BBQ DAY.... GEEEKEONG BDAY...

lazy for the whole day...
doing nothing @@
well i did something cool that is i mod my cpu with more fan hehe,
today wake up 11 oc slack until 2 oc went to get my lunch and 3 oc i started to mod my cpu in to more fan because it's hot since weeks ago so now i mod it into more fan to make it cold...it take me about 3 hours to do that because i clean up my CPU also so there is no big deal lo 6 oc Anson we went out to buy some stuff then went to geekeong BBQ party haha guess what we went there around 7oc and people haven come so me and Anson start the fire 1st haha less then 10 min the fire were light up this is the most fast that we use to be... aiks still need to wait haha to spread the charcoal and top up new charcoal so 8oc people come and started BBQ at first only me , Anson, geekeong , boon, juan, bin wei were here so we ate the fried noodle 1st haha later that we went to BBQ actually i'm de only person who BBQ the chicken haha cos no idea just like to BBQ haha .... later on more and more people come haha so talk and laught until 12 oc den @@ mengz call me over to have a Drink at his office so been there lo .. poan and gugu were here and with BIG APPLE haha so happy got stuff to eat ... and they have martel at mengz office i drank one cup then stop cos i'm driving weh haha so no care la talk until 3 oc like that ....poan said hungry then went back to my house and had some tea, i went home to put my car back and pack my bag and need to go over to mengz office here and do my works...and this is what i did the whole night and day haha

another tired day....

beep beep beep it's time.....
10.30 oc my phone shows me....
and i did not went to bath...
i just awake and walk around....
and went to wash face and clean up abit....
then i took my pouch and key went to out ....

todays was a tired day i spend whole day at workshop i reach around 11 oc and i finish at 6 something(i injured my hand my right hand damn it, pain like shit @@ the wax droped onto my hand and it feel so high @@....pain as well)and i went for COD lack of cash to use no money use jor leh need COD haha sold the phone around RM700 and uncle gave me RM50 for my pocket money.Oh well haha it's money licking good haha so just tired leh reach home about 7 oc then was quite tired , serious tired aiks then went nap on the floor around 2 hours while watching tv... i wake up around 11  something my then someone msg me oh it's my petbrother and guess who on the line at the same time , SKYPE has 4 people in 1 talking chat that is my brother,my sis , ivan and me. wah lau my dad sudelly angry me so sad weh, maybe i said wrong things again ... don't know la my bro and ivan laught at me said my wrong .... no comment la they always trow thier life terio to me ... HOME GOT WHAT HAPPEND YOU GUYS KNOW MEH? chew.... said until you 3 at home only .... then all diam diam ... 

Althought RM50 is not much but i'm happy with that thanks for the note uncle haha, next time u want sell what tell me tell me haha i help u seel haha... i told mengz that, he told me he want to sell off his collection i said ok ok give me photo until now also haven send to me ...don't know him la ....

i'm looking forward on Ebusiness , i get support and they ask me play what ... i was full of ???? don"t ask me arr i don't know haha .... they said ai ya u don't know what you want to play then you want play stupid arr you? @@ yer sorry la , i serious PK leh that day so sia sui ... i tog i got 400 in my wallet but when i want to borrow to mengz that time left 200 only ... then i think @@ where does it go oh my @@ my petbrother there... aiks i tog he give me on tuesday 1 geh but he sick so nvm lo...aiks see him sick i also feel funny don't know what happend to him sunday sick tuesday not feeling well wor.... din ask much lo her gf msg me and told me erm seem weird ... not to said her funny but i seem she get more strange and more strange ... aiks don't want to said la as i been scold by my uncle he said people relationship you care for what , takan you said this good then who take the bad one? let it be and let he him self notice this is something i found out ok now i know why ... sometime i over helping. uncle said you see is like that but what they see is diffrent so why would you want to care? ok ok i understand i seldom msg her girl friends due to when a close friends girlfriends i will not msg much because of some of my personal reason.they always said i stupid thinking ok if you don't agree then don't care lo.

Just weird lo, mengz always said i'm over , he stop answer my question after he thinks that i'm in stupid mode haha guess what it show how you think ok.... he said sam you talk too , well ok den i don't talk much he said i emo wor jar 2 then talk or don't talk leh? haha nvm la just talk la i always did that lo he will entertain when he feel like too haha .... no worry la if he can't tahan me he will stop should not be a problem hehe....

ops i get my result de @@ CGPA 2.75 only arrr
last sem is 3.2  leh @@ owwww ...
aiks who call me go go play aful haha dai sei lo haha

serious i seldom met uncle ben almost 1 week jor i did not call him he also understand me he did not call me also wao how great was that haha ... i think he is happy now i think. Just want to drop a msg to him if i could saw him X D.

Just dots.....

ok i rare talk about my dad right, how to tell a men like him , erm i just finding a point to target, well well he's a men at the age of 50th he still working , and he go insane while he working i have no idea , when i was young i don't know why he does't that after when i'm abit older and older i realize yerr actuly he's doing for me and my sis and bro ,ermm now i regret why not i spend more time call and talk or maybe appreciate him when he's at home, i just too selfish for my self i went out for my enjoyment and all i ask was money from him , as my role play that time i think he's just a money machine , well later on when i enter to college things just change , guess what has change my father even work more longer and all my time to get to talk to him were like less then an hour, can you imagine that i come back from college around 6 and i do do my stuff until 1 in the midnight he just reach home , do you see how i feel everytime i think about this my tears are always falling down, i hope i listen to uncle said i should not enter to college because you are not what you meant to be you can learn from the outside , i was disagree that my mum always tell me if you don't have a cert you will totally die in this world, but now i see , since like that how about my father i can't see him work like a freak and what i can do was just watching come on he's is old how much time do he have and i have just started my journey of life , all i think i thought i can make him happy an proud and i think i'm very proud of the four credits, he did ask me what i want to do i spend 1 and half year doing my things... and i have enought.i went into college after all i found out he even work hard and i have not much time to talk and all about him it's was like i wake up he's gone when i finish my work and i wanted to talk to him he was like too tired , how am i going to talk with him when you see him that kind of face.

I told my petbrother you are very lucky , you have a family dinner everyday and you just ask me that question month ago i really think back about my father i hate him but i love him but in the way of hate i started to change to love because i realise that why he could do that and why i should not hate him in this situation, i just hate my self as he mention son you want do what arr?
he ask me that time i said i don't know can you let me play until i said something? he just said ok it depance on you , you like . that time i can everyday saw him early around 8oc but i did not make use of it , i went out tea talking with frineds , go do black business things talk to uncles this and that ... but i forget my father as i told him that i can survire my self i no longer need your money i gave my mom money if i got more them 500 in my wallet i will it's was like everydays i giving her 50 100 or what i don't mind . i just want to show i can survire and i can give my mother money just to show my father ... how stupid was that. well life been walking in a mistake to make me learn but i regret that now this situation has just switch with me he's the one who going out for business and i'm doing nothing and asking for money and do this and that.hellow come on i just realise i writen so long and my tear keep falling , i can't believe that , last time what i think i will consider this is stupid but nor today it's change , things always changes .

i'm very sorry to make you work like mad,
i thought this could make you proud,
i did not notice till i found out from my frineds,
and also that motivation talk change me,
i just saw what i saw ,
actuly my dad has alot of things to share with me,
but it's too late he has no time,
and he is working hard just for me ,
because i'm only child that still young and need education,
ok i'm confuse,
but i will not stop here ,
because he's so hardworking on his job and earning money to give me better life,
if i stop ,
i'm ruing my life and i hurt his feeling again,
so i must not failed ,
i must do well,
if i can't
just pass that subject,
and future study that subject,
i won't let it go again.
Thank you dad i love you but brother were right how many year left about our life .
My Brother were right, i guess i'm wrong .

Uncles were right too, why no i help him to take care for his shop i could be someone else today but nevermind whats goes means goes, i did not regret that but i just finally see how much my dad love me and i'm sorry that i din notice , by right now i saw this i think i'm not too late.

GOD BLESS MY FATHER!!!
HE'S NOT A MACHINE!!!
HE'S JUST A MEN TRYING TO GIVE SOMEONE BETTER LIFE!!!
ALL I WANT FOR HIM WAS HIS HEALTH!!!
I DID NOT WISH FOR MUCH JUST THAT.....

Oh today
Morning breeze...i'm awake what i heard was my phone deep again and again i walk up and i went to bath room my stomach doens't feel right @@ ... and i bath i notice my back has a CHICKE POK HOLE wah lau eh like pain press press nothing out @@ don't know itzit AIDS haha , then went to college and listen to MarkTeh for lecturing oh well guess what todays topic is ISA wah what a tittle to talk.. then finish called mengz wehh haha guess what looking for him to ate lunch but he said he at offfice can't make a move so i tell him need me pack i come over la... he said what you eat then i said KFC want? he said ok ok "KILL YOU" haha then pack and go to SS2 there his office there wow kind of suprize when i reach the aircon started to do the installation haha so i guess ok lo i ask him eh no funiture geh he said that pet pet said 11 oc come until now 1 oc also haven come .... !(*@#!@#_!()@ he said la ... then i was eating my meal and Mei kwan , chu hang and mengz was there haha i pack for them leh so good haha, then 3oc mei kwan went off @@ she said she need go do faicial haha ok lo mengz said sam later you free arr i said free until 9 oc , he said going to ikea ... around 4 something like that went to ikea after waiting that furniture come and fix at 3 30 .... 4 something went to ikea and walk ... guess what untill 10oc leh @@ wah lau i so scare my petbrother angry leh i tell him a lie i said that i'm at oneU at the fist time he ask where i am ... i so freaking scare because this is not what i plan too mengz also dowant to delay .. as in he know i have a met with my petbrother... he also quickly and do all the stuff , aiks nothing leh just go there help abit walk get idea and do some vector... 2nd msg my petbrother were am i tiu lo i just reach ss2 office there and i told him i reach him he said he finish dinner with justin i was like ha cham lo like fong people fei gay @@yerr sorry leh then he said nvm i come to your house. woot lucky @@ and i tell him this when i was talking with him at the mamak... so freaking hungry leh mengz they all also hungry because we din't eat our dinner @@ and mengz try to send me back only he went out for dinner....when i reach home i sit around and relax my leg because i walk too long haha no pain but tired....then about five min my petbrother came with smile wah lucky he smile i scare people come to me with black face @@...
i'm sorry edmondson i thought mengz can make it on9 oc as in your msg you said it's 10 oc yam cha at asia cafe i guess i can't make that and i'm so please and thanks that you come to accompany me to eat my dinner THANK YOU.... but i always scare he get bully by other people , as in uncle always tell me if you see people get bully help as you can they might see something in you , i believe that because i done it wrong in one time just one time .. and i never walk the wrong road... AGAIN.

sam wake up sam wake up ,
my phone has the beep sound,
i can't really notice that,
i'm sleeping really ,
i jump up on the sofa about 11,
guess what i check my phone and it's reenee ,
my penang friends she came down for a walk ,
well well she actuly my 3 days realife friends,
i went to penang last month and i visit her,
she is one of the online friends,
i'll stop here follow up the long post.

Well it's 11 oc sam why aren't you awake what's going on are you sad are happy or are you gay today, so what really border you sam wake up wake up ... ops i'm awake, i look at my pc and it's off i think and think oh i remember i turn it off, i saw the lighting ...that why i close.. then i check my phone you know what going on? it's a message from my penang online friend.

after lunch time,i'm not having any meal yet but i'm searching for infomation about ISA... time past 1 then i message my petbro and ask something about ISA.. he pull always my question and fill in yesterday incident, guess what actul i was asking ISA but he keep refer to the GOV i have no idea what he try to proof, about the yesterday incident i sms him that i told him that the petrol are not going to sell petrol but i did tell him that this depance how much you believe i just told him that.Another argument with him , i ask him so what you want to proof?proof that i'm stupid?i guess he don't know how to answer so i ask again the question ,i so sorry to keep on ask you to answer my question but i just want to you to know what you want to proof to me i'm really don't know what happend that why i want to know seriouly that why i keep ask my petbrother what do you want to proof to me?
actuly i really don't know what he want to proof may be he try to correct me , if that so i'm happy to let him correct me as in i also don't know what happend but in fact he din aswer my question .. he used the young people style. Ok not to said he is bad but i wounder what you really want to tell me i guess he tog i'm angry or what sort actuly i'm not,i'm happy when things that i tell in not confirm were wrong , he just walk always and i did not know the answer for that .I'm so sorry just wright it down here because i'm not going to tell him , because i don't know how to tell him and i don't want to bring old stuff back.I just upsad after that i think i should not ask him twice what he want to proof , I made a mistake again , it's my fault i'm very sorry, who would know ... i just don't care , i will just wright it down.

After That I clean up my cpu around 3 oc i use the blower to blow the dust in the cpu and it takes around 2 hours to let me do that , later on i wash wira and clean up then i wax it , almost 8 oc i'm done then went to bath ..follow mother out to pasar malam , and i went out with my OwnerClub haha for tea and talk about 1 hour then back home and msg her for awhile damn i'm in blur mode so i end her around 11 something then went out with mengz for tea because need to wait my dad come home mengz need to talk to my father about the project so i guess we talk at the mamak until 1. 30 .. i called my father and he said he at home de so we paid and went home and have a talk until 2 somthing .... now 3 35 i still awake.

Sorry my dear i told you that i went for rest,
but i did not do it i'm very sorry,
i went out with mengz because he told me early and i just remember,
i'm serious tired , the whole day doing clening up i'm just tired,
and for the mistake i made today i think i've learn much,
sorry to my petbrother as i know he won't come here and read,
nevermind , i guess i know what i need to said,
someday i'll know how.

i'm just sorry to all of you,
i don't meant to leave you alone my dear,
but if you see my face you will know that i'm tired,
just forgive me ,
i did not tell you because i scare you were asleep,
sorry i broke the promissed i called you sleep early rite,
this is my fault just forgive me,
miss you.

This is true i serious want to know what my petbrother want to tell me but i have no idea sorry for the answer that i want you to answer i don't meant to hurt your feeling but i just what to know why, if i only could tell you this i wish , when things stop argue we will have no distance , this is not good due to it's a things that too many agreement with you will cause you too proud , i know you know much things but if you win and you just want to correct me , i guess i'm ok with that but if you try to do any hankie pankie i guess i have no idea what's all about.

she spend a half day in the workshop doing her batik i saw her online i msg her msn but she din reply so i tog she was bz then i started to send her email.when my email send she msg me in msn so shocking ... then talk and talk i cut her off @@ because i serious have no idea what i asking for .. better cut off if not wrong things come from the mouth.

what days is today?

erm feel right and feel not right, what could happened ?
i was looking at the sky and look for my answer,
what could make me feel that weird?
seem like it's was the dime light making this happen.

Erm friends friends friends how could i wish that i always tell you the truth, wondering why am i not telling you , i guess it's hurting right? or maybe it's my fault to not letting you know that I'm not into it.But how cruel was that .. straight forward ya.

less don't care about that how about erm the uncle that they recelly find me , great i just demolish them with one words if you want to find me call me i'll on the skype or msn and web cam you and talk so that i can do my work and talk as well so my left and right brain were moving , how lame was that . But it's an idea.

The morning mow
guess it's the pain and the feeling came back , i reach a very pain situation all i did was i hold and sit for awhile and things could be normal i guess, the body of mine is back to normal now it's the leg i have no idea it been almost 2 years ...a futsal match drop me out for 2 years ... could this call stoping me from ball?Today i did not forcus on the pain but , the pain remind me that i need to take a bath or else i'm in deep shit....

The Nigh after Dinner
My petbro msg me i was just finish my dinner at that time, was thinking how serious he look at a case, when things is not writen in the news he won't support that , i'm just droping by a msg to let him know what's going on , fine fine i don't want to argue actuly i'm deeply sleeping tired i should said. look look it's his fact again ...... ok ok i just pass down ... I PASS haha ...

My ideas that i told....
a magnet bed,a cool fountain and a cool 4side movie plane that show movie.

guess who's on the line today ... someone frong penang called me haha guess who.....
......Ivan lo !!! chey haha i tog who could call my skype as my status were invi haha this cause they day .... lazy talk don't want to think.

I started to sms her in the early morning but after class i guess she too sleepy and went to sleep she did not saw my sms , later on she send me some very very funny sms
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q U R S T U V W X Y Z


DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT MEANS?




It's i miss you @@


ouch how touching was that ...

i did reply her but she hang up again aiks i guess she is busy at something so i did no reply anymore msg till the night has fall that what i started to wondering why could she hang up the sms ? what could happend? is she angry? oh lord i really don't know till she send me an email that made me reply her i and finally i understand what happend . Lucky she email me if not i thought she were angry.no much things just she is cute and open minded and playful, as what i see.

I don't care how many guys you had before,
i don't mind each and one of them,
but please remember i'm always here,
so please do me a flavor,
don't make me invincible,
i don't mind you look other guys at the streets,
i'll give you your space and time,
so please understand me and give me my time and space,
everythings could be well done ,
i was just worry ,
worry about your health ,
dear if you aren't sleeping at this time ,
please go try and sleep,
i don't want to see you sick,
i know you would stop replying me after i told you so,
this is good for you and good for me,
things i really share with you were a facts,
how would you see it,
i would not know,
but i would know that you giving me chance,
i'm appreciating this relationship,
so please understand.

He was a loner before ,
He failed in every relationship,
He letting go everything,
He share things too.

He hope for a table for 2,
He hope success in this relationship,
He will try his best to catch all,
He share too much.


It about 3 10 i'm tired if i could get another marsage oh my back and for my leg how lovely could that be... just once more.... i'm tired i'm shuting down soon please please do take care of your self.

I'm sorry.

sometime i don't know what she think ,
i just want to go near to her and tell her something,
but i'm scare she flew aways,
they said dare do there you goes,
i did that many times but not on this relastionship,
i don't know why ,
might be my problem or she just waiting for me to said that words,
how i wish that i could tell you that i want to be with you,
how i wish that you saw this but i did not gave her my link did i?
i forget i did or i din.
so i would just said sorry Y.Y

nevermind all i wish that she could sms me or msg me on the internet or maybe email me i would be happy as times goes i will go deeper into her and i'll tell her what's going on.that day was my chance i know that is my chance but ... aiks some urgent stuff went me off.Sorry that i left early there , i want to play longer with you but i have to make a move sorry girl.the other day someone told me you not really happy after that it's my fault , or i leave too early.I'm really sorry = ( i bring your mood down i doens't plan like that.I'm sorry.

sometimes i did not msg you because i'm shy,
i scare i'm out of topic because you are not my girl friends yet,
all i wish is to let you know i'm serious about it but in your eye it might be not that serious to you if that's a point let me know Y.Y i'm a bad guesser.

I regret i just regret ....
I should not leave,
I just want to take sometime to talk to you,
I break my promissed because i did not do that,
I'm very sorry about that,
I'm true about you.
I don't know why i love
I only know that was a sign
I just ......

Pass my time at his house hahaha

I Struggling on JB to SG or PG to PG
aiks sad leh weh no comment on that.

Uncle PetPet called me to his house to help ...
do his paper work , chey i tog what so good find me cari me stupid 1 geh..
lucky he pandai haha buy some ice cream for me and order pizza for me wuhahaha so happy ok la actuly not much thing to help him i guess he's is too bored den find me to accompany him i guess.sometime i really don't know this kind of uncle think what 1
so weird 1 geh ... they might be crazy but they are wealthy weh... all they want was fun and happy arrr... this is uncle ben told me. Uncle PetPet another one WH4 1 no girls around sure find me , why don't want find uncle ben jimmy teoh tan !!!! yerr you all so weird. ok la sit down and talk in his house while i using the laptop to on9 and chat with my pet bro gf...blog as well haha he was talking in his workshop haha i was doing bloging and chating as i see he's just doing his stuff and i just reply what he ask haha din ask many question.

Eh i'm serious that my studies, i don't want to jump in to any business ... i told Tai and i think he's going to tell uncle, i need my free time to do my works and my jobs so please give me some personal space.And i told them don't find me offen leh i got 3 more week to my finals de so let me finsh and the following holidays i catch up with you guys...i will call when i got time k.Don't share me your life story jor i not sick of it i'm just over excited to listen so please stop ok.

i believe that they won't come here and read because i know haha they won't read the bottom parts because it's a long way story and it's gona be something else they only read the recent post i guess this is something i expected X D that why if something important that could be a long post haha X D.

the calls , the message , the voice

i got the deal and i get the deal
Uncle ben give me an offer , all i need to do is follow up the bill and help him check the claim bills .. he offer me salary(RM700) + 1 phone(W960i or K850i) choose one, guess what i refuse that offer , i din said much but i just refuse that offer
he was shocked to listen that , and he said that time i though you said you want me buy 1 phone for you? as my reply was huh it's was only a joke i can get it if i want to i just don't feel like buying new phone because after changing it , it will be more gossip to let people to said about it.I'm looking forward on 2nd hands phones haha out of sudden.today i just made him shocked , uncle jimmy called me sudelly so wired he ask about uncle ben he called me to call uncle ben for meeting ,eh you cannot call him meh ? then i just drop a msg and tell uncle ben later what's going on i don't know .So i msg Tai and told him about that.

haha later on i know what happend, 2 old man playing cat chasing mouse ....
chey i though what so urgent. as in the afternoon i was replying them the sms but i forget to sms back to my pet brother @@ ouch how ... i know he sure think i do it on purpuse 1 lo aiks nvm la i'm normal with it de.Today really bz replying msg ... aiks as my fish msg me also i also said wrong things ... so sad ....lucky she din't ask much things about it, if not haha something that she should not know she will know.

i let my pet brother TROWOFF he reply me enjoy your bendan gather <- wah want like that meh you hate because of some reason , aiks i don't know how to said la , just sudelly feel that he's quite selfish leh , the point is if you don't like don't bring down people and agree with you lo, i found out he sometimes really want people agree with him as i know him so long a small argument has lighted , don't know what he will think la but as i know sometime i can't agree with him, because i found that he's wrong ermm but actuly diffrent people diffrent answer lo so i'm not angry with it i'm just worry that people start to ignore him just because of that aiks... just after that msg i feel funny don't know want to tell him that it's rude to said that or what... just woundering why would he want to use that words BENDAN in the msg .
it was like something shape telling and pointing . Just hard to tell .

that day i kena fucked, damn so out of sudden weh uncle said oui sui chai can your fucking talk that time you give us some eye contact?Y.Y aiks i normal with it leh what want me talk and give you eye contact? they said something but i forget what...
but i remember i said oh like that only ma doens't means i don't respect de ma....
wah kena shoot 99 ok ok my bad ...KEEP QUITE den Y.Y

nothing much just like that night time went for gathering with ON9 friends and had a buffet at YUEN steamboat then speed at ldp for 10 min reach aman suria then go home.

she went to clubbing @@

There are many prodigal sons
On our city streets they run
Searching for shelter
There are homes broken down
People’s hopes have fallen to the ground
From failures

This is an emergency!

There are tears from the saints
For the lost and unsaved
We’re crying for them come back home
We’re crying for them come back home
And all your children will stretch out their hands
And pick up the crippled man
Father, we will lead them home
Father, we will lead them home

There are schools full of hatred
Even churches have forsaken
Love and mercy
May we see this generation
In it’s state of desperation
For Your glory

This is an emergency!

Sinner, reach out your hands!
Children in Christ you stand!
Sinner, reach out your hands!
Children in Christ you stand!

And all Your children will stretch out their hands
And pick up the crippled man
Father, we will lead them home
Father, we will lead them home


Wow i'm tired today the work that i done was so tired , after all i keep replying msg my pet brother , some old friends , most of the time uncle keep reply me...actuly i'm tired of replying the sms and i told my pet brother i'm driving that time i was driving to home but i lazy reply him so i just focus and driving till i reach home well well i on my pc as usal then uncle called he start with " oie sui chai what you doing no reply me arrr "
i was tired and i told him , he hear my voice i guess ... then talk and talk .... the best part is don't know what he told me i fell asleep haha so syok haha he talk and talk ...but i sleep de then 10 something i call him back i told him sorry aiks you know he told i entertaning him so he angry , but later on i told him he said sorry also he just want to find some one to talk , i was asking him aiks you talk to your wife la she always stay at home you always don't call her where can like this 1, he said aiks you normally also talk to her ma nevermind 1 la ... , actuly i want to tell him that his wife actuly very bored at home but auntie told me not to tell him so ok ok, i keep tell him go get a kid la .. then he don't know give what reason and said he have to go . wah lau again !!!
ok suan ... then i called mengz for gay2lat he said ok ok ... then went to his house to gay2lat... den den i msg my her she at club gosh how could she always go club, she give me the answer of i bored , then i nothing to do follow my sis go club. Ouch ok ok my bad i should msg her early but i'm too tired ... aiks then chat chat with her lo ... like this then went home ... called my sg friends for a talk then do nothing haha asking for relaxing .....

opsi X D what have i done today?

ermm today morning wake up aiks leg pain , because yesterday went walking took me about an hour walk up and down and i went to the Basketball court , haha dennis was here so year wait him and i got car send me back.Pain lo Y.Y aiks nvm den do my works and on talk to somebody on the phone about 30 min i think uncle ask me for beering @@ i just tell him that i'm not free, so early and so hot you call me beer sot sot geh tea maybe can ... lucky he din came if not i can't finish my work ... so my whole afternoon was doing my work staying at home at the afternoon...Uncle call again !!!! Want tea ? ermm guess ok i'm finish with my assignment around 8 he called me around 1oc midnight i think so as he came then go out tea with him ...normal talk lo ... actually i very hungry but pai seh leh due to i scare he paid the bill that why i din call any food to eat , as he ask me what i want to eat i always said anything, aiks i know now i'm not earning money but you always paid for me i like feel guilty ... aiks sometime my wallet empty i would just push all the tea or beer things when my wallet has no money i go where also like not happy due to like waiting people to paid...i always tell uncles you count me in the bill please don't one shot, after telling that .. every time they ask me for tea my wallet sure won't come out with money .. this make things worst !!!!arrrr don't know la , then he told me today SAM when people paid for you , you has a meaning or somethings special about you would you think people would simply paid for you?
ouhhh i never think of that question before sound so new too me haha so gay today...then i ask was it i'm too good wuhahahaha...he said nope actuly you are some body that always give advice i see no harm listening from you ... that why i always find you .Yerrr don't always find me la i want to do my assignment and also i need spend sometime with my fish you should know that what...my pet brother also like that, he also always paid the bill aiks at least last night i get to paid for the food but not the drinks, he came and find me haha afternoon he msg me early so i'm ok with everything.funny weh !!!Uncle i think you need to finds someone else better then me i'm no longer free soon i got assignment to rush ... X D ( avoid you la if not later your wife jelous haha you should have a family day arr )

Thanks you Uncles and to my pet brother always spend me.
i love people spend me but not all the time,
i'll start to avoid you guys because it's like gold digger when you guys always paid,
i try not to msg you guys offend because i scare many things happened,
i want to tell you all that i'm happy but you all are not around,
i also don't how i want it to be so better don't ask me,

sometimes i want it to be the old ways,
sometimes i want it to be the new ways.
aiks don't know leh ,
mengz ask me before if like this cannot like that cannot then how only can?
i don't know how to answer @@.
why don't you let it be ?
i asked how to let it be?
he told me just don't tell them , what they do just see only don't tell.
oh lord i can't see people stepping into drain what...
then you want tell them...they change you make noise, then why tell them?
Ohh i get what he means haha then i just blog about it i din tell much.

Oh my i just notice what happened , Tai called me in urgent
i was figuring who could call my emergency number Tai did it.
ermm shocking news and i know why they argue now , lucky i din give comment
if not i'll be goreng haha but as i know this problem is not coming from me
so i guess they won't simply open fire...all about the company things
that it aiks .... i really know why they argue ?when things it's equal.
maybe they don't know i have count that last time maybe recelly they change
i don't know...Tai just tell me abit that why i was wandering....

then went to bath !!!!
hoho i notice today i haven bath haha X D so yeah went to bath !!!

realize things are just simillar with what you having

i don't know how to said but i know how to write ,
it been awhile i look at the sky ,
it remind me the day that my modem dies ,
and that day was chilling ,
but not today.

I want to correct my self for mistake that i made today,
i should not went out last night,
i'm empty today in class,
i was asleep suddenly ,
i saw Mark Teh taking craps with facts,
i don't know what happened but i know it's my fault.

Yew MSG to my phone and i was surprise that he said that I'm bored with her
so yeah i told him early that was not suitable for him,
don't want to listen to me because of age different?
he said you don't know you don't know , but how much do he know?
ok I'm not going to detail he called up and talk due to the time is late so i rather stay at home....

i hate when people ask me to skype...
1st.reason one bad memories...(that how i lost my 1st .....)
2nd.I'm scare to see those people online i would spend time talking with them serious...
3rd I'm happy that my English level learn from there ...
4th i meet those uncles it's bad when my friends found out i talk to uncles....
5th i got too many social life with uncles...
so it's a 4 bad and 1 good .

and now what i notice was , actually people around you are jealously about what you heading so they would make up some shity words to shock you always or make you agree with them, as life go on i found out what makes they said that words "GAY" beacause we found each other offend ? if that so what if i found you always and what could probably other people said ? derrr it's the same ... i talk to stranger because they would tell something they would not tell in life due to the people that you trust the most , normally they won't keep it in to their mouth , they could just jog down somewhere , blog or tell somebody else would have a heart to listen.In fact life actually has alots of meaning and i found it in a special ways , I've seen what i want to , so spending time with older people doesn't mean GAY ok it's a fact that to gain out knowledge so i know much about life , problem came a cross don't escape Manny older people told me , but infact the youngster give the opposite answer so which should i listen , ok ermm i choose the both ways an anlaysis it seem not escaping has stress at first but when problem comes oh lord it's so eazy to fix , but how about the escping ways people started to cauculate your personality ....

Was i wrong?
or maybe i'm wrong at this moment ( you agree with me later? )
no comment!!!

jimmy and ben had an argument i guess it best i stay a side, no idea what's going on as i told them this adult things i'm too small to give comment so yeah i escape and i used the youngster ways .. but i did not know what's going on. so i move on and looking forward for the met of them ,they would argue until things fix so i'm not worry about that..

The fake smile, who could that be?
was esh me?
was esh she?
was esh us?
was esh they?
i don't know who said that to provoked me
but i know i could be one of them .
something i should not know ,
it's expose now ,
what can i do ?
keep you mouth shut...


I hope chai can get me a vr4 engin with good conditional i really want to test it out , they said the G-force were cool so i think i better help my friend to get his engin so we can have a test on it.


place i been too X D
http://wegomapo.blogspot.com/

http://futuristisch.blogspot.com/

http://sunnamwon.blogspot.com/

http://piabramley.blogspot.com/

http://urara1117.blogspot.com/

few days ago what happend?

this is pass week , the random days of my phone misscalleds
just don't want to hear the voice of them.

One of the ramdom night , this is my dinner and i was rushing our with my uncles

Aiks no time to clean it up this is the mest X D


This is one of the visitor dog from one of the auntie dog , it's look cute but it bully my little sporty and whitewhite , it drop by and stay for 3 days . after that it's mum came and pick it up and bye bye haha X D pity this dog aiks 2 of it leg were cacat... this dog is deaf also it can't hear i tested so pity it aiks....





ACtuly i have things to confess.

I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.
It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you
Everyday I love you boy
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul
If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you

she was right i saw her msg on the board ,it's JQ-lin msg board.
and i just notice it ,

that days i went to ....
I went to clubbing at barcelona lo 10 oc enter JQ-lin , Shui , Aki were there , they bring me in and i did not paid a sigle sen haha due to it's ladies night, they called me go since long time ago but i feel like not going because i don't really like drink and drive but this day i did , because she called me go and i promissed one day ago when we having tea . ok i'm suprize that sharon FFKed US X D and this is the first time i went with my food to barcelona.. ok kinda of fun but i make a move at 1oc actuly i'm damn hungry that why i leave , before that i dranked 4 glassed of hard liqure so went off 1 oc with poan , i'm driving and same goes to poan.Then i went to taman sea to find mengz for burger haha drink gay2lat and have 2 burger as usual then went off at 2 oc and guess what when i reach home suprize that uncle ben car were parking at the side of my house that junction , don't know leh weird i told him i went out to clubs @@ then he did not call me and msg me he just park there and on his laptop in his car, wei wei uncle ben action too weird leh... what the hell...Aiks then i park my car at my house then i walk near his window and knock his door... he shocked that i knock his door and he winded the window down and guess what he said hei sam so NGAM 1 haha i just passing by stop by see you were here anot.... Eh uncle i told you i went to clubbing wor , he said huh ya meh haha forget , he look drunked swt no comment then i ask meh si? he said want tea? then i tell him eh i drive better la you like drunk... he said eh ok ok you drive , then drive to kelana jaya mcdonalds at first he said eh i think we go beer ok mo eh i guess actuly i'm ok because 4 cups of that hard liqure i think it's over de haha so went to nearby 7 11 and bought 6 small bottle or beer lo haha then drink in his car and talk ...... look at the sky and talk he started to question weird things, one more things he freak me out sam actuly i know today you will leave the club early , shocked me i ask why? he said ermm because you sure din go ate your dinner before you go to club, swt i said ya... yerr uncle you know too much la don't jaga me la haha i scare 1 you know you treat me like that ,talk talk talk until 5 oc.. then he send me home and he's ok after few hours of chilling , now me start to get blur haha cos when he ask me qustion i keep drink beer avoiding , actuly i don't think he pass by to my house and also the food things i don't think actuly he know ( actuly i ate some food and went to club just to fill in the answer only sorry uncle ben don't ment to do that but you should know that answer it's a lie rite i know you come for a reason that why i just answer you ya.)so don't worry about that i still don't get what is going on with him last time i help him working that time he also seldom find me since i quit that job yet he keep call me back for part time or what also good la as long you help me he said. I always think i'm not so good you can find better person what ,why me?

sometimes i really don't know what makes him want me help him, that day beer time with him i guess i know abit of the answer due to the person that he hive most of them are geting gready at the money that why he don't like , all things i just guess because that day he show me his laptop sale rate it's drop like shit and the hit rate are not even my 30%... i figure how those guys survire then uncle let me see the account ...woot not even earning but why the money is out and the rate of that were... i guess i know what happend.I just guess he did not tell me...i hope i was right as i told him i'm a good guesser X D. so yeah ....

it's saturday morning 11 oc i wake up and called poan he were asleep yet mengz FFKed us the 2nd times 1st is the barcelona 2nd is omar N-gage weeding ... aiks 12 oc went to kepong there omar always said wrong direction !!! he missed 2 trafic light and lucky poan listen to me haha then we went to the place guess what i saw karen , eh for the truth karen for me is like a diffrent world people she a lawyer in future i guess and i don't really like to talk that much when they have too much facts in thier converstation i'm like lost weh ... ok ok fine fine then ate lunch at omar house..... around 3 oc like that we ciao to ss3 poan send me home and i fell a sleep after he send me home ... actuly 5 oc poan called me but my phone silent haha can't contact me so he give up me and he goes to sell him mp3 to some people dealing at kl sentra.sorry la bro tired wednesday nite clubbing friday whole day assignment .... tired .... not enought sleep friday still going out late till 4 oc to watch foot ball ...that why saturday afternoon tired lo haha ....
nothing much lo wake up also 7 oc de lo aiks then play on9 games for awhile , 9 oc i was asking them where to tea due to i eat KAKI !!! swt mum said dowant cook that why i waited and i ask them where to tea den they said go to KIT house that ok lo haha cos it's his brother Birthday 21th ... ate few things there lo then 12 oc like that ss3 gang called me said FEI CHAI WANT TEA ... i guess i don't wish to talk much to him beacause sometime i really hate him when he talks ALWAYS USE FACT AND PULL PEOPLE DOWN fine i ok with that then he like to compare... lazy said la just some FAILURE I guess when he has frineds he will never call us until he's damn boring.. then he will find us. nothing much it's happy fathers day now haha X D



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i guess people just visit they don't read X D

Just doing whatever they want to do to avoid making them mad?
That is no way to have a healthy relationship.
i been doing this since last few week ago and it really show what is a relationship means to me now, i guess there is no meaning to tell it out and it get my answer from the internet so yeah i found another answer here it's "HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP"  can't believe that the answer just pop up into my mind.i just want to tell my pet brother this as in last few days i were trying to tell him this.

i'm sad today for some reason, actuly uncle ben take me to get my medical report aiks again it's sugar level abit normal. For the pass month i've stoping eating junk and stop mcdonals i guess it's not that easy to cure it out , but i guess this is the last time to visit , because actuly it's not that high it's drops but i just scare about it so i'm really sad, uncle ben said > aiks sor chai you done your best and it's normal what don't worry too much you can drink coke don't worry but don't over do it , aiks i don't know i should be happy or sad few month of coke maraton really makes me go crazy . Uncle ben keep tell me don't worry it's normal now it's ok and i keep tell him that i'm not happy with that result he said then what you want 0% ? are you ok anot * get scold @@*
oh oh fine talk with him in the car after that lunch with him. ok ok fine i think i'm to serious about that actuly i can just forget it and eat what i like, or i keep it the old ways. as i was thinking uncle ben said sam you were slim down too fast take care about your health if't not a smart way to slim down like that, all you need now is balance protien so don't choose eat what you have. thinking and thinking then i guess he's right.

Went home ...
small argument with my pet brother,sometimes i don't know it's his fault or mine i've trying to cool down actuly when i talk to him yet he always does that KNS things that make me angry, you have your anger i also have, you been asking me some question i'll been replying to you and you said i never read , the problem is you just judge me from the first sign , i've notice that what i done once wrong it's in your memory, so today argument was so lame... i get what he means and he started to said i've project this and that then get the KNS thing again , this is the secound things that i always want to tell him but can't tell him direct i told mengz and uncle ben about that how could i told him that stright forward, i tried but end result is don't know he get or he just skip that.He's always telling too much thing about his currently rather you know or don't know , it's more easy to get your detail just like that. haiz i guess i should not said that maybe someday i get what it the real meaning is but... nvm since here is a dead place so i no need worry about people to visit here X D i can wrote what i like, actuly i not worry about people to visit i'm just worry when they really read @@ it become shits .somehow i guess i should not tell him the current medical things to him it's good to keep to my self , the infomation is too over for him ...aiks i guess just something wrong i done today.he said my mood were down actuly yes kinda of then he went miaed lately he told me his boss were using his pc,in this kind of situation?
wow what could make me believe?then i on my pda and went to my Girl fren house for a talk and chit chat with her actuly she my normal friends .. just normal no other special relationship
X D until 5 something i went for a walk i walk and walk aiks pain nvm la i've pain enought i need to work it out walk and walk till i stop ok fine i went to basketball court and look for dennis he's actuly there haha glad so some one could fetch me home for no reason.sat down there for an hours then went back home.

I guess most of the people around started to feel that i'm crazy now my phone is still silent until now and those misscalled that i saw were nothing to me.What you do actuly people just appreciate once and not twice,they could said i'm not that kind of people , but if you really see it does...

The real things about it...
Uncle ben acting weird he's visit to me is so pack i don't know what happend and i did ask auntie about that but aiks..... no answer actuly.just avoid !!!
too not to cheat actuly my report said i'm normal as ABC but all i need is to control the sugar and work it out.that's it .i'm just not satify with that report that is i finally get it.
uncle ben ask me sam do you affaid of dying?actuly i tell him eh nope the real reason of dying were something that you have to let it go and it's a faith you can't control.you can't said i want to do this first and do that first when times come means come you can't change. i told him....todays most of the conversations were cold.

The night of 12 oc
i went out with mengz and we heading to mcdonalds have 2 cups of mediam coke light then ate some frieds and 12 pc of nugget and spend 3 hours talking , it's great when after 12 oc my mind always clear after 12oc midnight.actuly the reason i go to mcdonlads is to do my design ideas so i've done .

some happy things i just notice....
my imeem account were a busted X D most of the song i uploads there are people listen and i guess i'm not the crazy one rite...
guess what my pet brother finally notice that playing the old online game was lame , i've told him to quit but what i get was he said" i don't like to do things half" ok fine if you don't want to listen why force ... no meaning right ...so todays he reply in a diffrent ways , oh okie .... i just wounder what makes him change his mind , later i get the answer .

I like to talk at midnight ,
the only 2 person that always talk to me is mengz and uncle ben , afternoon talks were somethings that i din think much i guess or maybe the weather make me feel down.

Sudelly pop ups
my pet brother told me that one of his cousin said that i pull my wallet slow when paying the food or tea-ing , ok ok maybe his cousin were right at some place ,i do take out my wallet slow because i need to open the zip and look for the wallet and open it but nowdays i'm not using wallet , i'm using pouch , frankly i don't have that kind of style that people paid for me because later on people will just gossip about you, that why me and mengz always share , i'm happy some time people paid for me but if it's always , you just made me like some jerk that keep following you for treats , then what happend? i guess problem came .neh the problem just pop up X D.
ok la i'm find with that due to it happend when i going out with uncle ben , the problem of treating is sometime those place are not ment to be paid from me @@ i guess it too expensive i can't paid that but i can share , as i know those people after a certain ages they don't like to share they want to paid all @@ so it's hard to always paid all right like the beer things 1 or 2 jag maybe i can afford but not always rite @@ i have no salary evendo last time i hit the sale rate but it really become history and today the money become mystery ...this is true. Haha for sometimes i really forget to paid back because i always give after , or in the car people doens't see fine lo , i guess i'm not that kind of person that's it.

Stupid mengz said i'm gay , i ask uncle ben before that question he said yes it look gay when you helping 100% like the incident that you fetch your fren to hospital at the midnight...who's that  fella could do that and traval that far to send his fren to hospital?guess i'm doing that it's gay?
uncle said the point of view is when the person you send he will not feel you are gay , until people around start to said you are then you are no matter what you change. i just stoned and said weh really so gay meh if not how ehh @@ can't what people middle of the night pain yet still call him wait until tomorrow morning , i guess i can't tahan that long . uncle ben said yes that true but people said it's a gay way why not the family members fetch him to hosipital? Ehh ehh ehh no idea i just want to help i have no other meaning about that.Uncle ben said why would you care what people said when you are not what you think. ok so i just help what i can if i can't then sorry lo sad weh sometime help people you told them the solution then they din reply at all .. it more like a use weh no thank you never mind yet still got those ABCDEFG words arrr or maybe they don't reply you ... MOST LAME.... it's 5oc @@ i guess it's bed time X D

I quit I lost I realize again

I quit , yes i quit what is going to stop me by the way.
Since you want to lead i'm so happy so now you take the lead and i quit,
it all yours , i'm fine with that guess what it's makes me more happy ,
since you guys really want a positions of it go a head so i no need carry another heavy bag.
i don't want to stick any close with this problems yet stop asking me about it .

People said i have feeling about that but hello i know what's going on so i'm happy that someone take the lead , hell yeah it's the best time to let you see what you said arent there true.

If you can do better then me i guess i'm an idiot doing that much,
but if you aren't you just a jerk that keep talking backstreets rubbish.
i bet you bad and don't beg me back for that.

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Uncle ben were right the list of people that i mention they really change , and he given me a side bet on few friends of mine i guess he's right sometimes when you stop msg or call them they will just blinked or forget it until you online or maybe you call them up. That makes sence when the msg pop up most of the time is helps or accompany, those that out of the list is limited i do believe that because most of the time those msg that i don't reply my phone will just ring , so else what's going on there?I ain't selfish but when i share i share enought but what does people share ? it's a diffrent story , someday i hope people really change my point view so that i'm wrong at the first place and i'll search for the wrong i did, for all my life i found out what i wrote were correct and it's so damn true.

my Q's
For the person that you msg long enough, or you talk but sudelly that person doens't reply what will you do ?
For the person sat down and said before i won't change after having a girl/boy friends in my life how many are true in that statement that they said?
For the person that always condam the social and things around what have not you change them?
For the person that keep said i'm good or what else the answer is in you, you only cheat yourself am i wrong?
For the person that said my blog are rubbish , i wounder why would you enter at the first place?
For the person that said that i'm emo i guess you were right, but how long do you know me?
For the person keep yapping about me but still they copy the style of bloging like me, so who are you?
For the person that always woundering me , i guess have you woundering your self before?
For the person that they think they know much of themself , so how much you know your self?
For the person that said , they change don't you know?
For the reason they change, you would know better then me,
For the better reason to change because you have you idea.

THAT WHAT IS HAPPENING GET IT?
Hello is there any answer for me?

I lost yes i just lost, lost to an idiots that so hope for a change ,
I believe this lost was a great lost it make sence to lost,
for the first time i knew that was a trap but yet i still jump into it,
and the feeling of mine was oh yes this is the answer i looking for,
this few week i found out many answer and uncle ben do tell me some trick to try it out,
it works weh it's not what you think it's what you realize,
actuly bullshits people are just around you,
yes i saw and i dare to said it out loud!!!!

some people just keep to thier self and they preten they are not.
some people they just tell it out but they doens't do before.
some people they would listen and retell it out and they said it's his statement.
some people said no and it's a yes in thier heart
some people think they are smarts.
some people love to blame people for some reason and they make it a  story.

I remember this at first i thought i was wrong.....it's start like this
he told me that he's doens't do that ,but that time i was telling him that bro we are human and things could change don't tell me that you did not. you can just escape this question when you choose not to answer, But you Filling in the answer and it's a no. that make put you on a list and i would sumarry it , but today someone told me that time you were doing it so what makes sence my friends?


Friends of mine always ask me > Sam what the heck is THING COULD CHANGE in your mouth that you always said?Ok ok i review now it's actuly like this ... I need to give examples, there are 3 kid in the town and they played from young , at the moment they wish that could be brothers forever but until a day has come one of them have another partnet and things change at the moment he spend more time on other place and what he saw was just judge by her and what we told him were bounced out , fine beign a good person doens't have a good return.

Later on i started to said
WHAT YOU SEE IS WHAT YOU DON'T SEE....
This is really make sence when i use it i just tell people around and they said you so stupid with this , ok fine since you dones't know what the meaning is i guess getting angry was not i plan so now i tell it here it's better then you said i simply said it, it means what you actuly see in the front actuly it's not true... some people would just said obvious is like that .... and how do you use it? it's actuly depance on what you see and you think that is true in your mind and it's end up it's wrong, there are examples that i show my msn display picture. people ask me what's the picture about , i told them it's what you see and what you don't see some of my friends they found it cool and they have thier own piece , it's a head of mine  it's my full face was taken in 45degree and i combine it into one and it looks that are 3 heads and actuly it's 2 head one on the left and on the other side.People copy my idea and they start making fun of it but do you realise that it's has a wounderfull meaning in the picture and people would said i know it's a head but where is your nose and mouth? it's actuly there.

YOU JUST DIN SEE IT.

I FINALLY FOUND 1 ANSWER THAT I ASK !!!!

less start on friday night ok it's like this mengz msg me at 2 oc midnight and told me that saturday are going to waterfall so he said ii'm picking up you at 6 30oc in the morning i was like huh what the hell ... means i no need sleep lo... because my uncles comming back from pub ask me for tea nearby my area lo aiks 3 oc at the midnight and talk to them la ... stupid uncles keep ask me those question lucky i know how to escape haha after tea for 2 hours i guess i can't really sleep much leh sien jor la,
went back home also 5oc morning lo aiks then sleep lo lucky mengz 7 oc only called me wake up at least i still got 2 hours to sleep then waited 10 to 20 min lo he reach then NAIK KERETA haha... go to cheras to pick up one of his friends .. we reach waterfall there about 10 oc  , 300+  steps to reach the middle of the waterfall, then went home around 2oc quite long haha and manny stories, then went to PJ KFC and have out lunch ... and then went to ss2 find GOLD shop haha to sell gold.. then went to ss3 giant , then ioi mall find mei kwan for dinner and movie haha.
after movie went back to ss2 tea then go home bath and sleep .

Moment at the waterfalls
Mengz > wah here the sand don't know got gold anot 1 leh
Chu hang> ya lo maybe got leh you see the sand blink blink
Fready> where got one if got manny come here dig.
Me> ermm no comment la ^play water here water very cold^

Chu hang > eh meng less go up there see got more blink blink things anot...
Mengz > ermm ya weh more high more  blink blink things weh ok less go sam you want follow?
Fready> eh i lazy climb la so freaking high
Sam> ehh lazy la don't want la you go la i want to jaga bag haha

Chu Hang and Mengz went up and i was playing water and stones ......
fready also play with me .....

hours of playing stone and water fready said weh weh sam sam you see don't know this is the diamond anot ... i said where got such think if got also not your turn la haha
then fready sudelly remove one stone on one floor then sudelly GLUP !!!! wah got a lubang !!!!!! people covered the hole swt swt aiks don't care la then i go remove the dry stone ... about ermm
quite long la then i sit on the water and dig dig dig wah many small frogs haha came out @@ i guess those hole are the frogs lives....then i change place .. this place full of stone shit weh ....so i remove it to anoter side while i remove to anoter side the ground is left sand and water i sudelly touch something .... !!!!!!!!! as my feeling i touch > i said eh why this stone got lubang 1 @@ so weird 1 then i pick up and see wow GOLD RING FREAKING THICK WEH !!!!.....then i told fready oie you see what i found @@ he said OIE WTF sure is gold arr ... i said wah sure leh 
i also can't believe this place really got gold take 1 wor @@ after few min Chu Hang and Mengz climbing  down and he said we found alot BLINK BLINK and i tell him i FOUND GOLD RING HAHA he don't believe and he try make bangkok it swt him la he always like that , then he later only he start to said weh serious is gold lai geh leh .... i said weh weh i think better sell it off i don't feel safe to keep this ring that why afternoon go ss2 then giant then ioi mall .. finally we sold the RING .....at IOI mall haha.


At IOI Mall
wow yeah you know what we sold the ring RM400, haha then mei kwan was working at IOI mall then ask her for dinner actuly at first she don't know what happend and we all though the ring are around RM200 only then while the uncle told me RM400 shocked and we just ask for cash,
after that we all are damn hungry leh at first mei kwan said she damn long din eat pizza then i said ok lo i paid haha X D then then change mind to sushi king wow ok la fine it's not my money so spend it to share ba....

At sushi king
we went in and sat down then ... start our maraton haha i said eh NO NEED SEE THE PLATE COLOR LA EAT WHAT YOU LIKE CALL WHAT YOU WANT LA.... CHU HANG was figure to called set i said aiks don't call set call sushi or other things since got ppl cheng no need safe haha call only .... 15 min later we ate like monster haha and we were happy , we all said 1st time got people cheng never said EAT WHAT YOU LIKE haha ... this time serious happy weh haha. after dinner Mei Kwan need go back to work cos now is her break time until 7 30 so she go back work we still chill there and talk lo ... damn full haha we count the plates wahh 38 plates manny expensive colour but don't have blue haha.

MY W850I!!!!
went to arcard lo and play the prize machine 30 min at there ....i change few dollar and play and the last chance was like this 1 more hit i get the price .... then FREADY sudelly PIAK THE TABBLE !!!!!! @@ -4 !!!!! wtf !!!!! my W850i !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arrrr he too early press and he terpress my button !!!! aiks nvm la then go popular walk walk and see see cos we heading movie at 10 oc  read and read laught and laugh haha ....

AT THE CINEMA
wow SO COLD LEH !!!!!!!!!!we having KUNGFU PANDA at our screen haha ....keep laught lo haha until end .


I REALIZE....
i found out what the truth of laughing , serious you think what normal what people laught like macam entertain or make it that way acting la haha . no i found out what is ture laughing is haha the whole day after findin that ring was a hell lots of smile !!!!and i paid for the sushi is worth .. everythings to me is something so now i know what i been looking for and the answer pop up to me YES I FINALLY FOUND ONE ANSWER AND IT NOT FROM PEOPLE THINKING .
Now i know why Uncles like to paid the bill not because he's rich he's looking for joy and smile and i know why they found me for a reason now i finally get the answer and not i'll appreciate haha hell yeah this is what i know by my own on this day weh it's not a fake things , my dad told me there is no free lunch at this world but some how i believe that he's worng sometimes , but now i know i'm totally wrong it's true , mater or fact it's you get or you just don't get it.Uncles now i know why you guys like to find me haha , it's this the reason? never mind if it's not haha as long i think that way was this .

Things i found was my luck,
People doens't fake out when they in suden situation,
Money that i use was a joy of happiness,
there is too much joy for the past days....

today my last words X D

i may not be around ,
so don't worry about me X D < i'm still smilling ya
i been waiting for this time ,
it come jor lo it's my time to go,
so don't worry about me ok,
no need sms me or call la ,
i will call you ok X D.

as long i'm smiling means i'm ok ya X D
i just been to a place that is suit me.


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that post were booked to let me reply this X D
3 uncles come and find me after this post they were keep asking those question that i was avoiding but i know they did not ask in purpose cos they half drunked .. don't know where they from la , i did not pick up thier phone early because haha my phone was in the drawer and it's silent woooooo haha X D ...

The talk about the converstation.....

Uncle> eh sam when you finish study arr....
2+ years lo why neh ....
Uncle> haha icic eh sam how is your new relationship ...
i still puting afford to her but don't know leh she sometime choi me sometime like aiks or maybe i  din 100% focus on her gua ...
Uncle>  eh what happend to you like changing or you got other target.
maybe
Uncle> sam what do you think if i get a kid now?
erm not a problem to you gua what you worry.....
Uncle> i scare my i don't know how to teach
don't worry ok as long you don't always compare with other people kid cos my mum last time always compare me with other that why make me feel useless...
Uncle> if don't compare today you won't be what you are, am i wrong
rrrrrrrr
Uncle> that why i don't know how to teach if i got 1.you see you where also got friends and you know how to manage your friends well .
uncle don't worry i'm here i can help ok don't worry haha your son will as naughty as me ...

something like that looo
but something that i din said much here X D
cos i don't like that topic

it's a gay day X D

what days was it , since i been silent my phone this kind of feeling is hard to find yet i hope sometimes are like this, few friends of mine they thought i'm in deep shit they just check out with me when they saw me online, yet my phone is full of misscalls "MY BAD!!!! haha" i got my own time doing my thing .

few days ago , my pet brother were finding me , that time i was doing other things i guess they saw i online i guess but i'm using my mobile to on, later on he told me something in that conversation i some how feel that aiks , i just dowant to care about the game stuff anymore , matter of fact i played sometime but if you telling me i just can't make conversation so i just tell him stright forward, do you know sometimes i don't talk things like "WAH REALLY ARR YOU GET THIS ARRR GENG LA YOU" hello come on that was damn entertaning , i'm just dowant to make my self like a clown and sometime i hope i can make them happy, but it's so fake in life would you cheat your friends what you think about that, weird things they would want you to know aiks ok ok chill.

i don't want to said things that you like to hear,
and you should know why i did that,
i want to let you know that is something is not true,
but the truth is the things that actuly most of the people are entertaing you,
so if some one pop up and tell you "eh what , then?, it doens't affect me"
all sort of things like that,
you started to think people anti you and you are going crazy angry,
come on  if you would want to listen what your heart want to hear,
fine i think i should prise you like hell,
make you like NO.1 and you would  feel better,
i just can't stand that ,
it's a fake relationship.

i would just face the fact and let you know that i'm not into it.
if you can't stand it letting it go i would just search for another one.
i just can't keep telling people that , yet it's so annoying when you tell people about that.

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early in the morning today my phone beep 3 time it's my arlam ok i wake up and pack my bag 1st then i went to sleep again, due to i set the time is  8 45oc and my class is at 11 oc,3nd wake up at 10 oc went to bath and rush to college reach there around 11oc sharp
went up shit no people in class i though class cancel
just as i thought people start comming in chey i though i very late.

went back home lunch and have joy with FRIENDS haha dota whole day at the cafe full of joy X D we scolding each and other at the end we still laugh, aiks actuly we love to scold each other with smile it's a kind of fun when we do stupid things yet sometime words are sharp but just accept it ba haha and it's better we listen it and we listen what people said and we could accept it in a better ways X D, steven always called me for dota we not playing offen but sometime we played 1 game then went home haha today diffrent he sms me and ask me so i said ok lo haha. because usally i went to cafe that time always in time meet him then we play. most of the time one game then we ciao for dinner ...

tired..

sometime i just let it go, i give up leh
i serious give up weh , today they called me for help.
i did not help i walk always , and i tried to appreciate,
and also letting go...

as i mention i din't pick up my phone people are so stress out haha , since they said who you think i am ... from my back now let them tried what they said ... don't bullshiting with me.until now i still put my phone in my drawer... seldom on my msn lol X D kinda YES that kind of feeling haha.

that it's X D

i just can't F***** sleep

it's 3 oc i can't sleep anyway, but i just woundering things i just left go it really helps haha don't think that is a bad things haha ... guess what now only i remember what my mum tell me in the mornining he told me not to drive on this week because she said i might have accident i believe what she said actul because she won't hurt me i guess , sometimes she did but nevermind she is my mother haha, sometimes she is great but sometimes she not.

what can i said i just notice that friends of mine they msg and me and i was very happy , X D.
actuly there is nothing about it , for the pass 1 hours ago there are few people msging me that is mengz , deetee , sam , pz , and most shocking is gurl msg me haha X D. nothings much just chat lo .

aiks so sad weh 321 jor i still can't sleep, aiks what to do who call me sleep just now haha X D.
my friends were very angry about that case which i don't pick up the phone and reply the msg,
woot nevermind this show how a person can tahan ... if you so fast give up how about me?don't want to think about that ....

look at the bright side ,
people maybe go and people came,
things you change is just what you want to change,
the faith you pick is what you want to do go on,
five things that you never think of it,
you change,
you are sad,
you are too happy but don't know how to share
you are bored and you start pressing the msn list pop up and hope some one chat with you.
actuly you were nothing .

Maybe they can't tahan that yet why should i tahan them,
They got problem only find me, so how about i got problem,
who's helping me yet i telling you, you just give me yes ..huh ,
and all entertaining words... what for i tell you.

that time i was sad really sad why is the one who called me?
not even a sigle friends called me but strange called and ask ,
do you know when you hear those blessing words how you feel?
it's so happy to hear that you know not just woundering and pretening,
yet they said we are brothers , now i ask what's brother for?
it's for use , for chilling, for drinking tea or what shit?
i've ask why would you want that tittle for me , yet what you guys said?
i just can't imagine what are those ?
entertaining? huh bull shits?
I still remember that but did you guys rememeber,
at the night who said hungry and need someone to accompany?
and who is driving? have you ever think of that .
today you sudelly called and ask me for something come on,
brother doens't use like that ok you know i don't like that why still approach me?
i've tell you i have limits of tolerate ok.
just don't let me tell you in my mouth ,
if that happend you and me are in distance.
so sorry i can't accept that anymore don't called me if you think i'm badly wrong.
if you called make sure don't ask me do somethings because i fed up to help .

PEOPLE DON'T APPRECIATE HELP AND YET THEY KEEP ASKING FOR HELP.
I SAW A MSG OF HELP AND I'M SICK OF IT.
SO DON'T THINK I'M NOTHING WHEN I DON'T TELL YOU
SAYING IT WAS MY LAST WORDS TO THIS RELATIONSHIP.

Weird mood X D

we took a walk up the street,and picked a flower and climbed the hill above the lake.
And secret thoughts, were said aloud. We watched the faces in the clouds, til the clouds had blown away
and were we ever some where else you know it's hard to say
And I never saw blue like that before.
Across the sky, around the world.
You're giving me all you have and more.
And no one else has ever shown me how
to see the world the way I see it now,
oh why, I never saw blue like that
I can’t believe a month ago,
I was alone I didn’t know you,
I hadn't seen,
or heard your name.
And even now,
I’m so amazed it's like a dream
it's like a rainbow,
it's like the rain.
And some things are the way they are and words just can’t explain
And I never saw blue like that before across the sky, around the world.
You're giving me all you have and more.
And no one else has ever shown me how
to see the world the way I see it now, oh why, I never saw blue like that before
And it feels like now, and it feels always, and it feels like coming home
I never saw blue like that before. Across the sky, around the world
You're giving me all you have and more.
And no one else has ever shown me how to see the world the way I see it now,
oh why, I never saw blue like that before Oh why I never saw blue like that

Today i'm heading some weird mood, i left all my phone at the room and i just walk away i'm not emoing so , i did that i left my phone at my drawer and walk aways guess what , i have 22 miss called and 10 sms.. my other phone has 5 sms , and my msn i was offline , why did i do that because i feel that todays was a day that manny people were looking for me, so i just did that ...

I just escape some sort of things in my life would be a great or faith.

people are geting angry with me i've no idea, when i looking for them they were somewhere else X D but if one day i'm totally gone what do you think this could happend?I'm giving all but who's giving in?

i told most of my friends people would change somedays , you will never be the same what you did before and now it's totally diffrent so why would you granted your words, i've seem most of the people beside me change , some change for girl friends
some change for money reason , some change for no reason, and manny more friends of mine they would said no i won't what's changing we are not changing , i just want to tell to all my friends actuly every one change but you just don't notice if you think today i'm wrong , fine make it wrong . i'll never fix it until i figure out i'm really wrong.

too all my blood brother and all my darlings i hope you understand me.
i wish to tell but i guess i let you guys figure out is better then i tell.


Lucky she did not msg me ,i feel bless X D

What you want to know?

Uncles i'm very happy going out with you guys but, sometime i'm not into that kind of situation so please understand.they fetch me out and have a happy hour drink near by uncle jimmy house , i was wounder why they looking for me so urgent.. until i found out something is not right,it's not a bad and it's not a good thing aiks dowant said that it's PNC stuff ... all i can said is why want blame other peoples when you doens know your self that well and you keep said that you know your self well fine i dowant argue, uncle ben i really cannot tahan that guy talk sometime, but lucky it's not my case it's his personal things , early i told you all no one believe me aiks just sometimes want to listen or not up to you guys.

uncle ben fetch me on the afternoon but auntie was not there so i din ask uncle ben about that , then went to uncle jimmy house and went out for beer wow guess what i saw that guy ... neh nvm forget it just drink and sat down and talk.... and talk...
auntie sudelly came in i was shocked uncle ben did promiss me he bring auntie come haha he did that @@ but .... auntie leave very early i din ask why go so early...
then talk talk talk ..... so long and so manny jag @@. they send me home and i went out with my friends again for tea.

i'm happy because ben came and fetch me , and i can see your wife and talk to her when i hear the things that i dowant to hear from that guy, Uncle ben you give me a promiss you bring her out yes you did it, but in my case i can't do that i'm very sorry due to i'm still on the string and yet you should understand.

DON'T BLAME PEOPLE PLEASE....
if you don't know what's going on why not ask, i just want to shoot that uncle ben stoped me, lucky you next time you won't be that lucky. sometimes i smile doens't mean i'm happy, some people just see what they see (it's the truth).

Uncle ben just want me to be happy since he ask me about the two girl things... well i guess it's better they found someone so i'm would not struggle in middle.well i told him what actuly happend but i did not tell to my close friends because they won't understand what is that ... what is means... so they would think other things.
after telling uncle ben that, he pull me to another tabble and sat down he ask me manny question and tell me alot of stuff.I'm suprize that he worry about me i though he was worry about his share and his business only ...he understand me well so i just tell him what happend , aiks for my close friends i told them they would just said i'm a playboy or what shyit so i don't manage to tell them 100%, sometime my friends they think they really know me well when i ask what colour i like, how manny number i have and how much i spend on mcdonlads they would just ar ar ar erm .....
answer are everywhere and all are not the correct one.sometimes i just talk to older people because they understand why this could happend and why i did that, but some older friends of mine they still in the level of thier own, i would not tell them because they make me feel, what they said and what they do are diffrent, one of mine older friends said sam don't do that again, ok i stop shoot around , but you keep continew what the hell is going on , don't use your age and talk to me i don't fucking like that ... and if you don't know how to respect me yet don't talk to me , you think you sudelly pop in FAUL words is funny? the most i hate was when they need the fucking help they could just call me help help i need help , when i'm not helping they give me funny expresion , wahh i own you guys? sometimes i wish to turn all things off i'm sick of helping and chating with those people who want to talk like that ....just sad if we were close enought i think we should have more respect to each other , does it means if we are close enought we can talk rude and i can simply open your drawer and see for your secrets? if that happend i guess i dowant to be that close i would just keep a distance , and i still get my respect back.

Uncle ben if next time i get a suprize call from you i know what it means,can i preten not to pick up?if you doens't see me on9 at the moment don't worry. i'm ok and i'm very healthy.