

This is what i won at the a contest

gurl see i told you , YOU STEAL MY DOLL !!!!

My dog and i taken a picture pass week

My dog was not in the mood of taking picture because i did not let him go pee outside
so he kinda sad Y.Y haha so bad la me after 2 oc midnight i only let it go VV


My new sim card for private use

One of the boss upgrade my line thanks you very much 
guess what do you think i got a new phone?
haha who's knows anyway....
no more prepaid said Bye Bye

My sofa bed 

This is a bed that i sleep most of the time 
but sometimes got visitor come i have to sleep other sofa
i'm not sleeping on my bed because it's hot and it's kinda lazy to climb down
my bed was a D-deck bed my father plan for me is lower deck if for my computer
but i'm out of space so ... i shifted to outside.... more space more relax
GOT AIR CON OHHH X D BUT AFTER I SLEEP LIOW MUM OR DAD CLOSE IT
SAD SO MOST OF THE TIME I'M BLOWING FANS HAHA

My new graffiti project on my back streets

This is what i bought for my project
i wanted to spray green and have orange eyes brown is for the 
shadown or outline but haven got any idea of the still working on it
maybe going for Black and White concept i think it's kinda a cool.

This is a book given , when i was in secondary  top student
 

My cert i have been to rakan muda program

I been there for few time but manage to get once with cert and it haven printed my name
because that time was rushing back to home for family dinner... sad hope one day 
i free i print my name on it , it's 100% mine X D nor a fake one

This is the cert i recieve when i got the book

those days i was quite hardwroking until i recieve this 
start study and understand....

My first year and major year assignment and brief
 

some of the design

RATIONAL

CONCEPT

Mind- Maps

RESEACH

SKETCH


My sketch for one of the assignment

final piece

Me and my group done the last minute assignment and it worth a perfection marks

we have the most argument on this assginment and we are the
most reconize group and high score and good presenter like me
we call it "monamanson" also known as the 3M
Matrix, Marylin Manson and Monolisa
and this is the time i manage to flame all the groups 
we are the last group to present
when othe group was finish present we keep ask question
the plan was made the whole class angry about us and 
our plans works ... 
thanks for those question because the group of people doens't ask question
to make them ask you need to bring them down 
this is the most sucess planning of overall
thumbs ups!!!!

Picture about my backups

This is what i'm having , i invest money on this kind of stuff incase black outs
my computer will never dies ,it will when the lighting stricked no comment about that
....

Those days when i'm freelancing

This is what i use and how i spend my money for my past years

My judge ball i play it all the time

Do you believe that i play this 3 balls for 1 year and i'm still stupid of doing judge on it
FAILED NO COMMENT HAHA

My computers space

as you can see here i have anot of wiring here due to i have no space to land my stuff
I land it on the floor to have a good space,i my self love computer so when you see my
computer got weird things don't ask it's a good machine 
this machine doens't over heat at all i'm been try on 1 month 
the result is good , not rising and not droping just stable.


This are my expose ... for all this years...

My week was buzy working actuly ... sometime Urgent and i need go back and do those and tell them kinda a sad la but aiks , if not he giving me those nice parts i would not work for it.... it's a good exchange also not giving me money but giving me computer parts how attractive is that ...
lucky i'm still on holidays , i still can go back and tell storys and drink tea haha .If not i'm in deep shit ... no comment.

last week i keep searching for friends to tea with
They said samson acting weird wor ... ok fine i admin it la kinda strange also , you all know what i always want to talk , because when i was in study mood you can never see me talking that much so appreciate this time and have all the fun time !!! haha , actuly they said i'm crazy ... i'm actuly paid a sum of money go to talk to people ,as in like i went to penang i actuly go there find those uncle and talk haha you know i can talk whole day long with uncles happy weh , you know when you find someone that you can talk in a group it's a great things , not just all the time serious , but jokes are always on , even we can laught until pain... my sister told me don't lah make people happy until pain you how old they how old , aiks i wish there were young enought to handle haha but nvm la , at least i get to talk to people what .. i know many things ... 

Forum gathering ....
CHEY YOU ALL SO BAD LA PEOPLE 21year old birthday leh give face la abit ....aiks sad i tog many forumer going all, when i reach there all sms to me and said can't make it ... wtf !!! you guys own me one haha , they said re-celebrate with him on comming tuesdays because it's not the actul days so ok i forgive you all haha jenhuang said belanjar me tea on tuesdays so see lo ...also lucky that i did not drive wira go ... that car actuly dies ... my mum drove to somebody house and it dies at people gate ... then father friends come and toll the car back to house and it's midnight ... so no hope saturday night sumore ... 2morrow sunday ... aiks need wait till monday lo see can heal anot the uncle said monday only can help the car because no worker in the workshop... 

Uncle Tan lorry killed somebody
last years dad friends was shifting office at penang , some one come out and said Uncle Tan lorry actuly killed someone on last years about 14 months ago ... wah lau so long liow ... only come out and said and they said it's the lorry driver hit and run ... no comment now waiting for news.. hope it's was a mistake.dad also kinda a stress on this news...maybe people pull a trap in to the good hands... who knows...A N W A R IS G A Y what it's true?hope it's not true...

Saturday afternoon ....
Before saturday night i actuly called wei chern for tea then he was asking aiyee me and you arr boring macam ... then i said ok lo see who live nearby then call lo .. mumyong (X) mumhong(X)
wingwah (X) kaiyee (X) .. then he said want go eat ice cream ....go to center point then he said arrr don't want eat ice cream la where to go arr? then i said go my place there la ... he said good idea wor then went to ss3 syed .. later ... he said again wei boring la what to do ... around 4 oc in the morning i said no need think we go home 2morrow we go lunch ok? actuly he's on converstaion with kaiyee also talk about lunch things so actuly i nothing do so confirm with him lo early morning 11 oc waked up stupid dog jump on my soft asking for trouble ... he want go poo poo... aiyeee sad la wake me up my mum 4get to open the door for it ...then called weichern confirm what time ... he said 1 oc la then 1 oc i wake up i quickly go bath i tog he comming on the way then 1 30 i call again he said cham lo no car how how how arr you wait arr my mum comming back soon ... oh okie then wait lo wait ha wait ha aiks sien la i go polish car la .....polish until 3 oc he called wei i comming ... then i went to bath again hot weh .... then 30 min later i call again wah ur ldp from where eh he said wei BIG PROBLEM LDP GOT ACCIDENT ...HA... ok lo i wait lo what to do ... haha then 3 45 reach my house ... then go to wingwah there 4oc sharp reach kaiyee there about 20 min ...he called that lunch !!!! but lucky i went for lunch when i waiting him ...then he said tea lo yam cha lo .... go to ONEU lo walk walk see see lo go play arcade lo.....so called lunch !!!

SUNDAY ARRRR 
Need to go "BAI BAI" my grandmother arrrr ....aiyee you know arr i cannot tahan the smoke 1 la ... go there flu !!! lucky my guma call me sit a side haha, i put some"HIONG" then i go under tree there because they having the BOAT SENDING THINGS ... so need to wait until 4oc aiyee
then dad drove us to kajang ... EAT SATAY wor .. sad things my dad lock me inside car because i was asleep my guma and daipak laugh i said aiks sad liow see i told you all i accident born 1 what my dad laught and said no la i hear all closing door liow ma so i tog you were down ... NO COMMENT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha jokinng with him la he also ok my mum just lalalalala pretening nothing happend haha not sad la just joking haha every were laughing .... maybe it's true aiks but nevermind ba it's alredy a fact haha .after hours of waiting ... satay came ... sad waited so long ... sien ... talk too much no water drink DIE SOON haha... then dad drove to another place for dinner ..EEEE 6 oc only leh ... around that area eat normal things la ... fish , meat , sayur those la ... then send daipa home and go home .... guma car was at out house so reach home around ... 7 dirty lo ....den i went to bath ... 9 oc barca msg me called me for dinner ..oh okie ...he told me 11 something got ball see so he said 11 something only go ... i go slacking for few hours and went out to meet him...kinda nice guys la someone really can talk all day long maybe just abit diffrent .. haha but's it's ok as long i can talk , he can entertain it's kinda a happy liow.
then went home SS3 went to worms ... SIMON was there haha then went to tea till very late .....

Pass week X D

Aiks working at Uncle Ben there is tired..., last month uncle ben were offer me to help him work on this a week, not much reason why he just want me to help him because i always tell him where is going wrong how would people thinking , well you done a good planning uncle ben you know i sure will accept that offer ... last month went out tea with him . he was offering me a sum of money and a phone, but i rejected i feel that phone for me is useless , i got my pda , i can check online also no need to buy me another phone, then later on i talk to him on the phone he ask me about my fee for next sem , and i was stressing for that ..then uncle ben quickly change the offer to something that i can't rejected him , he giving me a sponcer of 1 Asus mother board and 1 Asus Graphic card, for the week i help him to work .. i can't find ways to reject and this time the job works is more easy but more time ... no need go outstation but need to stay quite sometime in office to do some paper works and sale analysis , my whole week was a tired week , it was like wake up > work > eat > count> happy hours> tea> sleep > and all over again and again.

TAI DELAY ME !!!!
one night tai can't finish his work ask me to help him and he need to show to uncle jimmy by tomorrow morning so aiks help him den , wah lau tai next time you better arrange the file 1st leh
little brother here very tired leh , arrange also time leh... you work longer then me you should know which way is faster what... why want to make a mess , you must not having a timetabble ...
don't tell me no time leh , you can arrange your timetabble when you having happy hours leh.NO comment ... now you owe me 1 wuahahahah.

The days we went to the curve for dinner
wao @@ 10 something reach there , i was thinking what on earth this time got things to eat wor...uncle bring us go eat i Italian restaurants , uncle jimmy tai and me 4 people .. talking crap on the tabble , i have no idea what to call so wait uncles called.. uncle ben this time so pandai no ask me want eat what haha so i no need think , very funny leh they come with breads and dips with olive oil + viniger ... wow but taste 1derfull...those food on tabble i also don't know what is that ... eat only la haha. later on went to some bar for happy hours.... UNCLES LIFE !!!! 

Serious tired saturday was my half rest days, i came back at 1oc haven get lunch , later then pet bro called for help , he can't find the shop... was planning to get a nap , but he called so help. later on i call zhengkai for tea+ lunch it's his birthdays so gona make this diam diam haha , no present for you la zhengkai but take you out tea can la. Night time went to tbun look for on9 games friends due to 9 something got car gathering so , pass by meet old friends, wei chen called sudelly wow ask me where am i and ask me for tea , ok fine 8 oc he reach here and i said bye bye to my friends in the cafe then heading to the curve .. i though he said tea , siong chey he want to buy pants... ha !!! jar 2 no comment then 9 something he send me back to aman suria here to get my car, then he follow me to the car club also , wei chern arr you very slow la like that also can miss us ...no comment lo tea until 1 something all chiao liow then went LDP for tour haha ... then go home sleep .............................. nth much for sunday go cafe play for awhile then go dinner and tea with poan st and Ndrew then went home sleep .. 2morrow is a another working days....
counting down for 2 more days !!!!... yeah....

I learns something cool Uncle Ivan thought me
IF           A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
THEN    1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

let's see  for this "LOVE" "FAMILY" "WOMEN" "MONEY" "HARDWORK"  and what else you can think of?
let me tell you LOVE is only 12+15+22+5 = 54%
                          FAMILY is only 6+1+13+9+12+25 = 66%
                          WOMEN is only 20+15+13+5+1+14 = 67%
                          MONEY is only 13+15+14+7+25 = 74%
                          HARDWORK is only 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

ermm What makes 100%?
do you really want to know what in life really makes 100%?
let me tell you this ....
A+1
T+20
T+20
I+9
T+20
U+21
D+4
E+5
Total? what thats?
it's attitude , it worth 100%
count it yourself if you don't believe .                          

Some of the spect that i'm going to get

AMDX4 Phenom 

Mobo Asus M3N-HT Deluxe/Mempipe RM930
Processor AM2+ X4 9950 RM 770
RAM Corsair XMS28500C5DF D2 (TWIN2X2048-6400C5DHX) RM 330
PCI-E Asus EN9600GT BLACK PEARL/HTDI/512M RM520
HDD 500GB SEAGATE 32M RM250
CASING COOLER MASTER CM 690 RM289
PSU COOLER MASTER 500w RM200
kEYBOARD AND MOUSE COMBO LOGITECH G1 DESTOP GAMING RM 89
BURNER PIONEER 20x DVD BURNER RM94
DVD-ROM COMBO SAMSUNG RM 60
LCD ASUS HDMI (WIDE) RM 900

Mobo Asus M3N-HD/HDMI RM590
Processor AM2+ X4 9750 RM 660
RAM Corsair XMS28500C5DF D2 (TWIN2X2048-6400C5DHX) RM 330
PCI-E 9600GT DX10 512-D3 RM500
HDD 500GB SEAGATE 32M RM250
CASING COOLER MASTER CM 690 RM289
PSU COOLER MASTER 500w RM200
kEYBOARD AND MOUSE COMBO LOGITECH G1 DESTOP GAMING RM 89
BURNER PIONEER 20x DVD BURNER RM94
DVD-ROM COMBO SAMSUNG RM 60
LCD ASUS HDMI  RM 900


Mobo Asus M3A78-EMHI RM 295
Processor AM2+ X4 9750 RM 660
RAM Corsair XMS28500C5DF D2 (TWIN2X2048-6400C5DHX) RM 330
PCI-E 9600GT DX10 512-D3 RM500
HDD 500GB SEAGATE 32M RM250
CASING COOLER MASTER CM 690 RM289
PSU COOLER MASTER 500w RM200
kEYBOARD AND MOUSE COMBO LOGITECH G1 DESTOP GAMING RM 89
BURNER PIONEER 20x DVD BURNER RM94
DVD-ROM COMBO SAMSUNG RM 60
LCD ASUS HDMI (WIDE) RM 900

Intel

Mobo Asus P5N-T DLX RM950
Processor C2Q Q9300 2.50 RM885
RAM Corsair XMS28500C5DF D2 (TWIN2X2048-6400C5DHX) RM 330
PCI-E Asus EN9600GT BLACK PEARL/HTDI/512M RM520
HDD 500GB SEAGATE 32M RM250
CASING COOLER MASTER CM 690 RM289
PSU COOLER MASTER 500w RM200
kEYBOARD AND MOUSE COMBO LOGITECH G1 DESTOP GAMING RM 89
BURNER PIONEER 20x DVD BURNER RM94
DVD-ROM COMBO SAMSUNG RM 60
LCD ASUS HDMI (WIDE) RM 900

Mobo Asus P5N-D RM500
Processor C2Q Q6600 2.40 RM625
RAM Corsair XMS28500C5DF D2 (TWIN2X2048-6400C5DHX) RM 330
PCI-E Asus EN9600GT BLACK PEARL/HTDI/512M RM520
HDD 500GB SEAGATE 32M RM250
CASING COOLER MASTER CM 690 RM289
PSU COOLER MASTER 500w RM200
kEYBOARD AND MOUSE COMBO LOGITECH G1 DESTOP GAMING RM 89
BURNER PIONEER 20x DVD BURNER RM94
DVD-ROM COMBO SAMSUNG RM 60
LCD ASUS HDMI (WIDE) RM 900

Mobo Asus P5QL PRO RM380
Processor C2Q Q6600 2.40 RM625
RAM Corsair XMS28500C5DF D2 (TWIN2X2048-6400C5DHX) RM 330
PCI-E Asus EN9600GT BLACK PEARL/HTDI/512M RM520
HDD 500GB SEAGATE 32M RM250
CASING COOLER MASTER CM 690 RM289
PSU COOLER MASTER 500w RM200
kEYBOARD AND MOUSE COMBO LOGITECH G1 DESTOP GAMING RM 89
BURNER PIONEER 20x DVD BURNER RM94
DVD-ROM COMBO SAMSUNG RM 60
LCD ASUS HDMI (WIDE) RM 900

This is some of the spect...
I my self is getting AMD for sure 
reason CHEAPER AND BETTER X D
AMD HAD THE 1st Quard Core 1st later ony Intel do experiment on it ....
and AMD nowadays are stable ...

I get support from uncle that is 
ASUS MOBO + PROCESSOR+AGP , almost half of the things get sponcer so i can buy other stuff like more fan, alumium case , but uncle tell me don't buy other parts 1st because maybe he got lubang to help me get other stuff but sure i need to paid for that.

Was very greedy , wanted a 8GB ram using 64bit to process haha but, well i'm not that crazy , i want to play games also so , 4gb for me is ok . so i did not buy any parts 1st wait end of the month maybe price drop more cheaper !!! haha X D.

awaiting it...

i have ask my self what did i done for the week in penang i was thinking what makes people said that words.. i have no idea , i went for looking for the answer , and i learn much things that old uncles told me , it's what you want , why not give what they want. i should understand it early , if not uncle Ben won't tell me such things and now i understand , he offer me a job again and i shall be busy right now ... can't really get on9 and talk to some of my friends , some of them might be busy at their job , so i would not call them up.

Uncle Ben conversation ...
sam you back?
yup so why you send me to penang and support me to go there?
you better walk a way from what i told you , sam sometimes you know where's your limits.
i don't know my limits!
well you should know, sometimes why want to argue?
I'm sorry uncle Ben i think , maybe that day i'm out of mood at penang after you called me up.
Could you tell me why ? it's your father ? or other things?
It's my brother , he suddenly ask for the insurance things ..is not i don't want to help.
Then ?
well i really did not care about it at first because , bro pass to sister and ivan do it and you know what happend ... an argument on that night sister and ivan were argue for the credits card and brother insurance why would my bro called back every time is a argument?i don't understand uncle Ben ... my mood were serious down.
so how ? still thinking about that? i told you sometimes don't put a blame on other people , you might make other people misunderstand.
well i know ... but just sorry that night you called me . i actually talking to you at outside of the house and i don't want to hear argument sound.I don't know how to tell people about the situations but i don't know how to control my self for that .
so what you situations now? still angry ? or you need more time to chill?
i'm ok now after next days i wake up i saw sister and ivan were talking , i guess is ok. i just angry that i made one of my friends misunderstood. maybe it's my wrong , but it's too late . it been 2 days he's not on9 so i guess he is busy or what else ....
Sam , do you mind uncle Ben tell you somethings? sometimes is not about winning , it's about understanding , you be the winner and who could understand the looser mind? no one would know.
ok give me time to understand ok , i'm kinda tired nowadays , go to factory and mum will not be home for few days.
you need time to think and have enough sleep. well i'm not try to pretend to understand you , you should know why people worry about you, being a hard rock doesn't means everything s , you some how need to be soft on something else. hope you understand.

i'm tired , after coming back from penang i went to factory help , working on the 1st days was numbs but i just don't want to face the computer too much .there is misunderstood between a relationship but never mind , the more i explain were more misunderstood will create ..
but thanks you Uncle Ben you understand me , sorry for argue with you that day don't mean that i somehow i hope people are in front of my eye and they can see what is happening in my eye and they would understand it inc by inc .

i really thank you Uncle Ben,
you really though me something,
and make me understand something,
but lucky you are the person that understand my situations ,
maybe sometimes what happened i just told you on the phone,
you know why would i said that sometimes,
but if that day you din make that called i would not know how am i going to stay at the situation.
sometimes having a friendship with you were like worker and boss,
but as days goes things just change,
maybe that time you shout at me , i would just walk aways and not tell you anythings about it.
if i just did that today the one who is calling might not be you.
you ask me and i answer you.
and from that day on things just change.
todays i trow back the same things like what you did before ,
you were ok and chill on the phone thanks for that ....
for my pet brother i really no idea since days he's not on9 and not getting any msg from him i guess he start to ignore me or maybe he 's busy on his work.... well 1st i don't know how to explain about it and i'm just sorry for that , sometimes over heated are not a good things , why would it happened , lets think back , but what done is done. there will not have another understand of that.

sorry for what i did
really sorry ,
there is nothings to explain anymore
what done is done...
i hope someone tell me why when where ...
just a words of sorry i only can said that .
accept or not accept is no longer an answer.

if there is a tittle what could you put this as?

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
puting me under the pressure
every step that I take is another mistake to you
I've become so empty
I can't feel it any more
I've become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.
can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
is falling apart right in front of you.
and I know
i may end up failing too
but I know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you.

Walk to my balcony have a sit,
thinking what could posible happend,
think and think .
can't figure out what went wrong,
but understand the limit of it,
i saw the sea infront of me,
i saw the people playing around,
i hear the song of freedom.
and the sand was soaking my toes,
the sea water was covers my toes.
i stood there for an hour ,
things doens't come but kept waiting.
the world is a big circles ,
but sometimes big circles are small.
don't expect it's big,
it's not so big lately.
when you notice it ,
it been flew always with the wind.
what have you done lately?

Are you expecting something to happend?
things has show up so,
what's bother you.
a little bit of fate and faith.

My Life Is Changing Before Me &.. 
Things I Felt I No Longer Feel 
All My Beliefs Have Turned To Nothingness 
All That Remains Is This Bleak Emptiness 

No - What Has Happened To Me 
Everything That I Was - Now I Can't Even See 
As The Changes Destroy My Mind 
Life Is Passing Before My Eyes 

Things Weren't This Way, I Once Was Strong 
But Now I'm Weak, Can't Carry On 
Crushed By Everything That Made This 
I Can No Longer Take This 

No - What Has Happened To Me 
Everything That I Was - Now I Can't Even See 
As The Changes Destroy My Mind 
Life Is Passing Before My Eyes 

Alone In Anguish, Cast In Silence 
Feelings Of Hatred, Masked Thru Violence 
Frustrations Overwhelming-Endless Misery 
Caged Emotions - Tears Apart Me 

Look Beyond My Inner Self 
Past My Soul Into Hell 
See The Things That Made My Life 
Feel The Pain As I Die 

Quickly, My Life Did Change 
Nevermore Shall I Feel Sane 
Waiting, To End This Life 
Waiting I Take This Knife 

Quickly, My Life Is Fading 
Nevermore Shall I Feel Pain 
My Life Has Passed Before Me 
An Ending That I Shall Not See

I'll Take You to Heaven, the Kingdom is Yours 
Deny Your own Life, Submit to the Cause 
Change Your Beliefs to fit in With Mine 
Grant me Your Soul Till the end of Time" 

Given a Chance to Repent for his Sins 
Delusions of Grandeur, Enrobed by Hymns 
Nothing but Silence Comes From his Lord 
Nothing but Hatred Becomes his Accord 

Forsaken by God, Nailed to the Cross 
The People Don t Care, No Great Loss 
Rejected by People he was Trying to Save 
Nailed up - Between two Knaves

You thought we'd be fine
All these years gone by
Now your askin me to listen
Well then tell me about everything
No lies we're loosin time

Cause this is a battle
And its your final last call
It was a trial, you made a mistake, we know
But why arent you sorry, why arent you sorry, why?
This can be better, you used to be happy

You've got them on your side
And they wont change their minds
Now its over
And im feelin like we've missed out on everything
I just hope its worth the fight

I want a box around myself
So they can put me on the shelf
To see the way I live
But the holes are blocked
By everybody else inside
As far as I can tell
They're all living well
Living better, still
Oh, that's the way it is
Climbing up the corporate ladder
Trying to escape through the roof

Can you explain lives led in vain?
It seems like everybody's looking for their way out

It's not a problem, it's hell
We only do what people tell
But can you tell me, anyone
The consequences of setting someone free?

Have you ever felt the pinch
When you life's confined?
Well, get your ass in line
It's hard not to care what they say
I'd like to think we'll break away
I don't believe that growing up
Means cashing out and giving up

The time has come to deny your ways.
To rid ourselves of the parasites.
Shedding dead weight, reclaiming what?s ours.
Taking each moment with force again.
No crosses to bear, no time to be wasted.
A fearless approach to oppression.
A constant attack to never retreat from.
With no other choice but resistance,
What will it take
You must choose or be chosen for.
What will it take
Choose or chosen

Its all that we ask, for what we demand.
The decisions we make we will live by.
Proving your weakness.
Denouncing your claims
Your feeble attempts to demean us.
What more can you do, you?re against the wall.
Your lies will be heard for the last time.
Sat what you will it?s only in vein.
This is the justice I fought to attain.

.................................................

A suddenly suprize that went up to penang. An aeroline ticket life

this is the bus that i went to travel to penang , dad told me after my trip from melacca, >eh if you want go to penang or where else let me know ok. I ask i though you heading outstation?.No. no comment about that i tell all my friends that i would be around here but seem everyone is buzy rather i go some place that is everyone free... 

i start my trips at wednesdays , morning and this ticket actuly was bought early in the morning uncle ben ring me up and send me to oneU there . before that night i went out with my pet brother and when i reach home and i went out again. 

at first i told uncle that i feeling strange around me, sometimes people like don't  trust me and they don't dare to side bet with me , come on since you doens't believe sidebet please maybe i'm telling you lies , but most of the time i did not . some people said you sure? maybe? ermm let me think about it , leave me a space i might be there ,....etc .you know what uncle ben done this to me , he said ok i buy you a ticket by tomorrow morning make sure you pack you bags tonight. well ok since my dad give me green light to go travel ok go . i went home , pack my bags .. and went for a few hours sleep , then my phone ring suprize that the time is 8oc and i still wondering ... ok ok take a bath and i go.. i was thinking i haven get my bus ticket how am i going to travel at first i though uncle ben was joking so i preten ... when he reach my house , i put all my things and said greed my mum and dad here i go, and i put my stuff to his car suprize that ...he give me the a4 paper that is above printed out ,i see the time booked 8 30 ... he reach my house around  9 30. Reach oneU around 10 he talk and he chat slow with me in the car, thanks for the things that you said and the bus ticket, i call my sister and let her know that i'm going up there .

In the bus ...
aeroline a 1st class bus ... wao ... uncle you really want me to enjoy this trip yeah... i saw many funy people there have no idea what i'm feeling , just feel diffrent when i'm on board. maybe many business people on the bus or maybe uncle want me to see something in the bus. and start my jurney and reach penang around 3 30

My sister fetch me at Sg.nipon station near bayang lepas.. but this time my sister is fetching few uncles with i don't know some of them, there are uncle peter , uncle koike and auntie koike. suprice the that i know this japaniese uncle quite cute lo and me question , he's good in english , then went to tea nearby nowhere i also don't know where ....

went back to feringgi height , all those uncle stay in the same area but diffrent floors .. cool eh this kind of uncle no need work @@ suprize that what they working as and how thier income come from , they seem have normal life but the have rich man knoledge, so i just chit chat as what i use to be.

Dinner time for the 1st night
Went to uncle peter house for dinner , nothing much normal home dishies . went home and start to watch movie till next morning .... around 7 oc in the morning only start to sleep.before i go out my pet brother msg me , he ask me for dinner and i just forget to send him a msg i guess ... was rushing out and did not take my phone with me ... till i check send box there is no msg send out ... so aiks don't know how to explaint and don't feel like explainting it so i just leave it there.

when i wake up is around 4 oc , i start to watch movie again last night haven finish haha that movie very nice called "catch me now" but i don't really like the ending  no comment. watch till half around 6 oc like that sister called go out eat dinner with those uncle ... owh okie thne went to bath ... aiks.. i'm the drive there ... ok lo i drive lo haha since so long din touch this car , reach there around 7 lo .. when all people reach  @@ all retired uncle ... fulaueh 1st time meet too much old uncle haha .. ok la chating with them , those uncle so sui bluff me ... they said son want some chinese tea ... ok lo i really thoght the fill in the bottle was chinese tea... few cm of it and uncle add ice for me i suprize that and i think again it doens't look like CHINESE TEA... siong chey again ... is liqour jar 2 no hope drink 1 cup then went shoping uncle koike and his wife and peter wife and my sister was in the car then we went to shoping lo.... not much walk walk see see bought things lo .....

the wired night ....
i was on the phone with uncle ben and my pet brother pull me in a converstation and i told him that i will be right back because i'm talking with him... when i finish talk i msg back ,... same old things happend ..fedup... don't care go sleep...

On the phone
uncle was telling me why aeroline, and ask how i feel and many things more , told him and i ask him why , he ask do you know what is your class now? do you see why people like aeroline so much? and you know why some sits are empty? and do you sit or sleep on thier sofa bed at lower deck? I answer him all that , then he said well you know what you looking for so how is your trip to penang ? actuly is good things to stay at here chilling and talk to those no need work uncle , quite of joy and happy . here all the neighbour always exchange food ... koike wife is a good baker haha i get pizza for my supper and banana cakes .

sometimes i don't know how to show people the real situation , but if i dare them they will just suck out , so i'm kind living like a lie man life ... don't care , if really want to blame , blame me it's my fault , i did not check it and i din reply . . so don't bother to ask , uncle ben told me see now you know the situation , sometime people don't believe you evendo it's true ...is not you don't want to explaint to them is they might thinkgs other ways ... so now you understand? ok ok i get the catch but what the point............................................