Today i heard and i feel it's me correct me if that is not me.

Today i knwo somethings new >guess what it is jelous<
i just so want to know what is all about, have no idea sometimes...but todays someone tog me that jelous , and i found out people are trying to tell me something but not in the direct way i know what is going on , No need to tell me , i have once tell that i jelous about it , and just once it become forever , this situations remind me that this kind of people doens't actuly know how other people feel,they always thinks in thier own ways , they just follow thier heart and they did not really see what is all about it.If you want to confess somethings to me mind as well tell me.and better you ask me .

A big round or meaning
pass days one of my friends laptop has problem after i use it ,and guess what i hear it from today it's a so direct story from it, he said the other person live in my friends house is a jelousy person,and this person is ruining my friends laptop , he state a very long story and i get it , sound more like me , he said that the person did it in purpose , and few times before i use my friends laptop after leaving sure got problems. It me heading a bad luck, or what? someone is blaming? well saying things that no body know is true but to trust. Today i get the meaning of it , the feeling of mine way like keep it aways and you are not really welcome , but it's true? who's know? rather geting some profits are better then screw up.

Another meaning
someone said that how rich is rich? do you think is rich? 
I define rich people as in you drove many diffrent luxury car , what you wear , how you talk , which culture you love the most , what are you always compare with ,things that you no need to plan , scare of people to know about your salary , using own experience to talk, always think that people around you are geting profits from you, they always buy things that is very unique,to have own style in certain ways .It's easy to see a person status just like that.

I share this statement for a reason, sometimes people just scare of fake people around especially those rich people , well if that so there is always limited time for a relationship , after a long time you just started people are geting profits from you, if that so what for we wasted so much time just want to get those profits ? Do they really understand about it?when things get close they started to thinks other things , yes maybe sometimes is right , that is just keep happend and happened ......

Am i jelous?
Yes i'm jelous about my brother , why he get those freaking good deal with my dad , that what i jelous about it.my pet bro said that i see what people get then i want what people have, huh true eh? no idea .. how well is knowing my self and how well do you really know your self?since  that happend no comment for that if people said so then so , why want to change thier mind when they always said yes, wasted of time to make them understand it.

Uncle ben said if a person you already know he/she can't play with jokes, why still play with them, actuly i don't get when i 1st listen and i always ask, he said you will met one of them one day, guess i met one , things really suck out badly !!! what you joke around they definely using it and do on you , and they will over done it sometimes, we jokes has a limited range , but if you over the range i guess it's a time for argument again and again.

what you said before has consequence , why it's a post with a long story , how am i going to understand it , this may cause how you talk normally , if want to tell somethings that is me , no need make a big round and a long story , and i'm not stupid to hear that story. A company can't even get a good computer spect and telling me that they are spare parts? wounder it's my wrong guess ... but the words is all sharpen so i would claim that is all to me.

If i'm looking for profits , better i don't care about it

Friendship with this kind of supicious , i give up

Friendship that is full of problem , i give up

Friendship that is between another relationship , i give up

Friendship that is always doubble side meaning , i give up

Friendship that hurt my feeling , i give up

This statement is what i thinking right now, If i'm what those people think then make it be.
I'm leaving in the zone of mine, heading to a place to jump with the sea.
hope no one know what am i now....

It's about thinking !!! malaysian don't think before talk trust me !!! they don't!!!

it been awhile i'm not around thinking and figuring what is life all about ...
do you believe people that said No i din actuly they did .
no comment , how i know and how i get the info is what i saw and hear from my own ears and eyes,  sometimes i would preten that i did not saw or hear that but they just kept talk and talk about it ... if that is a good point of that you all won't spend time to talk about it , if there is a bad things you would exchange and started to compare with who and who... i'm not confessing something but at least i know people that said no infront of me they know who are they ... and how i get the the news it doens't matter ... when you start to talk about it people would know about it , that is so simple but who'S know? 

I been walking and think for the last night i was siting down chilling with friends ... things are just get chill out , hope that it could happend. 

Yesterdays people said that you are a rubbish , but the rubbish has been use by the one who said it and now it's recycling , i don't mind it anymore....
they said NO this is bad and it's not helping but they end up with the YES and changing thier words ... i would just hope that sometimes i could record down and play back things that people said . but this will make more problem , so friends of mine said don't care about it , if it's bottering you , better you give up .

someone said sam today i don't get the catch what are you trying to said, days later... fuck you sam i know what you mean now , it been so long and you take back out and said . few more days later sam i think that sometimes if we don't clean things off  and end it , we would just end up argument.

Thanks god at least someone know what's going on !!!!
so glad that they know somethings i want to tell them , if problem stucked , we escape all things just end up a mess and it won't be a solid relationship.

MY NEW STATEMENT 
in my survey i found out that malaysian are follow the trent , Let me show you how does this work, it's actuly like this i asked IF 10 PEOPLE SAID THIS IS GOOD WOULD IT BE GOOD?
yer it's so damn obvious ...don't ask stupid question can anot ? they said to me.
But when i met Outsider people and ask, i was suprize that they give me some answer that i did not expected, i asked the same question and the reply was erm 10 people ? who are they ?
what is the age of them? would  you tell me what are they looking good at? i did no prepair for that but i manage to let them know what i want do about my statement. some of them said If a 10 person agree it might be somethings same with thier mind , but this could never happend , what if the 10 person is retarded ? so could that gossip be true? or the things are good? a perfect 10 doesnt't means it's perfect it means that is a problem . this are those people giving me answer and ask me back question i was happy that.

I ask why every sentance and they explaint i was so fucking high you know , i ask why could it never happend? they said there are many people in the world , if you have the same mind i guess today we should not have class for living right.wow i was so damn agree with the answer !!!!

but what makes me down was all my friends are juging me , they thought i'm playful some of my question was stupid , they just din think and give me the answer, the moment i hear it was damn i hope i was serious all the time but it's too late , nevermind if 10 malaysian said that is a good work means it's really good work in malaysia. so my conclusion was if i can just convienc 100 people in malaysia my plan would work just like that , since they had no question and they always things they are smart then other.

I realize that most of use give the answer without thinking most of the people said they think before said but i see and i observe that later on they would just screw thier ass just like a bomb creator that create the most best explosive bomb but they plan it on thier ass and they would know what happend in the end. So i'll be smilling agin... i'm correct but who can i share with it's my blog and my diary. don't you get what it really means?

People said they think before answer, 

actuly they did not think before,

if 10 people would said yes will it be a yes to you?

they said they understand ,

but they don't understand at all but they just to get back thier pride

if your pride is more important ,

then what is not important for you personality?

some said what the fuck you talking why sudelly personality?

see see i know i know they did not ask and give me wtf angain and again ..

my statement was writen on saturday and i start to ask around ,

see see see i get the answer,

They just give me diffrent answer ....and they said it the statement said that the 10 person is YES

IF YES WHY DIFFRENT ANSWER AFTER FEW QUESTION?

Huh HUh ... no comment and i just got the malaysian mind concept and i think it would works .
i'm lazy to see and ask again they ask me to ask other question but i guess 2 statement i already stop, my statement was a 11 question , and they answer 2 question and give me some wired facial expression.

GAME OVER?

This few days i just finish my finals , but it seem bored after my timetabble was spoiled...so bored and it's going more bored ever ...nothing much happend todays... went out for tea with friends and went to cafe to pass my time... night time went out with barca , he asked me for dinner at paramount , then he change to murni and i ask who's going WOC 2nd leader was going i was like so pai seh weh... not much it's just a car club but my car was stocked so haha abit pai seh la just went tea with them quite friendly , then went back home.... storing .... 

What i saw this few days...
I saw many of my friends blogs are having a GAME OVER TITTLE ...some is about relationship some are study some are even thier car...ok , les start with relationship ... some of my friends they just sold out thier relationship examples they said they had enought of that , she said "your one time enjoyment made my life forgive-ness and i can't forget it " wao she is in deep shit ... but i din ask her why , because i know what it means..., i hope she is ok with that i really want to help but seem i can't said much things in this kind of situations, so i just drop her a msg . The others with relationship some of the words i qoute it like >

"Sometimes i don't call i don't msg i don't what ever doens't means i don't care about you" 
"I hope you understand me , but it's too late and it's no meaning to let you know"
"I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry you saw what i did and you keep quite you gave me another chance but i screw up again and again I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry"
"I love you but would you love me, i don't know would you tell me?"

Those are some post that they made i was passing by thier blog and i feel that wao the problems start at THERE @@ i see it ... but how could i just said it like that?can't help just keep quite...

2nd Game Over 
it's one of my friends  car been crashed and it's a total lost he said that everythings has an end and the end was GAME OVER...
his qoute>

"I wish that day i could die with it, so i would not keep thinking and thinking"
"I hope that night was a dream , but when i was awake i was sleeping on bed with bandage"
"They din screw me up and they caring for me when i still not awake"
"I Thought dying with it was my perfect answer but when i saw they were caring about me , i did not want the wish come trues"
"And the game is over now "

I called him up and ask how are him now he was totally zero !!!
he seem lost , but i just ask about how is him and i did not menction about the things i read in his blog... well seem he has no mood to talk so i end it with silent bye.

Dennis...
well well well dennis you car seem parked at the same place every morning , you din go to college any more or you having sem break?
No , i'm ending my studies ...
why bro ? what happend?
i can't really study and i give up...
what's your problem?so did you father know?
of cus not , i still thinking how to tell him .
This is not a solution Dennis...

that day i ask Dennis you tell me that you are bored with everydays , those days you at the cafe playing DOTA was it happy?you told me that i won a few games but i feel bored don't know why, and he ask me why life are so boring.I told him the worlds is not boring they are things to let you explore but you din think about it , you said playing DOTA are so bored but you been playing and playing for years everydays every morning you were the 1st customer here, and you said you have a bored life come on you lead your self the road and you finally said it's bored ... funny things that he ask aiks sam what do you do at the boring days ... i told him , i got my timetabble why i got my timetabble because it's a time frame to let you know what to do when you have nothings to do . he keep quite and send me home .... blah blah...

he said my life is serious GAMING OVER.... come on you still young la bro... no comment on him .

this are the few things i saw and i listen from what people said... no harm and i get some feed back cool or not cool it depance on you.

after tea with barca .... my phone rang .... guess who unlce ben ....
on the way to his house ...auntie not in went outstation ...no1der call me la.... aiks at his house beer with him few cups i cabut lari ... i dowant to drink so much talk with him then he like drunk drunk de so i sendiri buka pintu cabut ... haha sumore i seldom drink so must know my limits haha then went back home feel tired at first but when i reach home want to sleep then can't aiks don't care la watch movie la ... then slap .... wake up and continew write blog haha X D.

huh?

This few days i just finish my finals , but it seem bored after my timetabble was spoiled...so bored and it's going more bored ever ...nothing much happend todays... went out for tea with friends and went to cafe to pass my time... night time went out with barca , he asked me for dinner at paramount , then he change to murni and i ask who's going WOC 2nd leader was going i was like so pai seh weh... not much it's just a car club but my car was stocked so haha abit pai seh la just went tea with them quite friendly , then went back home.... storing .... 

What i saw this few days...
I saw many of my friends blogs are having a GAME OVER TITTLE ...some is about relationship some are study some are even thier car...ok , les start with relationship ... some of my friends they just sold out thier relationship examples they said they had enought of that , she said "your one time enjoyment made my life forgive-ness and i can't forget it " wao she is in deep shit ... but i din ask her why , because i know what it means..., i hope she is ok with that i really want to help but seem i can't said much things in this kind of situations, so i just drop her a msg . The others with relationship some of the words i qoute it like >

"Sometimes i don't call i don't msg i don't what ever doens't means i don't care about you" 
"I hope you understand me , but it's too late and it's no meaning to let you know"
"I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry you saw what i did and you keep quite you gave me another chance but i screw up again and again I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry"
"I love you but would you love me, i don't know would you tell me?"

Those are some post that they made i was passing by thier blog and i feel that wao the problems start at THERE @@ i see it ... but how could i just said it like that?can't help just keep quite...

2nd Game Over 
it's one of my friends  car been crashed and it's a total lost he said that everythings has an end and the end was GAME OVER...
his qoute>

"I wish that day i could die with it, so i would not keep thinking and thinking"
"I hope that night was a dream , but when i was awake i was sleeping on bed with bandage"
"They din screw me up and they caring for me when i still not awake"
"I Thought dying with it was my perfect answer but when i saw they were caring about me , i did not want the wish come trues"
"And the game is over now "

I called him up and ask how are him now he was totally zero !!!
he seem lost , but i just ask about how is him and i did not menction about the things i read in his blog... well seem he has no mood to talk so i end it with silent bye.

Dennis...
well well well dennis you car seem parked at the same place every morning , you din go to college any more or you having sem break?
No , i'm ending my studies ...
why bro ? what happend?
i can't really study and i give up...
what's your problem?so did you father know?
of cus not , i still thinking how to tell him .
This is not a solution Dennis...

that day i ask Dennis you tell me that you are bored with everydays , those days you at the cafe playing DOTA was it happy?you told me that i won a few games but i feel bored don't know why, and he ask me why life are so boring.I told him the worlds is not boring they are things to let you explore but you din think about it , you said playing DOTA are so bored but you been playing and playing for years everydays every morning you were the 1st customer here, and you said you have a bored life come on you lead your self the road and you finally said it's bored ... funny things that he ask aiks sam what do you do at the boring days ... i told him , i got my timetabble why i got my timetabble because it's a time frame to let you know what to do when you have nothings to do . he keep quite and send me home .... blah blah...

he said my life is serious GAMING OVER.... come on you still young la bro... no comment on him .

this are the few things i saw and i listen from what people said... no harm and i get some feed back cool or not cool it depance on you.

after tea with barca .... my phone rang .... guess who unlce ben ....
on the way to his house ...auntie not in went outstation ...no1der call me la.... aiks at his house beer with him few cups i cabut lari ... i dowant to drink so much talk with him then he like drunk drunk de so i sendiri buka pintu cabut ... haha sumore i seldom drink so must know my limits haha then went back home feel tired at first but when i reach home want to sleep then can't aiks don't care la watch movie la ... then slap .... wake up and continew write blog haha X D

Can you guys don't feel what you feel? can you all please ask?

Today morning wake up i try to settle down all my things ... i need to come out with a new timetabble due to last week cancel and so goes this week...actuly this week timetabble was after tuesday class pass up the assignment then go home pack bag and go to penang , den reach penang must call uncle ong 1st call him fetch me to sister there wuhaha ...then planed to have dinner with his family ,.. then here goes my holidays at penang ... as i plan , all my friends was asking me why i want to go to penang ... i want to tell sometimes but rather keep it because telling too much were over act.. when i plan all my timetabble and stuff ... then went out to tea with friends and for my lunch . then back home and force to jump and run , suprize that my leg doens't have any pain ,i think this is no wasted while i keep traning and force my self to run, my dad said to me that i'm stupid and the only people that support me are close friends , they give me the answer was when you stop execirce your leg will goes more weak and many things could happend... last time i don't believe this and i thoght was a bull shit but when the incident happend few month ago i started to notice and not to giving up...well back after a long run around my area i went back home , bath and get my dinner then went to rest awhile .... and dad came home he told somethings that i always hate to hear... but i must keep quite ... he said tomorrow need go to sunway shogun to had the company dinner ... aiyooo ... spoil my plan ... can't cancel his one ... aiks .. so need to call up to uncle and tell him i can't attent at the moment and i have no mood to go penang ... so i rather wait next week ... but next week mum and dad are not in so i guess postphone again ...so means = no need go ... then mengz called ... cancel !!! fulamak !!! all cancel ... this time the timetabble is the worst ever !!!!

and you know what happend i get a news from clubs said that brian was hit by a lorry > this is what barca told me >

For your informations that our buddy Brian admited to Glenn Eagle Hospital at Jalan Ampang yesterday evening(should be around 7-8pm).He was been hit by a lorry while he riding his motorcycle.As Brian called me around 12am while i was tt with Candy and Scar at Wangsa Maju.He told me 1 of his shoulder bone is breaked and i think he need to do surgery.So i think we should organise pay a visit to our bro Brian that was suffering in the hospital.

the day that full of suprize ...

Sometimes i learn from people ,
and people said that they learn from me,
and when then said they will said where got,
i also lazy said ,
you all said i action,
ok if i'm ,
why that everytime i call you guys for tea also can't make it?
and this is the first time i cancel the things you said i action,
i been calling and calling you guys but always no ,
when you all call when did i said no expect this time?
if you said you learn from me and give me that kind of facial espression,
i think better i get off since i'm a disturbing you,
You guys need me that time will try msn or called me,
i need you guys that time msn or called also no reply,
and everytime you guys msg me sure got some problem to ask me,
i ask you all that time you all said i disturbing you,
ok now i seldom on msn and you guys said that i block you all come on,
if you care about hotmail why not you ask ?
you guys always think your way ,
there are no reason to do that it's so childish ,
if you said that why not you delete the email that is blocking you?
and stop asking me that why i'm not online,
if you got heart send me a sms or called to ask,
why would you all want to think what yourself is think?
this is so selfish this is not learn from me ,
i did not do that .

THINK if i'm action , then why would you still want to talk to me
THINK do i really do that before?
THINK do you do that before or you just forget?
THINK if i'm that so rather less keep the friendship cold.
better than i hear those sharp words from you guys...

moment at muar.......

afternoon ... was awake sleep at hotel ... Ben thought i'm still sleeping so he did not wake me , i was thinking something and i'm sorry make you wait me wake up... before i was awake i told what happend to some of my friends they said since when you argument with him like arguement with your girlfriends sumore your girlfriends things also don't have so much to hear..., i was thinking that am i really worry about it or i'm over acting? i really don't know , but at least i know it will goes silent on this relationship so well who know what's going to happend next , few days without using internet was like i went to some place that is so quite , Ben was right for my life i addicted to something that is using internet , guess he's correct MSN was a drugs and you just don't notice ... That days they ask me how is going to be and i told them i really don't know and i hope to walk aways for a few days and i went to maur for a trip with Uncle Ben.It's a fate , things are like arrangement , i told about Uncle Ben about that things he said maybe or maybe not , he said sometimes he do believe in horoscrope but not all the time...the last day i'm still at kl i thinking why sudelly arguemnt ? i just can't slove it till i hit the horoscrope button... then i only realize fuck things are crashed no1der it has happend...

After i wake up went to bath , Uncle ben so cialat ... he wake up early but failed to go to bathroom ... give me the excuese is aiyer you sleeping ma later i shower got sound wake up then you can't sleep well haha <~ he said ....so i went to bath 1st then his turn.. then head to nearby and ate breakfast... went to maur HQ to find Dai Lou ... but he is not in then Sai Lou there well have a big hug from him haha almost 4 month never meet him and also call also don't have why haha because when i quit that job that time i trow away the sim card ... 0173896311 <~ i trow away because it's not under my name and i'm done doing that ... no longer touch ... sailou ask eh sui chai why not continew ... Uncle Ben shoot him haha then he keep quite ... so i help uncle check stock as usally but not getting salary la because i just follow him ... but before i go to maur he gave me some money and i expect that is what he expect to give me that amount of money.check stock ... and help abit at the factory then walk here and there find auntie and talk ... she 10 years also no change 1 lo always call me go there ... aiyo i quit jor lo no no go haha she was asking me want to VISIT THE NEW SPA ANOT ...@@ i said no thanks haha....then went to dinner and those stuff lo 1st night nothing happend because need to wait Tailou go Sgpore to get the stock over and sailou told me JB got new stock need somebody to handle ...wow wow that i don't want to care i can help but not touching anythings you guys doing now ok...sailou keep provoke me ... i said no then sudelly Uncle Ben jump out haha sailou you in big troubble wuhahaha uncle help me haha ...and i told uncle ben don't tell me you are waiting for me to help u clean that stock !!! he reply if you don't want then nevermind la give other people do.Is not the sweating and counting problem is the following up problems... after dinner went back hotel sleep Uncle ben went out relax i was thinking and thinking again ... were my questions answered? i guess nope i just taking holidays and wait things cool down...i sleep early because i scare tomorrow late wake up so sleep early ...next morning i wake up around 10 uncle haven sms i think he is still sleeping so i went to bath ... see what you said this time haha ...after finish shower i knocked his door HE MIAed ... guess he's smoking or on phone outside somewhere else ... (he pass me his other phone to use and he said don't give your number to anyone of them, so i said ok)i use His other phone to call Sailou and ask Dailou back mei? he said today afternoon back JB wor you urgent going back kl meh?eerrr no haha. Then uncle ben come in and tell me later we going down JB there check stock and please call Sailou and tell him go with us togather ...then i ask a stupid question who driving ? @@ Uncle ben said stupid sure la sailou then he went to bath... after he habis sailou waiting at the hotel there , ok then i ask tonight we comming back here arrr he said nope but take your back and laptops to sailou car ... pack and run again ...Sailou driving and uncle Ben was keep checking his data in car and i was siting infront ... Uncle ben sms in sudelly , i read he said oie pass me your pouch ... i want the HDD .. i did not react suprize and i turn back and give him , i was half talking with sailou haha so he did not notice ... At JB there wow empty and big space and the tons of tractor were there parking waiting for us to check it.Finally saw Dailou cars his Blue Devil... then park the car and walk yayaya my pouch have get back ... Uncle Ben said no need take pouch the HDD leave in car ... i did not listen and i keep in my pocket.Leaving it in the car is not that save .. so i did not take my pouch and i take the HDD with me ... then Dailou trow me his car key he call me follow sailou go kai kai suprize that he do that ... but i was thinking why uncle ben want to leave the HDD in car and the other laptop in his car? i just don't understand.... as i follow sailou around the tour ... and were looking for food to eat because i'm hungry !!!! haha don't know where leh but got things eat then enought .... after finish eat have a chat with sailou i ask wei wassup la why the system so mah fan zou up and down.... he said ai ya la you know last few week UncleBen got a Faulty stock... now it's at the place that you saw those tractor la .. i said tiu why no tell me early when in the car,he said aiks suichai don't care so much la later my brother and uncle said what we do only Sailou ask eh you got bring laptop mo ?i said no leh at hotel there leh ...he sudelly change ... Oh well nevermind then talk and talk ... few hours leh then uncle msg me oie the HDD in which car? you take out jor? i reply him ya i took out what's going on? then sailou were searching his car , why the HDD sudelly so important ... wah lau eh i also don't know what happend la as long i keep to my self that is ok.. then UncleBen said THANK YOU you save my ass ...no comment no idea also while i driving that time i put the HDD back to my pouch . then went back to the factory there and help uncle count the stock and check no comment see jor also know what happend ... help him count and count .... Dailou Uncleben and few people were in the office light fighting or arugment i saw but i preten nothing happend ... Uncle keep press his laptop and let Dailou see , sailou tell me don't care la count 1st make sure no lost because this dealer quite snake...Our lorry were standby after check the stock all runn away haha like pack and run. night time and i still don't know what is happending ....sailou help us find a nearby hotel around there ... after dinner me and sailou finally saw Dailou and UncleBen those two like keep talking and keep talk loud me and him has no idea what's going on i guess HE know what happend but did not tell me... so went for tea and talk ... PNC stuff OO me also consider the PNC People? haha who cares ... went back and bath and sleep same room with uncle ...den ... you know what happend he call me give him the HDD , i give him lo then he give me see something that i'm not expected that happend , he shows me the graph and other things and some conversation on the phone while he talking with other boss finally i know what happend spending few hours to understand that stuff and at last i know what's is going on .... Morning liow guess what stupid uncle did not wake me up and sailou were in the room wahlau eh meh lei geh !!!!!! uncle left me msg said that he got something do with Dailou ... then i expect he will be back soon gua ... sailou said eh later we go happy lo ... walk walk see see go singk then shoping ... dinner and went back hotel as i were almost asleep stupid uncle drunked and land on my bed so i change bed ... no comment ..... the final morning i sit sailou car and uncle were in dailou car speeding back to maur HQ ... but today sunday no people at office why go back office? ... so sien leh i have no idea what going on and i'm not helping much ...Uncle told me he said eh you see that day i office there with those snakes you saw hat happening ?....told me and make me understand... stupid sailou give me wrong infomation is not uncle get the faulty stock la is all those boss too pandai masuk too much no money paid uncle and dailou ... the things that are in my HDD were the converstation and the proof of them ...NO1DER everyone were so worry about the laptop and they tog all the data at the laptop!!!! chey.... time pass .... and Uncle said going back soon so i guess ok haha nothing is left on me here ... but i still need go down Sgpore to get those things ... hope the custome din see !!! X D...he send me home and had dinner with him ...This is why i don't want to work there ... life always in risk don't know what happend !! then what they said may have changes .. uncle teach me next time do business you use brain when meet this kind of snake... OO some of my friends thought i block them on msn, i early said i won't block a person well if he/she can't get i'll just leave there why care when no body are caring ...i found out that few of my friends said SAMSON Silent At Mana?Sini Only Nice!! what the heck ... lazy to reply them la sometime what they think is what they feel they feel people block them for bosong them or what reason who cares since you can't see what you want to see ...does it really matter?Uncle got tell me so you care about it or what ? i told him that i should not care because sometimes people can't accept the facts ... and they keep change what they said ...SILENT talk ...PWC people find me for tea ... ok la i went to find them tea ... X D...

I don't know how it happends

I don't know why would you all said i avoiding

I don't know why they think funny things

I just don't know .... maybe i'm wrong ,

if i'm wrong i said sorry more then you think,

if it's not my wrong then who could i blame?

.......

Thank You for the trip and the money you gave 

i'll use it in a good way 

thanks for everythings and make me understand , 

you just show me how human are look like and what they could think when they saw a diffrents

THINGS JUST CHANGE DON'T EXPECT THEY WON'T

MY Friendster picture said it all , and it's really true

and i understand it why it could happend and why i should know

thanks for giving me a million dollar lesson 

Hope you get a new life soon X D

So i can be GOD BROTHER haha 

Comming up plans need go to penang and going down to sgporeto visit charles

my buddy and going to visit his new house soon 

see you there bro...

saturday night X D

went out with them X D

they also went to karat highway X D

quite nice to know them .....

i found this song quite nice X D when i was in uncle car X D

long long time ago !!!!!

I have a  frineds name call Benson , i use to called him Ben aka Uncle ben, he's a cool middle age guys that have married but no kids , he told me that about life , i really appreciate and he told me something that i disagree since last last time ago but today is a answer for me to said i'm wrong,well what you know i arrange my timetabble for next week going down actuly but it seem some urgent so i need go met auntie have no idea , i ask Ben he said he don't know , so ask me go down and talk to auntie , aiks i have to go. todays he told me that and he is going down with me so i guess is ok "I THOUGH IS FRIDAY AFTERNOON GO" HE SAID NOW WTF ... ok lo go home pack.. then go go go haha go outstation loooo.... haha reach here de then i blog.

Uncle ben find me around 12 i guess have a talk and chat ..., so happy to see him but got scold hahahe said "sui chai mising arr i called tai find you he got call you or sms u mo?" i told him got ... den ask why mia ... i said because you la call me work with you ... i don't want! reason i scare i need to follow up ... he said arr ok la ok la can follow me go down muar? i said can la go how many days?he said few days lo.. erm i said ok ok lo he said i thought you go assignment ? i told him i finish de  and you are so lucky since my pet brother don't know can go melacca anot so i rearrange my timetable and i got free time on this few days ... woo so glad can go down muar can meet up the gang..can see Dai Lou  Sai Lou haha X D i'm save at muar no need care, am i'm glad to go down there because my dream car haha can test drive .. Dai lou sure borrow me 1 X D soo thumb ups!!!! the last time i drive that car was 6 or 7 months ago X D... need meet him soon because they need to talk about something so i follow along hehe. I guess when they talk Sai Lou will bring me tour tour... test drive haha .

Just i finish pack my bag Uncle Ben give me MONEY  to use i ask why give me so much... he said give you use because he said i poor this few week , Woi i admin that i poor last few week la .i said don'y want and he scold me again, i said you have no intenction to scold me what Y.Y me don't want la , he said TAKE IF YOU TREAT ME AS YOUR UNCLE. Ok la OK La Y.Y take la take la.den uncle Ben told me the plan de reach here morning then sleep 1st tomorrow afternoon only go do the things...Uncle Ben bring 2 Laptop.. like serious he call me keep one of this laptop in my backpack incase something happend... so on the way i transfer all the file into my hdd and thumbs drive ... before somethings happend...no1der look for me so urgent ... i think he need to show Dai Lou for that ... don't know leh macam funny .... i macam naik kereta .. he said don't transfer those file on house pc because got internet not save ... i was thinking who so free want to tab you computer leh ... he said play safe can anot !!can is can la why made until yor i don't know how to said...i think again yerr macam cabut diri geh ... like those illegal things but it's not haha.

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?
We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day
Far away, I'm breathing, as if I were transparent
It would seem I was in the dark, but I was only blindfolded
I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong
People's hearts change and sneak away from them
The moon in its new cycle leads the boats again
And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore
Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?
I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong
And still the journey continues on quiet days as well
The moon in its new cycle shines on the boats again
I give a prayer as I wait for the new day
Shining vividly up to the edge of that sea
And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore
We are rowing the boat of fate, but the waves keep attacking us
But isn't that still a wonderful journey? Aren't any of them a wonderful journey?

I met somebody funy and i know it's time to remain silent i did not escape from the argument but i did follow him to maur , the feeling are out of sudden,well i finish my assignment today but it seem fine to me ,i have a strong frinedships with my friends and we all argue before but it get better after that , there is a guy told me that sam don't talk bullshit if really good friends you will not have argument , i ask why would you think that ? he said if a real friendship and undestanding each other will have tolerate and will not have problems while talking.then i ask if you said like that means this kind of people hard to find? he said yes, and one other friends said NO if that is a girl ! FUCK YOU it's a no weh some girls just want to agree what you said and they know it's wrong , I ask huh why said that? he told us that last time there was a girl trying to get a better life and she started to act stupid at first and actuly he get the infomation of person that he want to get into .. i said where got such people ohh .. he said got  just you don't know those girl will said something like things you like but you don't feel it ... HA how do they do it? he said if you want to know look around your uncles la you also not don't know thier lifestyle ... i guess he correct and the other guy was diam diam ... he saidwhen you notice it's too late idle you get married or maybe you have a child when you notice it's too late. I said erm somehow it makes sence ... He said sei chai last time you also see before la you go club that time open bottle paid bill that time you got chick come near anot ? those chick i told you they always at the club one just you don't know when they know a time they will use diffrent kinda of style to get near you.....ok la i keep quiet ok i really don't know about this but i know it makes sence when he told me... the club or pub really got those people waiting and looking around . NO COMMENT this is one of the days went out Tea with old junks X D.

a solid friendship got argument ?
a friendship doens't have argument is perfect?
agree what your friends said will make them more happy?
a things that you told them they won't agree will it cause realationship problem?
a silent remain and it's going to start
i think i give my self sometimes to understand
they failed to understand because they want to hear what they want to hear
i just notice that and i think it's true.

I have no idea god gave life 
life and meant to be hi and low
the bibble said if you can't hold on let it go
if you can't that is a things that you need to appreciate
i believe the bibble said
it's a normal things
why would you want to care
if there is a things you would want to care why not care about yourself
yourself is in danger
mind drop by and save your self....

So sorry my dear this few days i really buzy and sorry i did not reply you on msn or sms i'm very sorry Y.Y my bad forgive me ya X D

Just a Simple post

NLP PROGRAM X D DR ERNEST WONG ROX
SUNWAY COLLEGE LEDERSHIP CAMP LAST 2 YEARS X D

Phone  Lost And Replace?

Carbon Black ? X D

Wallpaper

ME X D

Say that you stay a little
Don't say bye bye tonight
Say you'll be mine
Just a little of bit of love Is worth a moment of your time

Knocking on your door just a little
So cold outside tonight
Let's get the fire burning
I know, I keep it burining right

If you stay, won't you stay - stay

Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love save a little
Save a little for me
Won't you save a little
Save a little for me - ohh

This just might hurt a little
Love hurts sometimes when you do it right
Don't be affraid of a little bit of pain
Pleasure is just on the other side

Let down your guard just a little
I keep you safe in these arms of mine
Hold on to me - pretty baby
You will see I can be all you need

If you stay, won't you stay - stay

Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love save a little
Save a little for me
Won't you save a little
Save a little for me - ohh

Ohhh come on

Make time to live a little
Don't let this moment slip by tonight
You never know what you are missing untill you try
I keep you satisfied
If you stay, won't you stay - stay

Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love save a little
Save a little for me
Won't you save a little
Save a little for me - ohh

Save room for love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save a little, save a little for me
Won't you save a little
Save a little for me

......

I been to NLP program for 2 days , and it's great to heading to there.Nothing much rushing assignment nowadays my finals are finnish but, i need pass up my assignment on next tuesdays

aiks i slacking leh 2 days liow haha not doing things but i promissed my self after 3 30 i will do my assignment X D.......................................................................................................................................

just sorry, truly sorry

erm today went to early class at 11 oc X D ,then ended at 12 oc called up zk and ask his for lunch, then we went to McDonald because he's getting his psp from the chicx so , just wait hahaha me , zk and pan 3 sohem sit there and talk...i'm not feeling well stomach very pain . but i hold and wait till 1oc she came den ,ok lo take psp and run haha zk said want to go arcard i told him better don't if not later i lau sai haha den went to car park and send zk home.

after sending zk home i msg my pet brother ... ok la this time he's right la so i assume think are ok but end up he like angry with that question... i was asking him those question. sad weh i dowant to argue with him leh but , takan i just said ok what he said meh ... so aiks dowant talk la , i think i made him mad well since last few days were argue with some problem , it me i guess i'm tired of doing my works rushing like hell but i din tell him that , things i should not said i told him well he can't take it @@.. so means i screw up ... aiks just don't care about that...

later on around five uncle actually msg me, but i din reply due to i don't know how to talk to him ... and i was out with friends until 6 something, i check my blog and Tai drop me a msg said that uncle looking for me so i called him up and ask what's going on?He was talking in a hurry and said free later , i got something to discuss with you , oh lord he knows that i'm having holidays ...shit la

weh i quite lazy to go out with him, he actually came at 10 oc and pick me up i was in the cafe , then he bring me for beer again somewhere nearby his house and having a talk ... well well well i though he was asking me to help him but in fact he doesn't mention that and he ask me how am i nowadays...tell him what happened then he said "Sam if you know you going too far or too fast , better stop don't keep on do that it only make the distance more far or fast " then i think back again , i think I'm wrong at the moment but i already told him I'm sorry but he seem like lost trust in me .so i really don't know how i think this time i really hurt his feeling , can't blame what i think he is strong , he said he can accept but in fact he can't , so i'm wrong again . just 2 jag and talk about it i also told him that I'll not be around due to some reason. he said oh okie uncle today find you is not want you to do what you don't want to do , uncle want to know how are you doing only , uncle Ben you are funny nowadays , i talk few things about it and i'm not drunk so he send me home .

i'm sad that i ask him that question

i'm really sorry i don't meant to hurt your feeling

i just want to let you know how i think about you

i think i going too hard that why i failed to tell you

i'm very sorry for all off that

i think we are having a solid friendship

so i think you could accept what i tell you

but it's not what i think

i made a mistake again

Uncle told me that no need to worry

but i told him i don't know how he feel because i scare i hurting his feeling

that is the only problem

forgive me

i'm really sorry about that

i guess i'm too late to said sorry .

i have no words on my petbrother and i hope he understand

Last few days and week i'll been busy on my assignment for my finals so hardly wrote a post ... it's rushing den.....actuly nothing much happend but it's happend in some conversation...k la that day mengz told me about her , she sudelly get problem with mengz so i tell him no to fire her up just keep quite and he said he been "tahan and tahan"  then she still said until mengz fedup and start argument haha, i know this would happend but i guess is not so fast i told him he said nevermind if she want back off i can still survire, well he's really strong la hardly pull him down he know too much haha ,beacause got a distance of age and knoledge lo haha nevermind as in my eyes if people will angry with me i'm ok because this is true , i 'm scare that he don't said it out in direct, so i would not know so much infomation also thank you him .his ego also quite high macam poan but it's cool to talk with ... then we came out and talk same things it's the matter of her deeper info and other things then he ask me that days what happend? i said my petbrother la he always don't see what i write then he keep use his own thinking and talk .. damn it weh ....he said i know la i know la fark la he doens't know anythings ... since last time he said he read news and see many things in life so i guess he understand what is SOUND AUDIO ENGERING so i did not tell him much about that then ... he argue with me he said aiya you din't tell me early , he said you make mengz lost a big project in genting ? i was thinking what happend ohh if i make him lost a project like that i think i would not having tea with him nowadays. was so pissed of that sentance ....then later i ask why i make him lost project then he said ai ya you should said he do PA system ... fark weh how do i know how much understanding of you got in SOUND AUDIO ENGERING i though you know but you don't know don't bother to ask and use your own thinking and said something to me you said i din tell you but how am i going to tell you like that?At that moment i just said i wrong beacause i don't want to argue with him ... i really want to tell him sometime then he said i scare this friendship break come on la if you so trust in your friends why don't you understand the sentance , he always said my english sux how sux is sux when you don't ask the things you don't know.... cause this few week my mood abit hot so i don't want to argue with him so i'm expecting that he will accept that is my wrong then sudelly a msg come now you know you wrong la ... wah lau ... pick up my fire ...ok i talk to him this time ... he still don't get it and he said i want give her see , she also don't know what you writing so you got problem?Ok i admin again i wrong still he want to argue ... so guess what i feel bad that i scold him but , if i don't do that he does it then i tell him he said he learn from me ... anything since he's like that so let it be.

the meet of him at my house

Great he found me for tea i was happy but he started something... THE RO things ... I TOLD HIM i don't want to care about it anymore , he always said you don't care then don't play .... wah i tell you like that you said you having fun? so i tell him i also having fun can? he said if like this your acc don't play la ... he talks things that he din't even look at he himself i just sad about that ... then he said they so bad tax my account ...they must be bosong me ... not to help anyone but i told him maybe they din do it in purpose , he said no no this must be purpose they bosong me, they can't remember what they done to you and you are the one who get angry and thinks lots of things in your own mind, so my tone abit high when talking to him , why i talk abit high tone because when i going out with them they doens't even talk about him ,then he said what i see is what i don't see ok i agree but do you really understand that sentance and do you really know how to use? No you just think your way. i told him since you not that happy quit la since now your got girl friends you can chat all day long what? i did not  tell him and he's always using her gf to backing up .. i guess he thinks 2 agree with 1 sure 1 lose so he does that...so everytime he bring his gf in topic that we argue i sure said my fault , as he told me in car you know if you are my girlfriends you must support what i said ... he told me in car and also i guess he told her.it not i jelous it's you don't see how things do and i just tired to argue with him...

if i'm really your petbrother

if you really understand my words ,

if you don't ever copy the msg to give somebody and ask i guess you know many things.

if you really think my words are hard for you it's a no,

why would you give up to read and understand,

i'm sorry that i talk to you so loud but i don't mean it,

i just hope you understand somedays ,

i been telling much and more about it,

 you doens't remember what you said.

i'm just sorry about that ,

if you said our friendship will break. 

i guess it's won't break but it's will only silent

i don't wish to happend.

i just want to tell you that if someone keep agree with you are you happy with that? if he know you said wrong things and he just want to get better with you and he just agree?I don't think i'll be happy , i want to tell you that if people keep agree with you that may have problems, it depance how much you believe , i always want a good relationship between you and me because you treat me as you petbrother, and i want to tell you many things but you told me you hate people that talk direct so i really don't know how to tell you about that,if you want a solid relationship i think you better slove the problems first , if not when day goes it will bring more problems.Heal it when it's small , don't wait it till it big everyone will suffer. i will not angry when we are in the talking or chating, i just angry why you did not read and understand i really angry about that, but nevermind what done is done, if i just prise you like god , will it make you happy?if it's will , then sorry i really don't know how to agree or prise somebody maybe i will but not on you.because i believe and i trusted you, don't make the promiss break.

I really don't know why i wrote this,

i have to wrote it down because i don't know who to tell...

Picture

what does it means?

I don't know where i start
I don't know when i statt
I don't know why i start

i'm just sorry about that...
i being too selfish for the pass week,i was lost when i tried to listen to people said i will just ignore it that make people wack out .... my friends my members my petbrother, i'm very sorry for the this.

Pass weeks i want somebody to agree with me i have no idea just ....


Back to sunday...
early in the morning ,
owh guess i'm not at home,
at mengz office ,
sleep over night there,
mei kwan was there,
i planed to do my work at his office,
but doens't work out,
went home and guess my father are not in,
i sometime i hope for that to happen......
....a sudelly visit of my Uncle from china sudelly back ... make me shock and i was stunned don't know what to said just said hi... after all i din did much things but later on all my cousin came to my house for dinner... so went out with them.( silent talk when the tabble don't have my father here, he's at factory rushing Uncle tan's exhibition ...
aiks no comments)

almost midnight....(11oc)
my dad came back i have no idea, as i mention he was angry me for no reason so i did not said anything,den he ask me go behind pack food for him,after i came back brother call back and he said he want to talk to father ... ok den i accept that call and i called him, and i just do my work ....as he talk and talk sudelly he ask me last night where you go you want die ? I just tell him i went out to do my work...He keep said something i just listen....until mid night 1 oc he was talking to my brother.he said want get a new car no idea what car...( i just remeber that few week ago he ask me for my IC i was suprize that, did not ask him for the reason as he called me on the phone so i just gave him.

Monday the most boring class at 2. 30
i walk up around 9 oc to finish up my other assignment.
then went to class....you know what don't know what reason my mum sudelly gave me RM20 for todays something suprize me.Then did care much just go to college and came back around 6oc i reach Basketball court..not play just walking around Ben-G bicycle is here so take a ride , i love cycling but once i drop from that metal bar now i don't dare do again...walk see cycle until 7oc i went home bath ... woot... then sleep , was awake at 11 oc and went to bath and do my assignment again, i do until 5 in the morning..my dad came back at 2 in the morning and i was still doing my things he came back and watch tv till 4oc then he went to sleep. i sleep at 5 oc ......


Tuesday morning ...
a 4 hours sleep, wake up and my dad was gone ... it too early...suprize me that was he gave me RM50 and was cliped on my wallet...went to college at 9 something abit late into class but lecturer haven came so i'm still early, after finishing class need to go to kai house and help him fix his modem.. damn his house mate were so stupid he keep said that he did change the passwords and the freaking passwords was wrong , guess what i check the line and i notice that it's working fine so i think's it's his account problem so i try the reset password form streamyx shit it works !!!!nothing much just normal days pass...
same goes the same old thing i do .i walk around my house area ...

The Tuesday night
many things happend...i recieve a NLP program again, i need to attend!!!! just fuck it weh i have enought or that it's dammaging my brain...oh well i still have to face it.well it's on next monday ...few friends called me at skype and talk for some time ..they ask me again that question i was avoiding until i don't know how to answer, they ask the same question at the same time , sam why you on skype i though you were ... eh eh eh don't know don't bother ask can? so talk other stufff.... dad came home early around 11 oc.and i pmed my petbrother and ask some news about anwar...he scold me for some words, ok it my fault den he said i'm talking action to him so i guess oh well if you don't know friday what happend den i just said sorry. don't want to said too much as some of the day i just told him what happend.but still he don't get.

wow guess what uncle ben really did call me all the time ,ok la haha i feel ok with that...he understand me well ,for my petbrother you know what, i guess he think he love to read news so i was asking what happend he just trow some hash words to me, and i was thinking last time he's the one who said (IF WANT TELL TELL IF DON'T WANT TELL DON'T TELL)
see he said diffrent things and he said i talk to stright forward,i talk stright forward to you because you don't see things that clear, If i don't bother to care i would not bother to tell , you don't like stright forward , marks my words todays you said like that don't tell me other things , you said it will hurt people feeling actuly i just want to argue with him but as i know he sometime want people to agree with him so do i, so i just said yes, would you see a boring conversation ?If you hurt people feelin on the spot it will heal fast, if you telling things that if not so direct oh fine who's had the more hard feeling now?