what's going on?

some people make i feel worry ,
i've no idea what's the point,
you just said something unexpected,
i treat you like my son, just because i want to be your father .
not just a name uncle .
Uncle Ben you scare me after that night , i've no idea why you send me that sms .
Kinda a confuse for me , i'm slumber , stunned and why did you send me something like this.

I did not call back or sms back because it's kinda a late and i hope it's only a prank sms.
i don't want things get worst and worst ....till today i still did not call up and reply , maybe tonight i call him out and talk.

Last 3days

Spot the diffrent? 
Which one is real 1 eh ? 
sure can see la got tip de 1 haha X D

weee i'm back to post my 1st post ....
as you all know i'm very very busy that true .. X D
friday is my last final was so enjoy after pass up 2d animation , 2d animation is more on time usage , because the computer that can do 2d is only 2 computer working at the lab , imagine we are having a 30+ people in a class sharing 2pc that is working ... the most hard part is to use the computer ... and yet the lab close at 12 midnite we manage to stay over night at one of the day which is we rush for it and thanks for the senior help .well well well look at the bright side X D it's over .

Friday night dinner time i went out with simon and had dinner at MingTien , was waiting Mr J comming over here to gather up and chit chat... later on simon phone up his cousin ask for tea time almost 10 something i guess wao his cousin was very busy at his work but later on 11 something he's here , we went to puchong OLD TOWN  WHITE COFFEE there , after one cup of coffee simon cousin JAVIN said we change place and met my boss well i'm ok with that ... we went to another place near puchong hospital there erm no idea for the name , Javin intro me his boss and another partner or the boss , on the moment i met Alvin and nicky , alvin is the boss of javin and nicky was a young guy who own 10 optical shops , i can't imagine how they do it until they told us thier story , nicky is only 25 years old erm sound young eh he take 2 year to get 10 optical shop from zero to now , he also driving a bmw that make me salute in his age , same goes to alvin but alvin is abit older , from what i hear from his knowleadge , more of his concept are facts that turn to words ... more like things that he read on the book and now he's telling the understanding of the book , well as i know most people share thier life experience it's just beacause they want to remind thier self this is true , as times goes i ask alots of question and Alvin also told us alots of his story and how he start and drop fall and rise again , kinda a cool spend almost 3 to 4 hours ...
Went home ... simon fetch me haha X D

Before i reach home i asked simon mind drove me to ss2 , my hdd just had a problem since last fews days , i drop it on the floor yet ... aiks ... data gone ... i need to recovery all the file back , then he said ok , and after reaching hom , it's time to start Hydraskins project , kinda my plans ...
sleep at 5 something...

Saturday 
the next morning 9 30 i was arlamed wake .... i called simon up and he said give me one more hours to sleep ... he had like 6 hours to  sleep yet me i only have 3 hours to sleep ... aiks , reason why i wake up so early because i want to repair my hdd and my pet bro destop... 10 30 simon called me back and said lets move ... shocking ...@@ reach ss2 around 10 45 like that then i send to warranty and went for lunch and go home, repair computer ... wired eh ide was working and sata is not working , then i went to mengz place and check out the hdd , was suprize that 2 hdd of it has a error can't load windows and keep bluescreen went come to black screen loading ... wao.. i guess is the hdd problem @@... around 8 bernard call me up but i did not pick up , until 8 30 @@ then i realize i forget to do something, went to check my phone ... SHIT !!! GATHERING AT SHELL I FORGOT !!!!! quickly bath and went to kelana Jaya shell meet them up woa lucky i'm not the last one to the gathering haha , we all chit chat and waiting at shell there waiting for other people is on the list ... jssim was here wao great to see him weh , then comes scarxx came , then we went to OLD TOWN WHITE COFFEE again (man i been going OLD TOWN WHITE COFFEE LIKE TEN TIME IN A WEEK man.....)bernard , jen huang they all haven ate thier dinner same goes me , but i'm on diet because quite fat before holidays doens't move at all ...eat talk drink ... until 12 something bernard make a move then we move to another place because  OLD TOWN GOING TO CLOSE SOON so we just change place and bernard are heading back home ,change to SYED ... tea there left 4 person and saihoe came ....he attended some wedding dinner ... jssim was telling us what is worth to buy for the car... talk alots of things in the car , yet i just notice they all are in high professional job list , like jssim is selling handphone , scarxx is working inside nissan i have no idea what he told me about his position , all i know is some kind of things that he need to take care of the car making process... somethings like that ...bernard stydy for business , and ken and saihoe is on holidays, jenhuang is selling car stuff  just so i know .... not bad huh X D
then around 2 oc people are getting lesser and lesser left me and scarxx, then barca call ... actuly i damn pity barca 1 eh he always work until midnite 2oc ... we meet him up another place 3rd round of TEA TEA  they called it TT , near by sea park ... talk until 4 something they make a move and i saw jarraly they all was here , so i heading to 4th round of tea , serious man this is crazy 6 hours of tea cost me around RM20 for the 6 hours but it's worth i get the knowledge , Chuan invited me on 24th a bbq party , so yeah before 24 i must came back to kl to celebrate with them .. the tabble got Ykin , ping wei , jarraly , chuan , kok liang , and one more i forget his name they all asked me to join the 24th BBQ party so i just confirm with them ....then went home ....around 5 i reach home and yeah it's time to continew my Hydra project, else i can't finish in time . i do until 7 oc then i went to sleep

Sunday
wake up at 11 oc , due to micheal call and shit i forgot i need to help him shift house , he said his housemate is crazy and dirty he lost alots of stuff and the smell of the house is like SHIT.... oh lord , he just can't stand anymore so i reach sunway there around 12 oc and finish shift all the things to kai house about 2 hours , then went to prymid for lunch , then just i want to reach home .... mengz called!!!! SAM WANT GO PC FAIR ARR !!!!
after he said i just said eh i no car leh cannot go later dad need to use car, my car went to workshop jor ..., then he called poan haha so lucky weh poan also said ok , poan was telling i'm not driving eh , then ..... mengz decide to drive haha.....so we share share with the petrol and parking lo reach klcc around 3 somethings ... and took alots of brocher , just for my own knowledge , finally I7 is out and what i see now is i7 is useless ... our os only reach 4gb for reserve and only 64bit mobo will acceted to 4gb or more , the motherboards of the i7 has a lots of heatsing i guess this machine sure hot like hell ...just had a look at it , pass sometime there ....
mengz purpose going for pc fair is for shooting ... wah seh ... he bring his D40 come out weh ... haha no harm la he just want to shoot too booth for refrence ... many company cut cost to build a booth , evendo dell also doing promotion. then head back to pj for dinner , went to weng heng there for poridge , weng heng bluff us he said not raing there , when we going back that time kl was rainng and i called weng heng and ask got RAIN ARR? he said " NO ARR " when we reach there he said arr it just rain ... sei chai ... play 9 us arr ... fine nvm lucky got nice place to sit if know kill you haha ...just after i finish i saw Chonghaur and Peicheng so i talk to haur about the things i going to do ... then i left mengz and poan to the tabble and sit towards Chonghaur , we started to talk and plans... and i found out why justin was so freak out in his work and i'm shocked to hear that ...just no comment .went house quite late around 1 somethings then reach home repair the pc again wah seh i serious think is the HDD problem , my other 3 ide HDD is working fine on the cpu .... no idea just left it there and i went to do my project.........
 

People around me and thinking what am i

i met a friends few years back, he has the same problem that i've , we been sharing problem togather, his situation was bad , mine was still ok , i might have some slight pain in the cold days or those raining days , but for his he can't even take air conditional , it makes him more pain , somehow i guess my pain is already a fact , and i know how to cure it , his was in the warning ... at least i still can run but for him nope walking yes. his injury were same as mine footballs, but he mess it up on 3 times and the doctor are giving him waring no to run anymore just walk . he told me if you got a clue , who not use the gule? i don't get what he means at first , but when he telling things about him , i get somethings on my mind , and i finally got it. My leg is backing up to my old days and i must love it , like what he said. just thanks.

people will never believe you , till they saw a fact.
people always thinking people are telling lies, in fact that is why don't start and don't judge.

people are always selfish , they said they won't , try think carefully 

people said if i'm selfish i will do this and this .. so do you think i'm selfish?
people always use people like an excuess.
people think amazing stories are fake , yet lies.

people always don't think amazing things could happend , yet out of sudden.
people always said you use an excuess.

people is hard to understand, how well you know is not how much you know a person.

people always think we talk on phone are making fake phone calls

Something i want to tell my self what i saw and what i remember above
I told them i'm driving an engine code 4G63 , and you know what they told me bullshit that engine cost a bomb.The real fact is they doens't know anything about it, and it has sohc and dohc.
so i keep thier mouth shout just opening the bonet X D.

well most of the time i said my leg is pain  most of the people would said it's a fake ,Interesting part was i my self know my limits , i could walk up the hill with my naked leg but cycling i can make it to the top,do you realize that i always walk slow? so you think i want to slow down eh? make your own statement.Sometimes i will keep pressing my hand to make my blood presure go well most of the people think i'm acting on it , so if that so i'm still acting X D , wait till who to find outs?Does it bother you?then why ask and judge me?

they said i'm not but they are , i always rememeber my friends said that to me it's because of you if not i would not blah blah blah .... come on it doens't make sence ok if it's me they why are you accepting it at the first moment?so who's the selfish one? me? Or other examples is "if you were leave us alone at that night i would not argue with her , why you left? so it's my fault? you are blamming on me? fine my bad ? joke are in the air look what the joker just said ? the joker forget his funny joke!!!.

you know my uncle always use me as an excuess due to he don't wish to see somebody , and i would be the sitter.many of my friends do to , sam la he made us late... , oh well it that so i'm sorry i don't meant that guys , but it's the tea time is 10 , you guy probably will be this way you come at at 10 sharp and we alway reach there 30 min late so i gues it's my fault huh?

you know what ? i always out with uncles but they tog i'm crazy or i'm a gold digger , yes if you think what you think it would be a yes , just because you can't get some of them or maybe you really doens't understand the social life ? yes for you if i'm a gold digger , you strike a bingo for yourself , but for me it's all wrong, going out with older peoples doens't mean that , they actully face alot of things and they told you not too... at first my frienst mengz thought i'm gay because i'm out with older mans and older friends , don't know what is he thinking, later on he agree and told me that wao going out with older people is an experience ...... so amazing !!!! yet i have to suffer the buller attack to made a statement of it.... how sad is people in life......

i always has amazing happend ... out of a sudden my friends called me out and sometimes i'm always confuze in the middle of time when two diffrent group friends called you don't know how to choose .. yet i always done a quite idea go A and go B i always made that they said ... i spoil the fun fine i admin that ... fair and square.

i hope i have tons of excuess so that i can made my friends to believe, but inface excuess can't be explanint so why are you guys listening to the excuess?skip it all , just forget about it.Ask and can't accept what could that be ....?

a converstaion !!! sam i know you well , you been chaning all the time were you trying to get someting on me?Oh sorry i don't know that you know me so well... until i ask some question that you probably can't answer me the answer...?eh eh eh busy right now talk to you later.Oo you know what until the sun rise , this guy trying to pull aways the questiong and msg me other things ...sort of like EXCUESS ... To be smart to me , i would not ask a question secound time . you should answer the question before you going to other tittle. Yet you said you know me well.
You just understand my social life, you doens't know my personality ... what i do will suprize people and will not give people a ? i go for a good reason but i did not use the reason to sort of somethings else. so do you know me well?do i ever have a real realationship?why do my house have so many cars?haha .... guess what you never know and you just split the words....

sometimes it's share that older friends call you weird name , so you would probly walk aways ... but people thought you are chating with GOLD.so no comment, sometime phone ring we do accept the call or maybe we make a call , less make it this way when i making a call some people tog that i do it on purpuse , you want to know why , they probably said why don't you call before blah blah .... people do forget , helow we ain't computer .... human brains has limits ....if you want to think what you thinking go a head no one stop you because who ever stop you were yourself , no one can stop you on that because you already believe it's a fake .

This do no harm to anybody , i just joging down for my future .
if that is a lie , then make it a lie.

Give and take , don't expect all.

last week what happend....
i help Dennis formated pc wao it took me 6 hours at his house to finish the formating ... it's not i can't format the pc is the pc has a sligh problem and make keep delay me ... then later on i try 2 IDE and sata to format it works !!! but .. end up my IDE get 2 window ... sad about that but nevermind i help dennis to formated his pc , finally 1 years ago so many people helped him formated pc and yet , they din't really formated the pc , and they just recover the windown frankly i done that to dennis few month ago but it's doens't work out then this time i really spend time to help him format because i'm on holidays haha lucky you + i get new knowledge , so i would not regret the time i spend.

later on Pang ring me on , he said Sam any idea where to get vista? or xp?
i told him aiya no need mah fan la come to my house later i help you settle....30min later he called again and i was with dennis , we were having tea at syed so he came to fetch me and i leave dennis with arron. He shocked me i thought he  mention the destop installation but it's the laptop one @@ oh my ... new pc with no OS haha ok first time ... then try on my Vista Ultimate version with 25 cd keys lucky me haha X D i get it from one of the friends that work in one computer parts company .. he gave me 25 cds key to test it out for the problem and actuly he just talk cock haha he gave me because of i help him before , yet the cds key are free from his manager so i would use it wisely.his new laptop wao i din know that installing window vista os i kinda a fast haha, so outdate weh, then help him download the laptop driver.. finish lo ...later on few hours later !!! ring ring again @@ sure got problem 1 , but this is not my vista problem is the modem problem haha eazy la , i been explore for few month on modem so it's so easy to fix the problem , pang came to my house and pick me up again ... 10 min like that i finish and i'm going home haha . another happy face on it .

One week 2 pc done in 100% wao i feel happy when i fix things X D.

erm i tell you last week i been around with wei chern , wing wah , chee hoe and etc etc haha
always call them on 9oc 10 oc buy movie ticket and lepak for 2 hours then only watch the movie....always talk about cars ... erm ok i like cars haha so i will join the fun too ...

Stupid uncle give me a prank called ....
Eh is this mr.SAM XXX XXX?
ya? who's calling?
This is maxis center.
ya what's wrong?
we found out that you data tranfer are over limited.we are going to charge you for that.
i though it's free for 3 month ?
oh did you read the TNC ?
ya i did they said for the 1st time change to postpaid i can have 3 month free for data transfer?
oh no no the data transfer doens't include online conversation such as yahoo msg , msn ,skype and so on.
HUH!so how much do i need to paid for next month ?
due to you have outstanding bills you have to paid for next month is RM100 for the bill and another additional Rm100 for data tranfer  thank you.
WHAT !!!
( I HEAR PEOPLE LAUGHT BEHIND !!!!)
then i turn around and see , uncle and auntie ... talking to me is auntie ...phew hardly hear her voice... wah lau you saw me on cafeteria no need give me pranks called what ... by the ways my bill are not that expensive , around 30 to 40 per month. and i seldom use data transfer but got 1 day i forget to turn it off , no idea how much it cost @@ but sure cos a bit. actuly we was planning to go home that time, my friends were tired and they wanted to send me home so i guess no need ba uncle here , so change tabble  and talk haha ....

Uncle so free !!!!
Uncle on holidays wor , he said want to  have a future planning for he himself wor so , auntie tell me uncle now very free jor you know what to do la ... choi !!!! don't want la i smart 1 ok, uncle said eh sui chai so i can have more time talk to you la , you no need sien ma ... wah kao !!! uncle no no next week i start sem liow cannot talk to you haha ....
then uncle give me funny face said aiya yala yala get what you want like forget uncle la ... no la it's not forget you la uncle ... it's i don't want to disturb you ma ,haha sure anot , got which time i bluff you 1?see told you no!!!! he said serious ga next week start sem? me and auntie planning to go europe wor . see i told you i smart 1 haha go holiday ba , go 2 come 3 ok X  D !!! how manny week you going ? one week enought la sei chai ... i miss you ma .
wah lau ... !!! excues !!!so gay la you ... lucky auntie can  joke around one if not haha later don't know what happend ...chat chat send me home haha .

RAPIDSHARE ACCOUNT
I gona to earn one soon, my internet business are doing fine and i have money to get a  premium account for rapidshare account, yet i still asking to share , it's not i can't afford, i'm kinda wana share for some of my friends , mengz rang me up and tell me he got 3 people to share ... that is too much la bro, then did update him ...

someone promiss me to bring me to a place but end up ... kit flying.
playing with the bar for few days and it give me pain ... for a week .
running at the park and my leg doesn't feel that pain that much.
went to see doctor  for body balacing , end up my upper body is heavy then lower body so it will hurt my legs , that why it took years but not healing in good ways.
i pump presure to my leg for 1days the next days was sit in the house for the whole day..
move = pain.
Feed me with foods and i'll grant you with goods.
if i beg it for goods make sure you help it worth.
there is always give and take .
why people expect more ?
understand that situation before you make a move.
i giving an examples why do you make it real !!!
if it's a joke you can't take you , rather don't tell people you can make jokes.

 

i'm not the best but at least i'm not that bad....

Why people take it so serious when it's a joke? I really have no idea why , the last time you know me were years ago ... you said you know me well ? or maybe that is just a pulling relationship?i'm starting to understand  , and i'm just feel that my helps to everyone are fair , i been helping around so much people yet friends.I'm not trying to be somebody, what makes you thinks that is what you wish to be, yet don't apply it on me i'm not.Things just happend like that ... the few days ago i went out and think again and again... what's made life?life means? i'm so bored yet there are no one to accompany me , i wish somebody could talk to me whole day long but , it's not posible to happen...


I'M NOT THAT BEST BUT AT LEAST I"M NOT THAT BAD
Yes , i wrote down this statement  last few weeks ago , many people ask me about it and some said  that i'm worst then bad. so how far can this sentance go?

DT conversations
aiks sam i'm worst then bad...I'm so unprofessional ...
 huh what happend?
today i  take a half day leave, for interview other party time works project.
 Oo then what makes you said that?
i'm so stupid , i push the interview aways.
 OO huh then why you take leaves?
my mistake i should not push that interview.... aiks.....
 wao how you push?
i went into the room and i tell them i  got few more project on hand.
 ha then ? actuly what's the point? interview?
i should not said that , i should see the project 1st then only push it always they tog i'm a freelancer , but i'm not i'm a worker .
 then ?
i should look at the project 1st if  a bit wasted of time i guess i can let it go.
 Oo why don't you  have that sence  at that moment?
ahlah don't want to said la sad liow.
 haha bro you know what everyone made mistake...
yup, but i scare this affect my future line...
 ermm that i can't help haha.
DT msg me about this.and also share some infomation with me . he give me some advice about study and tell me do well in the school time and make great works to show your future boss impress them with your skill and much more .thanks alot dude .

Still are people strugging about my tittle.. 
well somehow i'm still confuse to tell people about this but nevermind, this will give me an answer when time comes, i do believe sometimes we know our self good , but when we compare with other this tittle were always useful.

last week went out with wei chern and wing wah, went out for movie , 1st day we went to watch Wall E and the next night we watch Death Race  nice movie haha .. and chilling night you know what that wei chern so cheap weh .. drive so fast go home , he did not wait us ... aiks 2 cars going to oneu. wing wah and i went to play that game haha we reach stage 4 then kong ... aiks sad can't finish that game weh.. so fun it's all about teamworks.

MAYBE IT'S TIME TO FORGET ABOUT DRIVING
i figuring driving nowadays were so expensive... not feeling to drive a car nowadays kinda wasted money , aiks dad this few weeks come back late i guess he's rushing on someone project. but it seem i'm so stupid ... i should work for money should not work for item... but it's hard for uncle ben to do that , because i'm working for few weeks only , so have to accept the fact....

MY PHONE WERE DEAD!!!
guess what my phone kong ... it dies Y.Y have no phone to use ..figuring to get a new phone but i'm still saving money for it so i guess i find a old model 2nd hand phone to use 1st... i'm thinking getting a w960i or htc diamond... price range  3 more month for w960i  and for htc need another few weeks to get that . X D

It's not i call you all failure , you make your self look like a failure.

wao... i got an aeroplane phone calleds from someone close , all i have to said is FUCK !!! It's not i want to said that you are a time manage failure , and you promiss me come on la , it not the matter of friends of what shit , if it's a friends you can treat them like that , you think you can treat you customer diffrent? it's just another bullship..

It happend like this before morning ...
sam weh want go jogging anot , 
 erm ok what time?
arrr morning lo i would be very early ...
 arr wei wei wei what time eh?
i call you la 
 ok wei call till i wake up !!! ok !!
ok la ok la ....

Morning .... 7oc was awake see phone no called then sleep again
i tog 8oc so i keep on sleep untill 12 oc i wake up ...
wah lau .... no msg no called ... wah seh ...TULAN !!!
already know kena FFK la sien jor la .. the trust between you and me was drop like water....
then went to bath and ate my lunch called up poan ...i want to go to digital mall and get my stuff back ... i phone him and ask him it's a free time going out a trip with me? he said yaya free faster come ... another FUCKER !!!! i waited outside 15 min leh you called me came came ... then no said sorry also like i wrong ... ok i keep quite ... you all said you all will not treat customer like your friends .. so friends can be delay can ffk or maybe too close no need said sorry? sorry also keep back arr? come on bro ... that is why i said people failed ...you guys just give me more failed into my mind for you guys... 1st time like this is still acceptable 2nd time 3rd time it's not funny anymore ... and it look stupid ok.

To digital mall .... 
before i went there steven called , sam wanna game?
 eh can wait me arr?
why?
 i need go digital mall get my modem weh 
eeeeee me at digital mall ...
 OO weh i come over fetch you la you wait me there ok?
erm ok ok what time you here?
 soon la after i bath i come over stright la.
Ok ok i heading to mcd for lunch.

I went to get my warranty modem ... aiks another one i give them full set they give me modem back i have no words ... they said this and that ... i think you lost the box eh?just tell me stright no need turn and wasted my time 30 min at the counter ... then find a replacment adapter and tell me can work one trust me , is not i don't trust you it's the matter or law or quality ... wah lau sien la i don't want to argue la just take the modem and ciao la ... that why i always said digital mall always had bad service and they always use dirty trick ...

those dirty trick that they use ...
my warranty was on april , you know today i only get the modem ...
i went there about 4 times ... between those month ... they get the modem but my expire date was on august...  they keep until today only give me and tell me just came finish warranty back ...BULL SHIT before that i went there without my waranty bill you guys told me you got few modem was in the desk and ask me to bring my warranty paper to check itzzit mine ... from that day i know my modem was claim back but they did not notice me ... wait till warranty dead only give .... those service i can totally give you a F. SALE MAN ALSO LIKE THAT SUMORE THE SERVICE CENTER THAT GUYS ALSO LIKE THAT... AREN'T THOSE ARE FAILURE WORKS?NO COMMENT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

afternoon  5oc
pasar malam tea with poan waiting mr.FFK come ... after digital mall mr.FFK called me .. 
Eh want tea mo ?
 Oh?
where you ? i just called poan he said he free.
 Really arr he at my car leh !! 
Oh where you guys ?
 aiyee go jalan la...
aiya go jalan no call ...
 ha where dare call you wor later FFK me how eh...
!$%*(@$)_!*(#&$&!#_serious where you guys?
 comming back la
so on or what ?
 ON what time you comming ?
i fetch my sister go see doc then come over la.
 how long ohh?
ermm 15 min like that la...
 OH listen 1st arr....
HA ... ok la ok la later meet
 

Me and poan 4 30  reach syed .... MR.FFK came at 5 oc !!! 
then talk talk ... until almost 6 all sit my car go back my house planning to walk pasar malam .
walk buy stuff eat this and that lo , poan going home , he need to fetch his sister  so bye bye. after buying some foods went to padang there ... i use to work out there ate all the stuff then ... talk starting with idea story and planning ... ok fine if you are serious i would think about it if you just talk to entertain sorry bro i only can entertain you talk i'm not wasting my brain power to think ... my white hair is growing like F1.... around 7 went back home

nap sekajap !!!!
RING RING RING .... BERNARD called !!! 
eh samson tonight on mo?
 wassup?
celebrate Jenhuang real birthday ...
 ermm ok what time ?
around 8 30 la , malaysian time 
 so means come late ga ?
i'll be there 8 30 8 45 la 
 yee ok ok .... C U THERE

haha i 9oc only reach there ... 
all reach there wah lau i late leh haha nvm nvm haha sorry sorry my bad haha , i went to toilet haha .. Xcues la ok la ok la my bad la .... tea tea go go where where? esso there around there got mamak we tea there la consider recelebrate with jen huang la oh okie okie ....tea talk tea talk till 11 something then go back on they way back ....

RING RING RIN !!!!
oie pet pet kat mana?
 oie gu gu apa mau?
oie i mau gay sama you eh! mana lu?
 woi wa kat luma sini la ... lu mau gi mana?
eh la i mau cari lu cakap cakap....
 wah seh apa angin tiup you pangil say...
aiyeee wa punya kawan semua tidur , so cari awak .
 Oh ini macam arr, wa sudah broke ...
arla jom uncle belanjar beer lai...
 sure bo?wa ta mau pandu weh...
ok la you mest teman me minum arr...
 ok la sampai marbuk ka?
arlo macam itu la... ok la i sekarang pergi luma awak 
 Oh okie i park kereta dulu....

10min later ....
pon pon !!! wah seh pukul apa eh uncle ... i tau you pandu kereta mewah la jangan la pon pon ... he laught sumore....kena jar.... went to sunway pub ... beer all the way 3 jars macam i pandai minum .... wah seh i drink drink non stop ... uncle you not good la , you happy happy called 3 jars i cannot masuk dalam lucky not me drink all ...talk talk talk .... i tired liow leh actuly ...
before that i want to nap that time get disturb .. aiks ... then sumore talk till 1 something ... pengsan lo ....only send me go home ...lucky not marbuk !!! haha i drink around 5 to 6 cups others uncle sapu !!!!

then go home sleep .... sweetdream..... This post was actuly saved at 2something last night haha .... 

My last week and it's my expose

The night life when i was in penang

This is taken when i was in penang

This is what i drink in the morning


it's not what you think

 
Random

This is what i won at the a contest

gurl see i told you , YOU STEAL MY DOLL !!!!

My dog and i taken a picture pass week

My dog was not in the mood of taking picture because i did not let him go pee outside
so he kinda sad Y.Y haha so bad la me after 2 oc midnight i only let it go VV


My new sim card for private use

One of the boss upgrade my line thanks you very much 
guess what do you think i got a new phone?
haha who's knows anyway....
no more prepaid said Bye Bye

My sofa bed 

This is a bed that i sleep most of the time 
but sometimes got visitor come i have to sleep other sofa
i'm not sleeping on my bed because it's hot and it's kinda lazy to climb down
my bed was a D-deck bed my father plan for me is lower deck if for my computer
but i'm out of space so ... i shifted to outside.... more space more relax
GOT AIR CON OHHH X D BUT AFTER I SLEEP LIOW MUM OR DAD CLOSE IT
SAD SO MOST OF THE TIME I'M BLOWING FANS HAHA

My new graffiti project on my back streets

This is what i bought for my project
i wanted to spray green and have orange eyes brown is for the 
shadown or outline but haven got any idea of the still working on it
maybe going for Black and White concept i think it's kinda a cool.

This is a book given , when i was in secondary  top student
 

My cert i have been to rakan muda program

I been there for few time but manage to get once with cert and it haven printed my name
because that time was rushing back to home for family dinner... sad hope one day 
i free i print my name on it , it's 100% mine X D nor a fake one

This is the cert i recieve when i got the book

those days i was quite hardwroking until i recieve this 
start study and understand....

My first year and major year assignment and brief
 

some of the design

RATIONAL

CONCEPT

Mind- Maps

RESEACH

SKETCH


My sketch for one of the assignment

final piece

Me and my group done the last minute assignment and it worth a perfection marks

we have the most argument on this assginment and we are the
most reconize group and high score and good presenter like me
we call it "monamanson" also known as the 3M
Matrix, Marylin Manson and Monolisa
and this is the time i manage to flame all the groups 
we are the last group to present
when othe group was finish present we keep ask question
the plan was made the whole class angry about us and 
our plans works ... 
thanks for those question because the group of people doens't ask question
to make them ask you need to bring them down 
this is the most sucess planning of overall
thumbs ups!!!!

Picture about my backups

This is what i'm having , i invest money on this kind of stuff incase black outs
my computer will never dies ,it will when the lighting stricked no comment about that
....

Those days when i'm freelancing

This is what i use and how i spend my money for my past years

My judge ball i play it all the time

Do you believe that i play this 3 balls for 1 year and i'm still stupid of doing judge on it
FAILED NO COMMENT HAHA

My computers space

as you can see here i have anot of wiring here due to i have no space to land my stuff
I land it on the floor to have a good space,i my self love computer so when you see my
computer got weird things don't ask it's a good machine 
this machine doens't over heat at all i'm been try on 1 month 
the result is good , not rising and not droping just stable.


This are my expose ... for all this years...

My week was buzy working actuly ... sometime Urgent and i need go back and do those and tell them kinda a sad la but aiks , if not he giving me those nice parts i would not work for it.... it's a good exchange also not giving me money but giving me computer parts how attractive is that ...
lucky i'm still on holidays , i still can go back and tell storys and drink tea haha .If not i'm in deep shit ... no comment.

last week i keep searching for friends to tea with
They said samson acting weird wor ... ok fine i admin it la kinda strange also , you all know what i always want to talk , because when i was in study mood you can never see me talking that much so appreciate this time and have all the fun time !!! haha , actuly they said i'm crazy ... i'm actuly paid a sum of money go to talk to people ,as in like i went to penang i actuly go there find those uncle and talk haha you know i can talk whole day long with uncles happy weh , you know when you find someone that you can talk in a group it's a great things , not just all the time serious , but jokes are always on , even we can laught until pain... my sister told me don't lah make people happy until pain you how old they how old , aiks i wish there were young enought to handle haha but nvm la , at least i get to talk to people what .. i know many things ... 

Forum gathering ....
CHEY YOU ALL SO BAD LA PEOPLE 21year old birthday leh give face la abit ....aiks sad i tog many forumer going all, when i reach there all sms to me and said can't make it ... wtf !!! you guys own me one haha , they said re-celebrate with him on comming tuesdays because it's not the actul days so ok i forgive you all haha jenhuang said belanjar me tea on tuesdays so see lo ...also lucky that i did not drive wira go ... that car actuly dies ... my mum drove to somebody house and it dies at people gate ... then father friends come and toll the car back to house and it's midnight ... so no hope saturday night sumore ... 2morrow sunday ... aiks need wait till monday lo see can heal anot the uncle said monday only can help the car because no worker in the workshop... 

Uncle Tan lorry killed somebody
last years dad friends was shifting office at penang , some one come out and said Uncle Tan lorry actuly killed someone on last years about 14 months ago ... wah lau so long liow ... only come out and said and they said it's the lorry driver hit and run ... no comment now waiting for news.. hope it's was a mistake.dad also kinda a stress on this news...maybe people pull a trap in to the good hands... who knows...A N W A R IS G A Y what it's true?hope it's not true...

Saturday afternoon ....
Before saturday night i actuly called wei chern for tea then he was asking aiyee me and you arr boring macam ... then i said ok lo see who live nearby then call lo .. mumyong (X) mumhong(X)
wingwah (X) kaiyee (X) .. then he said want go eat ice cream ....go to center point then he said arrr don't want eat ice cream la where to go arr? then i said go my place there la ... he said good idea wor then went to ss3 syed .. later ... he said again wei boring la what to do ... around 4 oc in the morning i said no need think we go home 2morrow we go lunch ok? actuly he's on converstaion with kaiyee also talk about lunch things so actuly i nothing do so confirm with him lo early morning 11 oc waked up stupid dog jump on my soft asking for trouble ... he want go poo poo... aiyeee sad la wake me up my mum 4get to open the door for it ...then called weichern confirm what time ... he said 1 oc la then 1 oc i wake up i quickly go bath i tog he comming on the way then 1 30 i call again he said cham lo no car how how how arr you wait arr my mum comming back soon ... oh okie then wait lo wait ha wait ha aiks sien la i go polish car la .....polish until 3 oc he called wei i comming ... then i went to bath again hot weh .... then 30 min later i call again wah ur ldp from where eh he said wei BIG PROBLEM LDP GOT ACCIDENT ...HA... ok lo i wait lo what to do ... haha then 3 45 reach my house ... then go to wingwah there 4oc sharp reach kaiyee there about 20 min ...he called that lunch !!!! but lucky i went for lunch when i waiting him ...then he said tea lo yam cha lo .... go to ONEU lo walk walk see see lo go play arcade lo.....so called lunch !!!

SUNDAY ARRRR 
Need to go "BAI BAI" my grandmother arrrr ....aiyee you know arr i cannot tahan the smoke 1 la ... go there flu !!! lucky my guma call me sit a side haha, i put some"HIONG" then i go under tree there because they having the BOAT SENDING THINGS ... so need to wait until 4oc aiyee
then dad drove us to kajang ... EAT SATAY wor .. sad things my dad lock me inside car because i was asleep my guma and daipak laugh i said aiks sad liow see i told you all i accident born 1 what my dad laught and said no la i hear all closing door liow ma so i tog you were down ... NO COMMENT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha jokinng with him la he also ok my mum just lalalalala pretening nothing happend haha not sad la just joking haha every were laughing .... maybe it's true aiks but nevermind ba it's alredy a fact haha .after hours of waiting ... satay came ... sad waited so long ... sien ... talk too much no water drink DIE SOON haha... then dad drove to another place for dinner ..EEEE 6 oc only leh ... around that area eat normal things la ... fish , meat , sayur those la ... then send daipa home and go home .... guma car was at out house so reach home around ... 7 dirty lo ....den i went to bath ... 9 oc barca msg me called me for dinner ..oh okie ...he told me 11 something got ball see so he said 11 something only go ... i go slacking for few hours and went out to meet him...kinda nice guys la someone really can talk all day long maybe just abit diffrent .. haha but's it's ok as long i can talk , he can entertain it's kinda a happy liow.
then went home SS3 went to worms ... SIMON was there haha then went to tea till very late .....

Pass week X D

Aiks working at Uncle Ben there is tired..., last month uncle ben were offer me to help him work on this a week, not much reason why he just want me to help him because i always tell him where is going wrong how would people thinking , well you done a good planning uncle ben you know i sure will accept that offer ... last month went out tea with him . he was offering me a sum of money and a phone, but i rejected i feel that phone for me is useless , i got my pda , i can check online also no need to buy me another phone, then later on i talk to him on the phone he ask me about my fee for next sem , and i was stressing for that ..then uncle ben quickly change the offer to something that i can't rejected him , he giving me a sponcer of 1 Asus mother board and 1 Asus Graphic card, for the week i help him to work .. i can't find ways to reject and this time the job works is more easy but more time ... no need go outstation but need to stay quite sometime in office to do some paper works and sale analysis , my whole week was a tired week , it was like wake up > work > eat > count> happy hours> tea> sleep > and all over again and again.

TAI DELAY ME !!!!
one night tai can't finish his work ask me to help him and he need to show to uncle jimmy by tomorrow morning so aiks help him den , wah lau tai next time you better arrange the file 1st leh
little brother here very tired leh , arrange also time leh... you work longer then me you should know which way is faster what... why want to make a mess , you must not having a timetabble ...
don't tell me no time leh , you can arrange your timetabble when you having happy hours leh.NO comment ... now you owe me 1 wuahahahah.

The days we went to the curve for dinner
wao @@ 10 something reach there , i was thinking what on earth this time got things to eat wor...uncle bring us go eat i Italian restaurants , uncle jimmy tai and me 4 people .. talking crap on the tabble , i have no idea what to call so wait uncles called.. uncle ben this time so pandai no ask me want eat what haha so i no need think , very funny leh they come with breads and dips with olive oil + viniger ... wow but taste 1derfull...those food on tabble i also don't know what is that ... eat only la haha. later on went to some bar for happy hours.... UNCLES LIFE !!!! 

Serious tired saturday was my half rest days, i came back at 1oc haven get lunch , later then pet bro called for help , he can't find the shop... was planning to get a nap , but he called so help. later on i call zhengkai for tea+ lunch it's his birthdays so gona make this diam diam haha , no present for you la zhengkai but take you out tea can la. Night time went to tbun look for on9 games friends due to 9 something got car gathering so , pass by meet old friends, wei chen called sudelly wow ask me where am i and ask me for tea , ok fine 8 oc he reach here and i said bye bye to my friends in the cafe then heading to the curve .. i though he said tea , siong chey he want to buy pants... ha !!! jar 2 no comment then 9 something he send me back to aman suria here to get my car, then he follow me to the car club also , wei chern arr you very slow la like that also can miss us ...no comment lo tea until 1 something all chiao liow then went LDP for tour haha ... then go home sleep .............................. nth much for sunday go cafe play for awhile then go dinner and tea with poan st and Ndrew then went home sleep .. 2morrow is a another working days....
counting down for 2 more days !!!!... yeah....

I learns something cool Uncle Ivan thought me
IF           A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
THEN    1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

let's see  for this "LOVE" "FAMILY" "WOMEN" "MONEY" "HARDWORK"  and what else you can think of?
let me tell you LOVE is only 12+15+22+5 = 54%
                          FAMILY is only 6+1+13+9+12+25 = 66%
                          WOMEN is only 20+15+13+5+1+14 = 67%
                          MONEY is only 13+15+14+7+25 = 74%
                          HARDWORK is only 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

ermm What makes 100%?
do you really want to know what in life really makes 100%?
let me tell you this ....
A+1
T+20
T+20
I+9
T+20
U+21
D+4
E+5
Total? what thats?
it's attitude , it worth 100%
count it yourself if you don't believe .                          

Some of the spect that i'm going to get

AMDX4 Phenom 

Mobo Asus M3N-HT Deluxe/Mempipe RM930
Processor AM2+ X4 9950 RM 770
RAM Corsair XMS28500C5DF D2 (TWIN2X2048-6400C5DHX) RM 330
PCI-E Asus EN9600GT BLACK PEARL/HTDI/512M RM520
HDD 500GB SEAGATE 32M RM250
CASING COOLER MASTER CM 690 RM289
PSU COOLER MASTER 500w RM200
kEYBOARD AND MOUSE COMBO LOGITECH G1 DESTOP GAMING RM 89
BURNER PIONEER 20x DVD BURNER RM94
DVD-ROM COMBO SAMSUNG RM 60
LCD ASUS HDMI (WIDE) RM 900

Mobo Asus M3N-HD/HDMI RM590
Processor AM2+ X4 9750 RM 660
RAM Corsair XMS28500C5DF D2 (TWIN2X2048-6400C5DHX) RM 330
PCI-E 9600GT DX10 512-D3 RM500
HDD 500GB SEAGATE 32M RM250
CASING COOLER MASTER CM 690 RM289
PSU COOLER MASTER 500w RM200
kEYBOARD AND MOUSE COMBO LOGITECH G1 DESTOP GAMING RM 89
BURNER PIONEER 20x DVD BURNER RM94
DVD-ROM COMBO SAMSUNG RM 60
LCD ASUS HDMI  RM 900


Mobo Asus M3A78-EMHI RM 295
Processor AM2+ X4 9750 RM 660
RAM Corsair XMS28500C5DF D2 (TWIN2X2048-6400C5DHX) RM 330
PCI-E 9600GT DX10 512-D3 RM500
HDD 500GB SEAGATE 32M RM250
CASING COOLER MASTER CM 690 RM289
PSU COOLER MASTER 500w RM200
kEYBOARD AND MOUSE COMBO LOGITECH G1 DESTOP GAMING RM 89
BURNER PIONEER 20x DVD BURNER RM94
DVD-ROM COMBO SAMSUNG RM 60
LCD ASUS HDMI (WIDE) RM 900

Intel

Mobo Asus P5N-T DLX RM950
Processor C2Q Q9300 2.50 RM885
RAM Corsair XMS28500C5DF D2 (TWIN2X2048-6400C5DHX) RM 330
PCI-E Asus EN9600GT BLACK PEARL/HTDI/512M RM520
HDD 500GB SEAGATE 32M RM250
CASING COOLER MASTER CM 690 RM289
PSU COOLER MASTER 500w RM200
kEYBOARD AND MOUSE COMBO LOGITECH G1 DESTOP GAMING RM 89
BURNER PIONEER 20x DVD BURNER RM94
DVD-ROM COMBO SAMSUNG RM 60
LCD ASUS HDMI (WIDE) RM 900

Mobo Asus P5N-D RM500
Processor C2Q Q6600 2.40 RM625
RAM Corsair XMS28500C5DF D2 (TWIN2X2048-6400C5DHX) RM 330
PCI-E Asus EN9600GT BLACK PEARL/HTDI/512M RM520
HDD 500GB SEAGATE 32M RM250
CASING COOLER MASTER CM 690 RM289
PSU COOLER MASTER 500w RM200
kEYBOARD AND MOUSE COMBO LOGITECH G1 DESTOP GAMING RM 89
BURNER PIONEER 20x DVD BURNER RM94
DVD-ROM COMBO SAMSUNG RM 60
LCD ASUS HDMI (WIDE) RM 900

Mobo Asus P5QL PRO RM380
Processor C2Q Q6600 2.40 RM625
RAM Corsair XMS28500C5DF D2 (TWIN2X2048-6400C5DHX) RM 330
PCI-E Asus EN9600GT BLACK PEARL/HTDI/512M RM520
HDD 500GB SEAGATE 32M RM250
CASING COOLER MASTER CM 690 RM289
PSU COOLER MASTER 500w RM200
kEYBOARD AND MOUSE COMBO LOGITECH G1 DESTOP GAMING RM 89
BURNER PIONEER 20x DVD BURNER RM94
DVD-ROM COMBO SAMSUNG RM 60
LCD ASUS HDMI (WIDE) RM 900

This is some of the spect...
I my self is getting AMD for sure 
reason CHEAPER AND BETTER X D
AMD HAD THE 1st Quard Core 1st later ony Intel do experiment on it ....
and AMD nowadays are stable ...

I get support from uncle that is 
ASUS MOBO + PROCESSOR+AGP , almost half of the things get sponcer so i can buy other stuff like more fan, alumium case , but uncle tell me don't buy other parts 1st because maybe he got lubang to help me get other stuff but sure i need to paid for that.

Was very greedy , wanted a 8GB ram using 64bit to process haha but, well i'm not that crazy , i want to play games also so , 4gb for me is ok . so i did not buy any parts 1st wait end of the month maybe price drop more cheaper !!! haha X D.

awaiting it...

i have ask my self what did i done for the week in penang i was thinking what makes people said that words.. i have no idea , i went for looking for the answer , and i learn much things that old uncles told me , it's what you want , why not give what they want. i should understand it early , if not uncle Ben won't tell me such things and now i understand , he offer me a job again and i shall be busy right now ... can't really get on9 and talk to some of my friends , some of them might be busy at their job , so i would not call them up.

Uncle Ben conversation ...
sam you back?
yup so why you send me to penang and support me to go there?
you better walk a way from what i told you , sam sometimes you know where's your limits.
i don't know my limits!
well you should know, sometimes why want to argue?
I'm sorry uncle Ben i think , maybe that day i'm out of mood at penang after you called me up.
Could you tell me why ? it's your father ? or other things?
It's my brother , he suddenly ask for the insurance things ..is not i don't want to help.
Then ?
well i really did not care about it at first because , bro pass to sister and ivan do it and you know what happend ... an argument on that night sister and ivan were argue for the credits card and brother insurance why would my bro called back every time is a argument?i don't understand uncle Ben ... my mood were serious down.
so how ? still thinking about that? i told you sometimes don't put a blame on other people , you might make other people misunderstand.
well i know ... but just sorry that night you called me . i actually talking to you at outside of the house and i don't want to hear argument sound.I don't know how to tell people about the situations but i don't know how to control my self for that .
so what you situations now? still angry ? or you need more time to chill?
i'm ok now after next days i wake up i saw sister and ivan were talking , i guess is ok. i just angry that i made one of my friends misunderstood. maybe it's my wrong , but it's too late . it been 2 days he's not on9 so i guess he is busy or what else ....
Sam , do you mind uncle Ben tell you somethings? sometimes is not about winning , it's about understanding , you be the winner and who could understand the looser mind? no one would know.
ok give me time to understand ok , i'm kinda tired nowadays , go to factory and mum will not be home for few days.
you need time to think and have enough sleep. well i'm not try to pretend to understand you , you should know why people worry about you, being a hard rock doesn't means everything s , you some how need to be soft on something else. hope you understand.

i'm tired , after coming back from penang i went to factory help , working on the 1st days was numbs but i just don't want to face the computer too much .there is misunderstood between a relationship but never mind , the more i explain were more misunderstood will create ..
but thanks you Uncle Ben you understand me , sorry for argue with you that day don't mean that i somehow i hope people are in front of my eye and they can see what is happening in my eye and they would understand it inc by inc .

i really thank you Uncle Ben,
you really though me something,
and make me understand something,
but lucky you are the person that understand my situations ,
maybe sometimes what happened i just told you on the phone,
you know why would i said that sometimes,
but if that day you din make that called i would not know how am i going to stay at the situation.
sometimes having a friendship with you were like worker and boss,
but as days goes things just change,
maybe that time you shout at me , i would just walk aways and not tell you anythings about it.
if i just did that today the one who is calling might not be you.
you ask me and i answer you.
and from that day on things just change.
todays i trow back the same things like what you did before ,
you were ok and chill on the phone thanks for that ....
for my pet brother i really no idea since days he's not on9 and not getting any msg from him i guess he start to ignore me or maybe he 's busy on his work.... well 1st i don't know how to explain about it and i'm just sorry for that , sometimes over heated are not a good things , why would it happened , lets think back , but what done is done. there will not have another understand of that.

sorry for what i did
really sorry ,
there is nothings to explain anymore
what done is done...
i hope someone tell me why when where ...
just a words of sorry i only can said that .
accept or not accept is no longer an answer.

if there is a tittle what could you put this as?

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
puting me under the pressure
every step that I take is another mistake to you
I've become so empty
I can't feel it any more
I've become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.
can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
is falling apart right in front of you.
and I know
i may end up failing too
but I know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you.

Walk to my balcony have a sit,
thinking what could posible happend,
think and think .
can't figure out what went wrong,
but understand the limit of it,
i saw the sea infront of me,
i saw the people playing around,
i hear the song of freedom.
and the sand was soaking my toes,
the sea water was covers my toes.
i stood there for an hour ,
things doens't come but kept waiting.
the world is a big circles ,
but sometimes big circles are small.
don't expect it's big,
it's not so big lately.
when you notice it ,
it been flew always with the wind.
what have you done lately?

Are you expecting something to happend?
things has show up so,
what's bother you.
a little bit of fate and faith.

My Life Is Changing Before Me &.. 
Things I Felt I No Longer Feel 
All My Beliefs Have Turned To Nothingness 
All That Remains Is This Bleak Emptiness 

No - What Has Happened To Me 
Everything That I Was - Now I Can't Even See 
As The Changes Destroy My Mind 
Life Is Passing Before My Eyes 

Things Weren't This Way, I Once Was Strong 
But Now I'm Weak, Can't Carry On 
Crushed By Everything That Made This 
I Can No Longer Take This 

No - What Has Happened To Me 
Everything That I Was - Now I Can't Even See 
As The Changes Destroy My Mind 
Life Is Passing Before My Eyes 

Alone In Anguish, Cast In Silence 
Feelings Of Hatred, Masked Thru Violence 
Frustrations Overwhelming-Endless Misery 
Caged Emotions - Tears Apart Me 

Look Beyond My Inner Self 
Past My Soul Into Hell 
See The Things That Made My Life 
Feel The Pain As I Die 

Quickly, My Life Did Change 
Nevermore Shall I Feel Sane 
Waiting, To End This Life 
Waiting I Take This Knife 

Quickly, My Life Is Fading 
Nevermore Shall I Feel Pain 
My Life Has Passed Before Me 
An Ending That I Shall Not See

I'll Take You to Heaven, the Kingdom is Yours 
Deny Your own Life, Submit to the Cause 
Change Your Beliefs to fit in With Mine 
Grant me Your Soul Till the end of Time" 

Given a Chance to Repent for his Sins 
Delusions of Grandeur, Enrobed by Hymns 
Nothing but Silence Comes From his Lord 
Nothing but Hatred Becomes his Accord 

Forsaken by God, Nailed to the Cross 
The People Don t Care, No Great Loss 
Rejected by People he was Trying to Save 
Nailed up - Between two Knaves

You thought we'd be fine
All these years gone by
Now your askin me to listen
Well then tell me about everything
No lies we're loosin time

Cause this is a battle
And its your final last call
It was a trial, you made a mistake, we know
But why arent you sorry, why arent you sorry, why?
This can be better, you used to be happy

You've got them on your side
And they wont change their minds
Now its over
And im feelin like we've missed out on everything
I just hope its worth the fight

I want a box around myself
So they can put me on the shelf
To see the way I live
But the holes are blocked
By everybody else inside
As far as I can tell
They're all living well
Living better, still
Oh, that's the way it is
Climbing up the corporate ladder
Trying to escape through the roof

Can you explain lives led in vain?
It seems like everybody's looking for their way out

It's not a problem, it's hell
We only do what people tell
But can you tell me, anyone
The consequences of setting someone free?

Have you ever felt the pinch
When you life's confined?
Well, get your ass in line
It's hard not to care what they say
I'd like to think we'll break away
I don't believe that growing up
Means cashing out and giving up

The time has come to deny your ways.
To rid ourselves of the parasites.
Shedding dead weight, reclaiming what?s ours.
Taking each moment with force again.
No crosses to bear, no time to be wasted.
A fearless approach to oppression.
A constant attack to never retreat from.
With no other choice but resistance,
What will it take
You must choose or be chosen for.
What will it take
Choose or chosen

Its all that we ask, for what we demand.
The decisions we make we will live by.
Proving your weakness.
Denouncing your claims
Your feeble attempts to demean us.
What more can you do, you?re against the wall.
Your lies will be heard for the last time.
Sat what you will it?s only in vein.
This is the justice I fought to attain.

.................................................

A suddenly suprize that went up to penang. An aeroline ticket life

this is the bus that i went to travel to penang , dad told me after my trip from melacca, >eh if you want go to penang or where else let me know ok. I ask i though you heading outstation?.No. no comment about that i tell all my friends that i would be around here but seem everyone is buzy rather i go some place that is everyone free... 

i start my trips at wednesdays , morning and this ticket actuly was bought early in the morning uncle ben ring me up and send me to oneU there . before that night i went out with my pet brother and when i reach home and i went out again. 

at first i told uncle that i feeling strange around me, sometimes people like don't  trust me and they don't dare to side bet with me , come on since you doens't believe sidebet please maybe i'm telling you lies , but most of the time i did not . some people said you sure? maybe? ermm let me think about it , leave me a space i might be there ,....etc .you know what uncle ben done this to me , he said ok i buy you a ticket by tomorrow morning make sure you pack you bags tonight. well ok since my dad give me green light to go travel ok go . i went home , pack my bags .. and went for a few hours sleep , then my phone ring suprize that the time is 8oc and i still wondering ... ok ok take a bath and i go.. i was thinking i haven get my bus ticket how am i going to travel at first i though uncle ben was joking so i preten ... when he reach my house , i put all my things and said greed my mum and dad here i go, and i put my stuff to his car suprize that ...he give me the a4 paper that is above printed out ,i see the time booked 8 30 ... he reach my house around  9 30. Reach oneU around 10 he talk and he chat slow with me in the car, thanks for the things that you said and the bus ticket, i call my sister and let her know that i'm going up there .

In the bus ...
aeroline a 1st class bus ... wao ... uncle you really want me to enjoy this trip yeah... i saw many funy people there have no idea what i'm feeling , just feel diffrent when i'm on board. maybe many business people on the bus or maybe uncle want me to see something in the bus. and start my jurney and reach penang around 3 30

My sister fetch me at Sg.nipon station near bayang lepas.. but this time my sister is fetching few uncles with i don't know some of them, there are uncle peter , uncle koike and auntie koike. suprice the that i know this japaniese uncle quite cute lo and me question , he's good in english , then went to tea nearby nowhere i also don't know where ....

went back to feringgi height , all those uncle stay in the same area but diffrent floors .. cool eh this kind of uncle no need work @@ suprize that what they working as and how thier income come from , they seem have normal life but the have rich man knoledge, so i just chit chat as what i use to be.

Dinner time for the 1st night
Went to uncle peter house for dinner , nothing much normal home dishies . went home and start to watch movie till next morning .... around 7 oc in the morning only start to sleep.before i go out my pet brother msg me , he ask me for dinner and i just forget to send him a msg i guess ... was rushing out and did not take my phone with me ... till i check send box there is no msg send out ... so aiks don't know how to explaint and don't feel like explainting it so i just leave it there.

when i wake up is around 4 oc , i start to watch movie again last night haven finish haha that movie very nice called "catch me now" but i don't really like the ending  no comment. watch till half around 6 oc like that sister called go out eat dinner with those uncle ... owh okie thne went to bath ... aiks.. i'm the drive there ... ok lo i drive lo haha since so long din touch this car , reach there around 7 lo .. when all people reach  @@ all retired uncle ... fulaueh 1st time meet too much old uncle haha .. ok la chating with them , those uncle so sui bluff me ... they said son want some chinese tea ... ok lo i really thoght the fill in the bottle was chinese tea... few cm of it and uncle add ice for me i suprize that and i think again it doens't look like CHINESE TEA... siong chey again ... is liqour jar 2 no hope drink 1 cup then went shoping uncle koike and his wife and peter wife and my sister was in the car then we went to shoping lo.... not much walk walk see see bought things lo .....

the wired night ....
i was on the phone with uncle ben and my pet brother pull me in a converstation and i told him that i will be right back because i'm talking with him... when i finish talk i msg back ,... same old things happend ..fedup... don't care go sleep...

On the phone
uncle was telling me why aeroline, and ask how i feel and many things more , told him and i ask him why , he ask do you know what is your class now? do you see why people like aeroline so much? and you know why some sits are empty? and do you sit or sleep on thier sofa bed at lower deck? I answer him all that , then he said well you know what you looking for so how is your trip to penang ? actuly is good things to stay at here chilling and talk to those no need work uncle , quite of joy and happy . here all the neighbour always exchange food ... koike wife is a good baker haha i get pizza for my supper and banana cakes .

sometimes i don't know how to show people the real situation , but if i dare them they will just suck out , so i'm kind living like a lie man life ... don't care , if really want to blame , blame me it's my fault , i did not check it and i din reply . . so don't bother to ask , uncle ben told me see now you know the situation , sometime people don't believe you evendo it's true ...is not you don't want to explaint to them is they might thinkgs other ways ... so now you understand? ok ok i get the catch but what the point............................................

Today i heard and i feel it's me correct me if that is not me.

Today i knwo somethings new >guess what it is jelous<
i just so want to know what is all about, have no idea sometimes...but todays someone tog me that jelous , and i found out people are trying to tell me something but not in the direct way i know what is going on , No need to tell me , i have once tell that i jelous about it , and just once it become forever , this situations remind me that this kind of people doens't actuly know how other people feel,they always thinks in thier own ways , they just follow thier heart and they did not really see what is all about it.If you want to confess somethings to me mind as well tell me.and better you ask me .

A big round or meaning
pass days one of my friends laptop has problem after i use it ,and guess what i hear it from today it's a so direct story from it, he said the other person live in my friends house is a jelousy person,and this person is ruining my friends laptop , he state a very long story and i get it , sound more like me , he said that the person did it in purpose , and few times before i use my friends laptop after leaving sure got problems. It me heading a bad luck, or what? someone is blaming? well saying things that no body know is true but to trust. Today i get the meaning of it , the feeling of mine way like keep it aways and you are not really welcome , but it's true? who's know? rather geting some profits are better then screw up.

Another meaning
someone said that how rich is rich? do you think is rich? 
I define rich people as in you drove many diffrent luxury car , what you wear , how you talk , which culture you love the most , what are you always compare with ,things that you no need to plan , scare of people to know about your salary , using own experience to talk, always think that people around you are geting profits from you, they always buy things that is very unique,to have own style in certain ways .It's easy to see a person status just like that.

I share this statement for a reason, sometimes people just scare of fake people around especially those rich people , well if that so there is always limited time for a relationship , after a long time you just started people are geting profits from you, if that so what for we wasted so much time just want to get those profits ? Do they really understand about it?when things get close they started to thinks other things , yes maybe sometimes is right , that is just keep happend and happened ......

Am i jelous?
Yes i'm jelous about my brother , why he get those freaking good deal with my dad , that what i jelous about it.my pet bro said that i see what people get then i want what people have, huh true eh? no idea .. how well is knowing my self and how well do you really know your self?since  that happend no comment for that if people said so then so , why want to change thier mind when they always said yes, wasted of time to make them understand it.

Uncle ben said if a person you already know he/she can't play with jokes, why still play with them, actuly i don't get when i 1st listen and i always ask, he said you will met one of them one day, guess i met one , things really suck out badly !!! what you joke around they definely using it and do on you , and they will over done it sometimes, we jokes has a limited range , but if you over the range i guess it's a time for argument again and again.

what you said before has consequence , why it's a post with a long story , how am i going to understand it , this may cause how you talk normally , if want to tell somethings that is me , no need make a big round and a long story , and i'm not stupid to hear that story. A company can't even get a good computer spect and telling me that they are spare parts? wounder it's my wrong guess ... but the words is all sharpen so i would claim that is all to me.

If i'm looking for profits , better i don't care about it

Friendship with this kind of supicious , i give up

Friendship that is full of problem , i give up

Friendship that is between another relationship , i give up

Friendship that is always doubble side meaning , i give up

Friendship that hurt my feeling , i give up

This statement is what i thinking right now, If i'm what those people think then make it be.
I'm leaving in the zone of mine, heading to a place to jump with the sea.
hope no one know what am i now....

It's about thinking !!! malaysian don't think before talk trust me !!! they don't!!!

it been awhile i'm not around thinking and figuring what is life all about ...
do you believe people that said No i din actuly they did .
no comment , how i know and how i get the info is what i saw and hear from my own ears and eyes,  sometimes i would preten that i did not saw or hear that but they just kept talk and talk about it ... if that is a good point of that you all won't spend time to talk about it , if there is a bad things you would exchange and started to compare with who and who... i'm not confessing something but at least i know people that said no infront of me they know who are they ... and how i get the the news it doens't matter ... when you start to talk about it people would know about it , that is so simple but who'S know? 

I been walking and think for the last night i was siting down chilling with friends ... things are just get chill out , hope that it could happend. 

Yesterdays people said that you are a rubbish , but the rubbish has been use by the one who said it and now it's recycling , i don't mind it anymore....
they said NO this is bad and it's not helping but they end up with the YES and changing thier words ... i would just hope that sometimes i could record down and play back things that people said . but this will make more problem , so friends of mine said don't care about it , if it's bottering you , better you give up .

someone said sam today i don't get the catch what are you trying to said, days later... fuck you sam i know what you mean now , it been so long and you take back out and said . few more days later sam i think that sometimes if we don't clean things off  and end it , we would just end up argument.

Thanks god at least someone know what's going on !!!!
so glad that they know somethings i want to tell them , if problem stucked , we escape all things just end up a mess and it won't be a solid relationship.

MY NEW STATEMENT 
in my survey i found out that malaysian are follow the trent , Let me show you how does this work, it's actuly like this i asked IF 10 PEOPLE SAID THIS IS GOOD WOULD IT BE GOOD?
yer it's so damn obvious ...don't ask stupid question can anot ? they said to me.
But when i met Outsider people and ask, i was suprize that they give me some answer that i did not expected, i asked the same question and the reply was erm 10 people ? who are they ?
what is the age of them? would  you tell me what are they looking good at? i did no prepair for that but i manage to let them know what i want do about my statement. some of them said If a 10 person agree it might be somethings same with thier mind , but this could never happend , what if the 10 person is retarded ? so could that gossip be true? or the things are good? a perfect 10 doesnt't means it's perfect it means that is a problem . this are those people giving me answer and ask me back question i was happy that.

I ask why every sentance and they explaint i was so fucking high you know , i ask why could it never happend? they said there are many people in the world , if you have the same mind i guess today we should not have class for living right.wow i was so damn agree with the answer !!!!

but what makes me down was all my friends are juging me , they thought i'm playful some of my question was stupid , they just din think and give me the answer, the moment i hear it was damn i hope i was serious all the time but it's too late , nevermind if 10 malaysian said that is a good work means it's really good work in malaysia. so my conclusion was if i can just convienc 100 people in malaysia my plan would work just like that , since they had no question and they always things they are smart then other.

I realize that most of use give the answer without thinking most of the people said they think before said but i see and i observe that later on they would just screw thier ass just like a bomb creator that create the most best explosive bomb but they plan it on thier ass and they would know what happend in the end. So i'll be smilling agin... i'm correct but who can i share with it's my blog and my diary. don't you get what it really means?

People said they think before answer, 

actuly they did not think before,

if 10 people would said yes will it be a yes to you?

they said they understand ,

but they don't understand at all but they just to get back thier pride

if your pride is more important ,

then what is not important for you personality?

some said what the fuck you talking why sudelly personality?

see see i know i know they did not ask and give me wtf angain and again ..

my statement was writen on saturday and i start to ask around ,

see see see i get the answer,

They just give me diffrent answer ....and they said it the statement said that the 10 person is YES

IF YES WHY DIFFRENT ANSWER AFTER FEW QUESTION?

Huh HUh ... no comment and i just got the malaysian mind concept and i think it would works .
i'm lazy to see and ask again they ask me to ask other question but i guess 2 statement i already stop, my statement was a 11 question , and they answer 2 question and give me some wired facial expression.

GAME OVER?

This few days i just finish my finals , but it seem bored after my timetabble was spoiled...so bored and it's going more bored ever ...nothing much happend todays... went out for tea with friends and went to cafe to pass my time... night time went out with barca , he asked me for dinner at paramount , then he change to murni and i ask who's going WOC 2nd leader was going i was like so pai seh weh... not much it's just a car club but my car was stocked so haha abit pai seh la just went tea with them quite friendly , then went back home.... storing .... 

What i saw this few days...
I saw many of my friends blogs are having a GAME OVER TITTLE ...some is about relationship some are study some are even thier car...ok , les start with relationship ... some of my friends they just sold out thier relationship examples they said they had enought of that , she said "your one time enjoyment made my life forgive-ness and i can't forget it " wao she is in deep shit ... but i din ask her why , because i know what it means..., i hope she is ok with that i really want to help but seem i can't said much things in this kind of situations, so i just drop her a msg . The others with relationship some of the words i qoute it like >

"Sometimes i don't call i don't msg i don't what ever doens't means i don't care about you" 
"I hope you understand me , but it's too late and it's no meaning to let you know"
"I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry you saw what i did and you keep quite you gave me another chance but i screw up again and again I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry"
"I love you but would you love me, i don't know would you tell me?"

Those are some post that they made i was passing by thier blog and i feel that wao the problems start at THERE @@ i see it ... but how could i just said it like that?can't help just keep quite...

2nd Game Over 
it's one of my friends  car been crashed and it's a total lost he said that everythings has an end and the end was GAME OVER...
his qoute>

"I wish that day i could die with it, so i would not keep thinking and thinking"
"I hope that night was a dream , but when i was awake i was sleeping on bed with bandage"
"They din screw me up and they caring for me when i still not awake"
"I Thought dying with it was my perfect answer but when i saw they were caring about me , i did not want the wish come trues"
"And the game is over now "

I called him up and ask how are him now he was totally zero !!!
he seem lost , but i just ask about how is him and i did not menction about the things i read in his blog... well seem he has no mood to talk so i end it with silent bye.

Dennis...
well well well dennis you car seem parked at the same place every morning , you din go to college any more or you having sem break?
No , i'm ending my studies ...
why bro ? what happend?
i can't really study and i give up...
what's your problem?so did you father know?
of cus not , i still thinking how to tell him .
This is not a solution Dennis...

that day i ask Dennis you tell me that you are bored with everydays , those days you at the cafe playing DOTA was it happy?you told me that i won a few games but i feel bored don't know why, and he ask me why life are so boring.I told him the worlds is not boring they are things to let you explore but you din think about it , you said playing DOTA are so bored but you been playing and playing for years everydays every morning you were the 1st customer here, and you said you have a bored life come on you lead your self the road and you finally said it's bored ... funny things that he ask aiks sam what do you do at the boring days ... i told him , i got my timetabble why i got my timetabble because it's a time frame to let you know what to do when you have nothings to do . he keep quite and send me home .... blah blah...

he said my life is serious GAMING OVER.... come on you still young la bro... no comment on him .

this are the few things i saw and i listen from what people said... no harm and i get some feed back cool or not cool it depance on you.

after tea with barca .... my phone rang .... guess who unlce ben ....
on the way to his house ...auntie not in went outstation ...no1der call me la.... aiks at his house beer with him few cups i cabut lari ... i dowant to drink so much talk with him then he like drunk drunk de so i sendiri buka pintu cabut ... haha sumore i seldom drink so must know my limits haha then went back home feel tired at first but when i reach home want to sleep then can't aiks don't care la watch movie la ... then slap .... wake up and continew write blog haha X D.

huh?

This few days i just finish my finals , but it seem bored after my timetabble was spoiled...so bored and it's going more bored ever ...nothing much happend todays... went out for tea with friends and went to cafe to pass my time... night time went out with barca , he asked me for dinner at paramount , then he change to murni and i ask who's going WOC 2nd leader was going i was like so pai seh weh... not much it's just a car club but my car was stocked so haha abit pai seh la just went tea with them quite friendly , then went back home.... storing .... 

What i saw this few days...
I saw many of my friends blogs are having a GAME OVER TITTLE ...some is about relationship some are study some are even thier car...ok , les start with relationship ... some of my friends they just sold out thier relationship examples they said they had enought of that , she said "your one time enjoyment made my life forgive-ness and i can't forget it " wao she is in deep shit ... but i din ask her why , because i know what it means..., i hope she is ok with that i really want to help but seem i can't said much things in this kind of situations, so i just drop her a msg . The others with relationship some of the words i qoute it like >

"Sometimes i don't call i don't msg i don't what ever doens't means i don't care about you" 
"I hope you understand me , but it's too late and it's no meaning to let you know"
"I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry you saw what i did and you keep quite you gave me another chance but i screw up again and again I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry"
"I love you but would you love me, i don't know would you tell me?"

Those are some post that they made i was passing by thier blog and i feel that wao the problems start at THERE @@ i see it ... but how could i just said it like that?can't help just keep quite...

2nd Game Over 
it's one of my friends  car been crashed and it's a total lost he said that everythings has an end and the end was GAME OVER...
his qoute>

"I wish that day i could die with it, so i would not keep thinking and thinking"
"I hope that night was a dream , but when i was awake i was sleeping on bed with bandage"
"They din screw me up and they caring for me when i still not awake"
"I Thought dying with it was my perfect answer but when i saw they were caring about me , i did not want the wish come trues"
"And the game is over now "

I called him up and ask how are him now he was totally zero !!!
he seem lost , but i just ask about how is him and i did not menction about the things i read in his blog... well seem he has no mood to talk so i end it with silent bye.

Dennis...
well well well dennis you car seem parked at the same place every morning , you din go to college any more or you having sem break?
No , i'm ending my studies ...
why bro ? what happend?
i can't really study and i give up...
what's your problem?so did you father know?
of cus not , i still thinking how to tell him .
This is not a solution Dennis...

that day i ask Dennis you tell me that you are bored with everydays , those days you at the cafe playing DOTA was it happy?you told me that i won a few games but i feel bored don't know why, and he ask me why life are so boring.I told him the worlds is not boring they are things to let you explore but you din think about it , you said playing DOTA are so bored but you been playing and playing for years everydays every morning you were the 1st customer here, and you said you have a bored life come on you lead your self the road and you finally said it's bored ... funny things that he ask aiks sam what do you do at the boring days ... i told him , i got my timetabble why i got my timetabble because it's a time frame to let you know what to do when you have nothings to do . he keep quite and send me home .... blah blah...

he said my life is serious GAMING OVER.... come on you still young la bro... no comment on him .

this are the few things i saw and i listen from what people said... no harm and i get some feed back cool or not cool it depance on you.

after tea with barca .... my phone rang .... guess who unlce ben ....
on the way to his house ...auntie not in went outstation ...no1der call me la.... aiks at his house beer with him few cups i cabut lari ... i dowant to drink so much talk with him then he like drunk drunk de so i sendiri buka pintu cabut ... haha sumore i seldom drink so must know my limits haha then went back home feel tired at first but when i reach home want to sleep then can't aiks don't care la watch movie la ... then slap .... wake up and continew write blog haha X D